Fates Fault

Fate’s fault

Summery: you’d always been confused about your feeling for both Eddie and Buck, but then Eddie had started dating Ana and Buck started flirting with you so you thought ‘that’s destiny choosing for me’. But you should have known destiny was a bitch

Pairing: Reader x Evan Buck Buckley x Eddie Diaz

Getting your job at the 118 had been a dream coming true; your last firehouse had been a nightmare: you had been the only woman firefighter, the first they had ever had and, let’s be honest, they hadn’t been nice. The teasing had been never ending, the constant flirting, even thought you hadn’t been interested and you had made that clear, was annoying.

So when you heard about an opening at the 118 you had seized the opportunity. You had soon felt like you were home: your colleagues were nice, they respected you and even though the rookie had flirted with you the first time you had met, he had stopped as soon as you had told him you weren’t interested and now you were actually friend. So you were finally doing the job you loved in a stimulating working environment.

Trouble started when you met Eddie Diaz and Evan Buckley. You had only heard about the first shift team and you had heard talks about Eddie Diaz and Evan Buckley in particular: Jessica, your colleague, had described them as two hot badasses who were also really nice. You had rolled your eyes at her.

The day you had met them you had just decided to go to work early so you could do some work out.

You had just entered the gym when you saw them training and your first thought was that “fuck Jessica was right”. You had tried to pretend you didn’t see them and focus on your work out but they had also see you walk in and, being the nice person that they were, they had smiled at you and introduced themselves.

That day you had spent most of your time in the gym talking to them instead of working out and when their shift ended and they left, after you had promised to go out for a drink with their team, you had stood there looking at the door gym until Jessica had walked in. You hadn’t told her about your meeting with the two super hot firefighters of the first shift that day, because you knew she would have smirked and said “I told you so”.

That day you had gone home after your shift and you hadn’t been able to stop thinking about them and the troublesome thing was that, you were sure you had a crush on one of the two firefighters, but you weren’t sure which one. You didn’t think much of it that day though: you had talked with them barely an hour, you didn’t really know them. That night you had gone to sleep and you had dreamed about blue and brown eyes.

You had started spending your free time with Eddie and Buck since that day; you had taken the time to know them as friends but the time spent together hadn’t dispelled the doubts about who you actually liked between the two. It wouldn’t have been a problem if you were sure neither of them liked you but some time you could feel their eyes on you when you were out together and you weren’t looking, they were always touching you somewhere, your leg, your back, your arm, your cheek: if you were together they were never far from you. And most of all they flirted with you in particular when the other one wasn’t there.

So yeah you were confused because you had feeling, strong feelings, for both of them: you thought about Eddie’s smile as much as Buck’s laugh; you dreamed about Buck’s blue eyes and soft caressed as much as Eddie’s brown eyes and strong arms. So yeah you were screwed and the worst thing was that, during all this time they had become your best friends so you couldn’t tell them the truth because the mere idea of ruing your friendship scared you.

So you didn’t tell anything, hoping that your feelings for one of them would disappear with time or that fate would tell you which one of them was your destiny. You should have known you couldn’t trust fate, because FATE WAS A BITCH!

It had happened suddenly: one day you were sure that if you kissed Eddie he would have gladly kissed you back, and the next day he was dating Ana Flores, Christopher’s ex teacher.

You were crashed when you found out because even if you had been waiting for a sign to help you choose you still loved him and seeing him with Ana wasn’t easy.

But fate had made the choice for you and you were gonna act accordingly because it was true that you loved Eddie but you loved Buck too.

You started spending more time with Buck and less with Eddie, it wasn’t really your doing to be honest: Eddie had his dates with Ana and needed to spend time with Christopher so you saw him less and less and when you did Buck was there most of the time. Eddie didn’t talk about Ana with you and you didn’t ask, so it was Buck who told you Eddie had told Chris about his girlfriend and they were spending more time together just the three of them together. You thought you heard sadness in Buck’s voice while he told you about Eddie and Ana but you were too distracted by your own broken heart to really pay attention.

If your relationship with Eddie was drifting, your relationship with Buck was flourishing: you had always fun with Buck but now that it was mostly just the two of you you were awestruck by him.

Your first date had been a blast: you had had dinner together, there hadn’t been even a moment of awkward silence and the night had ended with Buck kissing you on your door step. You were happy with Buck, and even if thinking about Eddie sometime huffed a bit you were happy he was happy. Everything was ok... until it wasn’t.

You were on shift when you heard a sniper was targeting firefighter and that Eddie had been shot. You were taken by panic: Eddie was hurt and you didn’t even know how bad it was, you knew Buck had been with him but he wasn’t answering your phone. You couldn’t breath: the two people you love the most on your life were in danger, one of them was surely hurt and you didn’t have news about the other one and you couldn’t do anything.

Jessica found you sitting on the floor in the bathroom, silently crying and trying to breath.

“Hey come on, it’s going to be ok”- Jessica tried to reassure you

“Eddie has been shot, Buck isn’t answering his phone. What if... what if...”- you sobbed. No one was telling you anything and you couldn’t stop thinking about the worst outcome.

“Don’t think about it, Buck is gonna call you soon and Eddie is strong, he’s gonna make it. You gotta be thinking positive honey and you need to be strong for them”- Jessica hugged you trying to calm you.

You had never told her about Buck and Eddie but you had always thought she had her suspicions even though she had never told you anything.

You could finally breath: Eddie’s surgery had gone well, Buck was ok even if still scared and your panic had finally lessen.

You hadn’t talked to Buck yet but Bobby had finally answered your call telling your everything: about the shooter, about Eddie’s surgery, about Buck taking care of Christopher.

You had texted Buck but he still hadn’t answered you, so now that you were finally out of shift and calm you had decided to visit Eddie at the hospital because even if you knew he was ok, you needed to see for yourself.

You were almost at Eddie’s room when you saw Ana angrily leaving. You didn’t think much of it and kept walking: the door of Eddie’s hospital room was open and you could hear voices, in particular it sounded like Buck’s.

You looked inside the room: Eddie and Buck were kissing... on the lips. Actually Eddie and Buck were making out.

You stood there watching without a word: the guy you were in love with and you were kinda dating was kissing your best friend aka the other guy you were also in love with.

Apparently fate hated you and decided to screw you up: you had been in love with two guys between which you couldn’t choose and you had thought fate had chosen for you.

You were right: fate had decided you didn’t deserve either.

You left the hospital with a broken heart not even noticing Hen and Chimney saying hello to you.

Your heart hurt: you didn’t know if you were mad at Buck for kissing Eddie while dating you, you didn’t know if you were mad at Eddie for kissing your boyfriend…. Could you really call Buck your boyfriend? You didn’t care much for labels but evidently Buck did and didn’t think of you as his girlfriend.

In the end you knew you were just mad at yourself for even thinking for a second they actually cared about you how much you cared about them. You had never been happier to not be on the same shift as them: you really needed some time away from them.

They deserved to be happy together if they really wanted to but you couldn’t be their ‘cheerleader’, at least not for now: the betrayal would sting for a while and your heart needed time to heal.

You spent the next day alone: Buck had tried to call you but you didn’t feel like getting your heart crushed even more than it already was. Beside you were kinda feeling petty: Buck had ignored your calls and texts for hours, even after the madness had ended. So why couldn’t you ignore him?

Your day ended with you alone in your bed watching the screen of your phone lightning up with Buck’s calls. You silenced it and tried to sleep.

You knew going to work in the morning wasn’t going to be easy but now that you were in front of the firehouse you were feeling dreadful: why was Buck’s car in the parking lot? You had been sure he would have taken some day to help Eddie and Christopher.

You kept your head up and walked into the firehouse: you had nothing to be ashamed for, you had done nothing wrong beside this was your house too.

You went straight to your locker to leave your bag and of course Buck was there.

“Hey I tried to call you yesterday”- he said while looking at you with his puppy eyes.

“Yeah”- you weren’t sure what you were supposed to say: yeah sorry I didn’t answer but I’m very fucking mad at you for kissing our best friend while we are sort of an item? You didn’t think you were ready to have this conversation with him

“Just yeah… you don’t answer me for a whole day and yeah is all you have to say?”

“Listen Buck this is not the moment nor the place to talk about it, ok? My shift is just starting”- you said while closing your locker so you could head for the door.

“What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you acting like this? So what is this? payback? I don’t answer to you so you decide to do the same to me?! Very mature of you. Well I’m sorry if I was busy trying to save our friend and couldn’t answer your thousand texts”- he was yelling and you could feel the stare of your squad.

You were trying to stay calm because you didn’t want to give everyone a show but you were hurt and he was really pissing you off.

“Too busy saving Eddie or making out with him?”- you said calmly and you could see the shock on Buck’s face.

“What?I-“- he tried to say but you rolled your eyes at him

“Guys?”- Eddie’s voice came from behind you… of course he was here… fate had apparently decided that it really hated you

“So can I go to do my job or you wanna scream something else at me?”- you said to Buck while completely ignoring Eddie. You were mad at both of them because they both had betrayed you. -“good”- you added when Buck didn’t say anything else.

Eddie stopped you looking at you pleadingly but you talked before he could say anything

“Please let me through. I really don’t want to talk to either of you right now”- you knew you had watery eyes but you were hoping he wasn’t going to say anything about it. You took a breath of relief when he moved to let you through.

“I’m really glad you’re ok”- you told Eddie without looking at him before leaving the room.

After Eddie and Buck left, your shift went smoothly: you noticed people looking at you but they were kind enough not to ask anything.

The end of you shift arrived sooner than expected and now you were finally home, ready to end your day… you should have known better.

As soon as you parked you noticed two people waiting for you on your porch; you thought about turning your car and leaving but they had seen you and you knew you had to talk to them sooner or later.

You got out of the car, walked towards your house and once there opened your door without saying anything to them. You went in, still not talking, but leaving the door opened.

“Can we talk?”- Buck said

“Sure… about something in particular or do you want to talk about our day, because let me tell you my day didn’t start that good and I think it’s going to end even worst”- you told them

“Listen, I’m sorry ok”

“Whatever it’s fine”- you shrugged; you didn’t want them to see how much they hurt you

“It’s not fine”- Eddie said- “we didn’t mean to kiss Y/n, ok?”

“Yeah I’m pretty sure Buck fell on you and his lips coincidentally found yours”

“Can you please be serious? I’m sorry I kiss Eddie but I love him, ok? I’m in love with him”- well Buck really wanted to destroy your heart it seems

“Well I’m glad I was able to entertain you until you could have him Buck. I’m glad you finally have what you wanted.”- you weren’t screaming but your calmly attitude had gone out of the window.

“I don’t… I don’t have everything I wanted, neither does Eddie”

“Listen Buck, I really don’t care. I don’t care if you think I’m childish or a bad friend, but I can’t be happy for you two right now. You two hurt me ok? I love you guys with all my heart and you fucking crushed me”- you said without thinking

“You love us? Both of us?”- Eddie said

“What?! No”- why didn’t you think before talking

“You love us. That’s perfect”- Buck laughed

“Are you seriously laughing at me right now? Are you for real?”- what the hell…

“You don’t understand. We love you too”- Buck was giving you his best smile and you weren’t sure you understood what he just said

“What?”

“Buck and I love you, and we love each other too”- Eddie said once again

“Well isn’t that a mess”- you weren’t sure if you were supposed to be happy or cry… because seriously

“It doesn’t have to be… a mess I mean”- Eddie said

“What do you mean?”- you weren’t so sure the bullet hadn’t mess with Eddie’s brain because he wasn’t making any sense

“We love each other right? Why can’t it be a good thing, a wonderful thing. Why can’t we make each other happy, the three of us “

Yeah why can’t you… you thought and you smiled for the first time in days.

Ok… maybe fate hadn’t been a total bitch this time if it lead you to both of them

Oh my god this one shot has been the death of me; I have worked on this for so long and I don’t even like it but I know I’m not going to work on anything else if I don’t take it out of my draft. So yeah. I know it’s a mess but yeah. I didn’t even re-read it so… it is what it is

Masterlist

So I’m finally catching up with Seal Team, I just watched 3x11 and I have the hots for Blackburn now 😂😍

How come no one writes about him… 😭😭😭

sy giving his wife full blown heart eyes while she’s talking about science

Sy x Reader: Like her mama

Tags: Fluff, lots of science talk

Sy can do a lot of things.

He can shoot a button of a shirt from six feet away, break wood like they were toothpicks with his bare hands, and put someone to sleep for 3 days with just a simple punch of his fist.

But Science … he just doesn’t get Science.

Which is also maybe why he decided to marry a doctor. Lest his children's projects get an F and he is going to have to spend half of his savings comforting them with cookies and cream ice cream.

“But where does blood come from mama?”

Sy’s ears perked in interest at the question his 6-year-old daughter threw at you during your little study time. You had been explaining to her the basic functions of the cell, just hinting about how all of our blood is made up of it too.

Sy doesn’t know the answer himself, leaning in to learn some new tidbits he knew you have just under your sleeve.

“Well,” Sy could see the gears in your head turning, trying to find the right words that can answer your child’s inquisition in the best but simplest way possible. “Cells, like you have their mama hidden inside your bones called the bone marrow. When you bleed, it warns the mama bone that she needs to create more babies so you don’t feel sick. This happens in a process called erythropoiesis but you will learn more about that as you grow older.”

Sy nodded along with his daughter, smiling at just how amazingly brilliant you are. He really should’ve listened more during biology. But honestly, he was more than content with listening to you talk by the kitchen table while drinking his afternoon coffee and secretly typing out different terms on his notes app to research when he was bored.

It was a little way he tries to keep up with you.

Like small assignments he gives himself just to see your eyes widen in glee when he shows off his little learnings.

It was an honour to continue to observe the wonders of the brilliance of your eyes as you spew out words that should’ve sounded like a foreign language but doesn’t. If you weren’t so busy at the local hospital he had half the mind to homeschool all his future children.

Though he was still working on convincing you to pop out a bit more of his offspring than planned.

Despite the years he had been blessed to spend with you he was still so genuinely surprised about your mind. It was not every day you meet such an intelligent human being that doesn’t make you feel stupid whenever they explain something to you.

And he gets to be the one to wake up to you every morning.

And teach his babies about things he would’ve had no idea how to answer.

“So, the bone marrow is the mama?”

“Yup,” you smiled, kissing the top of her head, glad to see that she has such an interest in the topic.

“So you’re the bone marrow, I’m the blood cell, what does papa do?”

Sy accidentally snorted his hot coffee through his nose, spluttering a mess into the table and in his black wife-beater.

“Sy – honey,” you giggled, grabbing a hanging towel by the kitchen and throwing it at him.

“Daddy is the bone, sweetie,” you explained quickly, eyes flicking off to your currently choking husband, as he slowly turned red on the face. “He protects mama and keeps you away from harm.”

“Sorry,” he coughed, when you finally walked towards him, giving your daughter a short break. ”My mind went in a completely different direction.”

“Hmm, in Hawaii perhaps?”

“Don’t,” he shook his head, inhaling sharply, trying not to get a boner as he does every time he remembers your honeymoon where you had a feeling your little girl had been made. 

“Sometimes I worry she’s a little too smart,” you stated as you sat on Sy’s lap but still a flourish of pride bloomed in your chest as you watched your daughter engross herself in her cartoons. 

“Well,” He pressed a quick kiss that tasted like burnt beans and a dash of honey. “If she’s anything like her mama then she will be wonderful.”

You gave him a look.

"It's too early for a second kid."

"Oh, come on!"

I HAD THIS IN MY DRAFTS SINCE FOREVER AKHDASDA so here have a lil' stale drabble as a treat

Crawling Escapades

Summary: Y/n has set the entire day trying to encourage their daughter to crawl to now avail, what happens when Chris comes home and she crawls right on over to him? apart of the evans’ series.

Pairings: Dad!Chris Evans x Mom!Y/n Evans

Warnings: none

“I know you can do it.” Her eyes playfully narrowing at the chubby 7-month-old, who just babbled at her and clapped her hands, drool dripping off her dimpled chin.  

Alba had been displaying efforts to crawl the past couple of weeks, she had started rocking back and forth whilst sat up or on her hands and knees, even crawling backwards once. It had seemed to be a fluke because she hadn’t done it since.  

But Y/n wasn’t giving up.

“C’mon princess, you can do it.” She encouraged, also getting on her hands and knees, showing her how to crawl. Alba just giggled at the sight, making grabby hands for her mom, scooting on her bum.  

Continua a leggere

The reader a paramedic at the 118 and is dating Buck when she finds out she is a placeholder until Abby returns and gets upset at Buck. Her godfather (Boden, Mouch, or Hermann, your choice) contacts her and mentions them needing a PIC for 61, she moves to Chicago and works with Shay or Sylvie (your choice) where she meets Kelly and slowly starts a relationship. Things are great until the 118 comes to Chicago for a fire convention and Bucks runs into the reader and Kelly together and is jealous

Running Home 

Evan Buckley x Reader, Kelly Severide x Reader

Warnings: fem!reader, mentions of cheating/rebounding, shitty medical advice (I'm not a doctor, just guessing here LOL), mentions of alcohol and the consumption of, being drunk/tipsy, dad lectures from Boden 

Category: little bit of angst and fluff 

Word Count: 6.1k

Author's Note: this one is dedicated to @jillys-feral-fandoms just cause I know these two are her favs <3 I also tagged both tag lists because it’s a crossover 

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The sun peeked through the curtains when you rolled over in the bed, only to find your boyfriend’s side of the bed empty. 

“Babe?” you call, getting up and pulling Buck’s sweater on and making your way downstairs. Buck’s back was towards you when you spotted him out on the balcony. 

Something along the lines of ‘when am I gonna see you’ being asked on his side, you knocked on the glass door to tell him let him know you were there and he turned to see you behind him. His face went as pale as a ghost - like he had something to hide. 

“I’ll call you back later” he tells the person on the phone. “Yeah, you too” and with that the phone call ends. 

“Good morning,” you hum, stepping to the side, letting him into the apartment. 

“Want some coffee?” making your way over to the coffee maker, Buck shakes his head and sits at the counter. 

Curiosity gets the better of you, you cave and ask, “who’s calling you so early in the morning?” 

“Oh, it was Maddie” he smiles, leaving the phone on the counter. “I’m gonna hop in the shower, be back in a few” he walks over, pressing a kiss to your temple before heading to the bathroom. 

The shower was running and the coffee maker was beeping, letting you know that the coffee was ready but you barely heard Buck’s phone buzzing on the counter. 

“Buck! Your phone is ringing!” rounding the counter, you pick it up to see who's calling. 

Abby. 

The name seemed familiar but you couldn't quite place why. 

Shouting once more for him and getting no answer, you set the phone back down how you found it. You go about making your coffee when you hear buck's steps coming from the bathroom. 

“Did you call for me? I couldn't really hear you” 

“Mhm yeah, your phone rang” you mumble, he picks up the phone and smiles. 

“Everything okay?” you ask, noticing the expression on his face.  

“Huh? Yeah, fine.” he gives you a small smile and heads upstairs to get dressed. 

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Hen was driving and you were in the passenger seat of the ambulance after dropping off a patient at the hospital. 

You were staring out the window, watching as the buildings passed by. “Y/n ?” Her voice broke through your thoughts. 

“Penny for your thoughts?” she glances over at you, “you’re going to get permanent forehead wrinkles if you don't relax” a small chuckle slips past her lips. 

“Do you know someone named Abby?” you thought maybe you were reading too much into this but perhaps Hen knew. The smile dropped from her face, sighing heavily. 

Maybe there was a someone after all. 

“Abby ? As in Buck’s ex girlfriend ?” 

“She’s his ex?” 

“Yeah, she is. Why do you ask?”

“Um- well he was all secretive this morning, left bed to take a phone call and when I asked who it was, he said it was Maddie. His phone rang while he was in the shower and it was Abby. He looked happy to see her call honestly” 

“Oh” was all she said. Not a word more. 

“Hen, come on. I know there’s more to the story then you’re letting on” 

“Okay, she was a 911 dispatcher. They started talking and then dating. Her mom was sick and when she passed, Abby wanted to travel or something- I don't know all the details but she basically upped and left him. A few months later- he met you.” 

This time you were the one that said “Oh” and she left it at that. When she pulled into the station, your phone rang. 

“I’ll be back in a minute” stepped back outside of the station and sat on the bench right outside. 

You answer and your god father’s voice rang through the line. “Hey kid, how are you?” 

“Hey Chief,” you smile, “I’m good, how are you?” 

“You know you don’t have to call me chief” he laughed, “Am I supposed to call you uncle Walle?” 

He laughs once more, “oh god no, please don’t. Donna was asking when you’re coming down to visit, she hasn't seen you since the wedding.” 

“Actually, I was thinking - maybe it’s time to come home” you mumble the last part, you don't know how you're feeling and you don't want to do anything irrational but you can’t stay here if there's nothing here for you and honestly, you missed home. 

“Really?” you can hear the excitement in his voice, “We'd love that. You know you’re welcome to stay with us, even if you’re just coming for a visit.” 

“Yeah, I think I will.” you smiled. 

“Also we’re in need of a PIC for 61. Dawson is in the academy so if you're coming home..” he trails off making you chuckle. 

“If you’re offering me the position, I'll take it without a question” 

“Good,” he hums. “I’ll pick you up from the airport whenever you arrive. Just let me know. Take care of yourself kid.” 

“I will, give Donna my love. I’ll see you guys soon.” 

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You took the rest of the day off, explaining to Bobby your sudden need to leave. You apologized for leaving them in the lurch but Bobby said it was fine, he understood why you had to go, wishing you well and he made you promise to come visit. 

The clothes were shoved into your suitcases when you headed down to write Buck a letter. You couldn't bear to tell him face to face - although he used you as a rebound and broke your heart, you knew telling him to his face would break his. 

You found a piece of paper and scribbled down an explanation. 

“Dear Buck, 

I’m sorry to be leaving like this but this was the only way I'd be able to do it without either of us hurting more than we are. 

I know that somewhere deep down, you cared for me but there's more to it - I was a distraction from her. 

I couldn't even do that successfully since you’re still talking to her. 

There’s nothing left here for me and I hope you find the happiness you’re looking for, even if it’s not with me. 

I wish you nothing but the best, Buck. 

Love, y/n” 

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“Shay, come meet y/n. She’s the new PIC on 61″ your godfather has his arm over your shoulder. He’s been proudly showing you around the house.

“Hi, I'm y/n” you smiled at the woman in front of you. “I’m Shay, I'm your partner” she stuck her hand for you to shake it. 

“It’s nice to meet you” 

“I'm gonna take her to meet the guys.” She linked arms with you and pulled you away from Chief Boden. 

“Guys!” she walked in, her arm still linked with yours. “This is y/n Boden-” “my last name actually isn't Boden” 

“Oh,” she chucked, “Anyways, this is y/n. She's Chief’s goddaughter and she’s our new PIC. So everyone be nice and keep it in your pants” she glares at the guys. 

You bite back a laugh and wave. Shay takes you around the room and introduces you to everyone. 

“Behind the stove, we have our beloved Peter Mills, he’s the best cook in the house” 

“Nice to meet you” he smiles before turning his attention back to the stove. 

“That’s Joe and Otis, the two that are bickering by the round table” she points, before bringing you over to the longer table. “This is Matt, lieutenant for truck 81″ she gave his shoulders a squeeze and he smiled at you. 

“That’s Kelly and his guys on squad, their names are on the coats, I promise it’s not as confusing as it seems” she laughs, you wave at them before she pulls you over to the couch. 

“This is Herrmann and Mouch,” you say hello when you feel something nuzzling by your leg. Crouching down, you rub the puppy that was sitting beside you now. 

“Who's this cutie?” 

“That’s Pouch, she's our little mascot” Shay gave her head a pat before the alarms went off. 

“Truck 81, Squad 3, Ambulance 61, Battalion 25. House fire, 254 83rd street” 

You and Shay made your way to the ambulance, she hopped in the front when you shut the doors at the back. 

Kelly bumped into you as he was running past, “sorry!” he looked back and smiled at you and you swear- you felt butterflies in your stomach. 

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There was no way those guys were getting out of there without some sort of minor injuries. 

The entire building was up in flames and the smoke getting darker by the second. Shay had just loaded up the last patient into the ambulance and sent them off with the other paramedics. 

Suddenly you were overcome with this wave of emotions. Remembering how you felt when you saw Buck was stuck under that fire truck or when Eddie was stuck after he stupidly cut the line. 

Even though you had only just met these guys, it’s hard to lose one of your own. 

A hand squeezed your shoulder, pulling you out of your thoughts. “You alright?” your godfather was standing beside you, looking at you. 

You nod, “is there anyone else in there still? By the looks of it, it’s gonna come down any minute now” 

“Severide and Casey. They’re on their way out” he tells you. 

Shay was running towards the door when Casey and Kelly came out. Matt had a little boy in his arms. Noticing the boy was wrapped up in Kelly’s jacket, you glanced over at him who clearly looked like he was going to pass out. 

“Shay, you got the boy?!” you shout, she nods and follows Matt over to the ambulance. Kelly was making his way over to Chief when he stumbled. 

“Okay, let her check you out” Chief Boden helped him up, sitting him on the front of the truck. “I’m fine, just tripped” Kelly insisted, coughing his lungs out. 

“Mhm yeah, no. Sit up” you had already pulled the stethoscope up and it was pressed to his back. Before you could tell him what was wrong, Casey shouted for you. 

“Y/n! I’m going with Shay to the hospital!” 

“Yeah, go!” 

You turn back to Kelly who was bent over, elbows on his knees and his head in hands. Chief seemed to have disappeared in the few moments you turned around. 

“Hey,” you rubbed the back of his shoulder softly, “you’ll be okay. Just drink some water and I’ll keep an eye on you, okay?” 

“yeah, okay.” his hand rested your lower back before he stood and once again, there were those stupid butterflies. 

“Come on, you can ride with us back to the house.” 

Smiling at him “That’s okay, I’ll just get a ride with Chief.” 

Kelly hummed, looking around the scene. “Chief’s gone. Looks like you're stuck with me.” 

“Oh lucky me” your eyes flicker towards him, a smile on your face. 

Kelly laughed, “but look on the bright side, this way you can keep an eye on me” he nudged you playfully before slinging his arm over your shoulder. 

When you reached the truck, he opened the door for you. “What a gentleman,” “always am” he smiles, his hand on your lower back as you go to step up into the truck. 

The ride back to the house wasn't all that long, Capp kept you company in the back and asked about where you transferred from. You realized that you didn’t really tell them anything about you other than your name and that you were Chief’s goddaughter. 

“Well I have been living in LA since college. I was working at a fire station out there as well but I just needed - well I guess, a change” 

“That sounds like something someone would say if they were running from something” Kelly turns in his seat, looking back at you. Humming, you give him a small smile. 

“Yeah, I guess so.” 

Your response was enough for him to tell him to drop it. He was sure in time you'd confide in him or most likely in Shay and she’d tell him at some point or another. 

-- 

“Why don't you come over for dinner sometime?” Shay plops down on the couch next to you, shifting to face you. 

“Uh, yeah I could. I’m still settling in and Chief was sweet enough to let me stay with him and Donna for now so I don't wanna just run out on them, you know?” 

“Of course, just let me know when you’re free and we can go out or stay in and make dinner? Whenever you're up to it.” 

“Thank you though, that’s really sweet of you” you give her arm a squeeze. Shay’s phone rings and she excuses herself. 

Connie comes out, looking around and stops on you, “Chief Boden would like to see you.” You get up and follow her to Chief’s office, he thanks Connie and asks her to shut the door on the way out. 

“How’s your first week going ?” He asks, gesturing to the chair. You take a seat, “it’s good so far, I've gotten like 4 offers to go out already” you smile. 

“Go out?” His brows furrow- you know what he's thinking. 

“Not on a date, relax. Herrmann invited me over for dinner with him, Cindy and the kids, Matt offered to take me out with him and Gabby, Joe and Otis want me to go to some hockey game with them and Shay asked me to come over for dinner” you listed off the invites. 

“I’d take Shay up on her offer first. Herrmann and Cindy are great but I don't know if you want to take dinner with them and their 5 kids as your first night out here” Chief laughs, making you smile. 

“I don’t want you guys to feel like I don’t appreciate you - because I do but it’d be nice to get out. You guys have been stuck with me for the last few weeks, I'm sure you’d like a break.” 

“Y/n, you’re not a baby. If you’d like to go out, go ahead. I’ll get you a key soon but for now, just call when you’re on your way home.” 

“Really? You wouldn't mind?” 

“I think we could use a night to ourselves if you know-” “don’t finish that statement” your face twists, Chief shakes his head. 

“That’s not what I meant. Go back to work now, I have stuff to do” He shoos you from his office. 

--- 

You stood outside of Shay’s apartment, you felt like you were in high school again - Chief had dropped you off and said to call him if you needed a ride home. 

Shay opened the door, “hey! you made it!” she pulled you in for a hug. 

“I did!” you followed her into the apartment, she made her way to the kitchen. 

Shay turned her attention to something she had on the stove and put the lid on it before looking at you. “What’s in the bag?” she asked, eyes on the bag you had set on the counter. 

“Oh right, sorry” you chuckled. 

“Uh I brought wine-” pulling out the bottle and setting it on the counter, “and a little birdie told me, this was your favourite” you pulled a bottle of tequila out of the bag. 

Shay leant over the counter to grab the bottle, “top shelf stuff, you’re a woman after my heart y/n.” You smile, “do you need help with anything?” 

“No, it’s almost done-” “have you seen my- oh sorry,  I didn’t know we had company” the voice coming from behind you called, it sounded familiar for some reason. 

Shifting on the stool, you see Kelly coming down the stairs. The grey sweatpants clinging to his hips and he was shirtless. “Hey y/n.” he smiles, walking over and pulling you into a side hug. 

Those stupid butterflies again. 

You watch as Kelly makes his way to the fridge to grab a beer. Your eyes trailed over his body but you were pulled from your thoughts when Shay offered you a shot. 

She poured one out for you, her and Kelly. “To y/n, welcome to Chicago and we hope you decide to stay here with us” she smiled before downing the contents of the glass, you and Kelly mirroring her actions. 

Kelly disappears upstairs a few minutes later. The tequila makes you feel warm and somewhat bold. 

“Hey,” you whisper shouted, not wanting Kelly to hear even though he was all the way upstairs. “You don't get all hot and bothered when he walks around half naked?” you pour out another shot for you and Shay. 

She laughed, “oh babe, he could walk around butt-ass naked and it wouldn't make a difference to me” 

Your brows furrowed as you down the shot. “I’m into girls, I thought someone would have told you by now” 

“Oh- Oh! no, I just assumed-” “that I was straight and Kelly was my boy toy? No, he's too pretty for my liking” 

“Did someone say I was pretty?” Kelly’s voice comes from behind you again. He’s fully dressed this time, he grabs the bottle from the counter. “I’ve only been gone for 10 minutes, how did you manage to kill half a bottle already ?” 

Kelly set the bottle down, “Whatever you had in the pot is burnt now right?” he turns the stove off completely. You had both forgotten about the pot on the stove. 

“I’ll order a pizza,” he steps away to call. 

--- 

It was close to 2am and although you were  all off shift tomorrow, you should be getting home. 

“I- I should get going” you stand, wobbling for a moment before Kelly’s hand rests on your lower back, steadying you. 

“No! Spend the night!” Shay called, pouting about the fact that you were leaving. 

“I can't” you mirror her expression. “I gotta call Chief, he’ll come get me.” you go to reach your phone but almost fall. 

“No,” Kelly takes your phone from you. “I’m sober, I'll drive you home plus that’ll give you a chance to sober up a bit.”

“Are you sure ? It’s late.” 

“It's fine, I'll get you a bottle of water, say bye to Shay” 

Kelly leaves you and Shay alone for a few minutes, the two of you promising to go out somewhere soon and that you’ll call her tomorrow. “Alright, come on. I’ll be back soon,” Kelly leaned down and pressed a kiss to Shay’s head before helping you up off the couch. 

The drive home was quiet, the windows rolled down and cold wind blowing through your hair. You missed this the most - the late night drives through the city, although you were tired, there were always people awake and going about their lives - no one was ever really asleep. 

Kelly stops in front of the house, his hand reaching over to touch your shoulder softly. “You alright ? Feeling a bit better?” he asks quietly, you shift in the seat to look at him. “Yeah, thanks for the ride” you smile. 

“No problem, I figured it’d be better to just bring you than you having to call Chief.” 

You hum, head leant back against the headrest with your eyes closed. Kelly’s hand touches your cheek, his thumb rubbing against it softly. “C’mon, let’s get you inside. You need some sleep.” 

Kelly gets out and helps you out of the car, walking you up the steps and helps you unlock the door. Chief had ended up giving you his key for the night because he wasn't sure what time you’d be back or if you were gonna get a ride with Shay. 

Kelly stepped inside with you, sitting you down on the stairs. He kneeled in front of you, pulling your sandals off for you. 

“Thank you,” you whispered. 

“Is your room upstairs?” he asks and you nod, “can you get up the stairs by yourself?” you shake your head, knowing that if you attempted to walk up the stairs by yourself, you’d just end up back at the bottom again. 

“Okay, I'll help you up and then I'll head out.” Kelly pulled you up, his hands on your hips to steady you as you slowly made your way up the stairs. 

“By time you get upstairs, it’ll be morning” he mumbles, your hand over your mouth as you bite back a laugh. “C’mon,” Kelly picks you up bridal style instead, carrying you up the stairs. He stopped when he got tot the top of the stairs, looking at you.

Pointing to the door at the end of the hall, Kelly carries you into the room and sets you down on the bed. “Okay, all good now. I’ll see you at work okay? Get some rest.” 

“Wait, where are you going?” you sit up, looking at him. “Home,” he hums. 

“Just stay,” “y/n- I don't think that’s a smart idea.” 

“Please. Nothing’s gonna happen, I just- at least until I fall asleep.” 

You don't know what came over you. Internally, you blamed it on the tequila and the fact that you missed Buck and missed how it felt to be held while you fell asleep but you just needed someone- just for tonight. 

You also knew that if you were sober enough to make this choice now, you’d be sober enough to remember it in the morning and seriously regret it but what do you care right now?

Kelly sighs, pushing your bedroom door in quietly before getting in bed next to you. “No funny business missy” he smiles to himself, knowing you can’t see him in the dark. 

“Whatever you say, Lieutenant” humming, settling down with your head on his chest and his arm instinctively wraps around you. 

Kelly would be lying if he said his heart didn’t skip a beat when you called him lieutenant. 

--- 

“Did y/n come home last night?” he asked Donna. 

“I saw her shoes by the stairs so I assumed she did.” Donna answers, her attention on cutting the fruit in front of her. 

“Could you wake her up for breakfast ? I don’t wanna just walk in.” he asks her sweetly, she hums. “Sure, I'll go get her.” 

Donna makes her way back upstairs and to your room. She knocks on the door, “Honey, are you awake?” she calls, knocking once more. 

This time, she opens the door and calls, “y/n, baby. Are you up-” she smiles at the sight in front of her. Before she could close the door again, Wallace had already made his way upstairs. 

“Is she up?” Donna shushed him, grabbing his arm and pulling him over to her. 

You and Kelly were both asleep, the blanket pulled up halfway and your head was on his chest. Kelly’s arm was wrapped around you and your hand was resting on his shoulder. 

“What the-” “shh, let them sleep. I’m pretty sure it was after 2 when they got in.” 

“Donna, do you not see who she’s in bed with ?” he half shouted and half whispered. 

“Wallace, she’s not a baby. They're sleeping in the same bed, it’s not like she's pregnant with his kid.”

Wallace left Donna upstairs and went downstairs knowing that if he stayed, he’d just ended up killing Kelly. 

Donna walked into the room, she shook you softly. “Y/n, time for breakfast honey.” She shook you again when you groaned. 

“Y/n, come on sweetheart.” you finally sit up, rubbing your eyes. “What?” you yawn, Donna smiles. 

“Wallace asked me to wake you for breakfast. Maybe you wanna ask your friend to join us?” she looked down at Kelly who was still asleep. 

“Oh my god. I forgot I asked him to stay.” you sigh, Donna sat on the end of the bed. 

“Don’t worry. Just wake him up and you two come down and join us for breakfast. There’s extra toothbrushes in the bathroom” she gave your hand a squeeze and left you to wake him. 

Kelly stirred when you shook him. “Lemme sleep” he mumbled, rolling over. “Dude, come on. You gotta get up.” you shook him once more.

Kelly opened his eyes, he blinked the sleepiness away before sitting up. It took him a moment to register where he was and what was happening. “Did I fall asleep?” 

“Clearly. Now we have to go down for breakfast - together.” 

“What?” Kelly’s eyes widened. “Yeah, so come on.” you get up and make your way to the bathroom. 

-- 

You and Kelly head down for breakfast. Donna and Wallace were already sitting at the table. 

“Y/n, Kelly.” Chief nodded, before the two of you sat down. 

“Morning,” you gave him a small smile before pouring out some coffee. “Chief,” Kelly nodded back, sitting quietly at the table. 

“So, how’d you sleep?” Donna asked, you and Kelly both looked up at her at the same time. “Sorry,” she hums, popping a piece of fruit into her mouth. 

“So, which one of you is gonna explain why I had to find you two in bed together ?” Chief broke the silence. 

You and Kelly look at each other and then at Chief. “Well-” Kelly starts. 

You rest your hand on his, “he brought me home and I was the one that asked him to stay. Nothing happened, I was drunk and I fell asleep and so did he.” you told him, it’s better to get everything out in the air before he started to assume. 

“Okay.” Chief just moved on and continued with breakfast like nothing had happened. 

“Thanks for breakfast,” Kelly leaned down to give Donna a kiss on the cheek, she smiles and pats his cheek. “You know you’re welcomed here anytime, Kelly.” she glances at her husband for a second. 

Chief gets up, “I’ll walk you out.” You were still sitting at the table with Donna when they left for the door. 

Kelly was a step out the door when Chief called for him. “What really happened last night ?” 

“Y/n told you.” 

“Now I'm asking you.” 

Kelly hummed, stepping back up the stairs. “Shay and y/n got drunk after dinner. I was still sober when she said she wanted to head home, so I offered to drive her home. I helped her inside and up to her room. She was the one that asked me to stay, “only till she fell asleep” - her words” 

Chief’s arms folded across his chest. “Why were you still here this morning?” 

“We both fell asleep. Nothing happened, Chief. I would never do that; y/n is a sweet girl, it’s clear she left LA for a reason and I don’t want to hurt her - that was never my intention.”  

“Good-” he felt a hand on his arm, you were standing behind him. Chief’s hand rested on you, giving it a squeeze before walking back to the kitchen. You walked Kelly down to the car. 

“I’m guessing I blew it” you asked him, shoving your hands into the sweater pockets. 

Kelly’s head titled, the confusion evident on his face. “I mean, even if there was a chance of us being a thing- the whole ‘your boss/my godfather catching us in bed and lecturing you’ thing kinda ruins it huh?” 

He laughed, his arm slung over your shoulder. “You didn’t ruin anything and honestly, Boden couldn't get rid of me if he tried,” you smiled, a hand coming up and resting on Kelly’s chest. 

You looked up at him, he leaned down to kiss you but only for a moment before you could hear knocking. 

Wallace was by the window, knocking for the two of you to stop kissing. Donna waved from behind him and pulled him away from the window. 

Kelly smiles, leaning down to pull you into a hug. “I’ll see you work?” 

“Yeah,” you smile. 

---- 

*A Few Months Later* 

“Just come with me,” Kelly’s arm was over your shoulder, the two of you walking through the house. “Dawson is going with Casey, why can't you go with me?” 

“Kelly, it’s a gala for firefighters.” 

“Okay but Herrmann is taking Cindy and she's not a firefighter.” 

“That's his wife, Kelly” you rolled your eyes. Kelly stopped, pulling you against him, your chest pressed to his. 

“Come on, just this once. I never take a date, I mean other than Shay but she’s into girls so it doesn't count” 

“Let her hear you say that,” you laugh. “You've never taken a date?” 

“I always leave with one,” he smirks, making you roll your eyes again and earning him a smack to the arm. 

“You know, maybe I'll go-” “Really ?” “With Otis.” 

“Y/n!” 

“Fine, just this once.” 

“Good, I can show you off all night” he pressed a kiss to your temple. “Oh shut up, like you’re not the brawns in this relationship. We all know i’m the brains”

“If that helps you sleep at night, sure” Kelly smiles, walking down the hall and you give him a shove. 

A few weeks after the breakfast fiasco, Kelly asked you out on a proper date and soon asked you to be his girlfriend. 

Needless to say, things have been going pretty smoothly besides a few times Kelly nearly gave you a heart attack with his need to run into burning buildings unnecessarily but you knew that feeling all too well. 

----

“I’m going to go get a drink, do you want anything ?” you untangle yourself from him, a hand pushing the wrinkle from your dress. 

“I’m okay babe, thanks” he smiled, giving you a quick kiss before letting you go. 

You had only gone to the gala once before when you were a teenager but you don’t remember it being this full. You bumped into Herrmann and Cindy on your way to the bar. 

“Y/n!” Cindy gave you a quick hug, “hey! how are you?” you smiled. The three of you made small talk for a bit, Cruz and Otis joining you at some point. “It’s pretty full this year, isn’t it?” you ask the group, you hear a few agreements. 

“Apparently, it’s for firefighters across the country this year, hence the change to a bigger venue” Otis pointed out. 

“Ah, I see.” you glance at the clock on the wall, you realize you had been talking to them for 15 minutes. 

“I told Kelly I was going for a drink, he's probably wondering where I am, I'll see you guys at the table, yeah?” you excused yourself and made your way to the bar. 

Leaning against the counter, you waited for the bartender to come your way as he was dealing with someone at the other end. You glanced around the room, trying to spot Kelly so you’d have a general idea as to where to go when you get your drink. 

“Bartender!” you hear someone call from beside you, more than once you might add. 

“Can you not see he’s busy? Might wanna wait your turn before he doesn’t come over here-” you turn to the voice next to you, waiting to put a face to the voice. 

“Buck.” you stared at the man next to you. He hasn't changed in the months since you left. The same blonde hair, only grown out to show his curls more, his insanely blue eyes and that stupid smile on his face. 

“Y/n.” his eyes studied you for a moment, unsure what he was looking for or even what to say. 

The two of you stood there in shock, looking at each other like the other was an alien or something from outer space.

Buck instinctively pulled you in for a hug, his arms wrapping around you like they belonged there. “How have you been?” he asks, talking to you like you didn’t just up and leave a few months ago. 

“Good, you?” 

“Can’t complain.” he smiles. 

The statement suddenly made you feel horrible, heart clenching in your chest. 

“What can I get you folks?” the bartender finally makes his way over, Buck turns to face him. “A beer and uh, a Manhattan if I'm not mistaken ?” Buck glances over at you, you nod to confirm. 

“What brings you to the gala?” Buck turns back to you while the bartender makes your drink. “Last time I checked, you were a paramedic.” 

“Still am. My godfather is giving the opening speech so I came out” 

“Oh I see. Everyone is here you know - Bobby, Hen, Chim, Eddie. I’m sure they’d all love to see you.” 

“Um-” you look around, Kelly was nowhere to be found. “Sure, I have a few minutes.” 

You grab your drink and Buck points you in the direction. His hand rested on your lower back as the two of you navigated through the tables. “Hey, look who I found,” Buck said as he reached the table, everyone turning their attention to him. 

Bobby was the first one to get up, “Y/n, it’s so good to see you.” He gives you a hug, “same, I missed you guys.” 

You went around the table saying hello to everyone, making small talk. Everyone was asking how you were doing in Chicago and you asked about things back in LA. 

“I was looking for you,” a hand pressing against your hip, Kelly now beside you. 

“Oh hey, sorry.” You lean into Kelly, he kisses your cheek softly. 

You could feel the eyes burning into you. Everyone wanted an explanation- you had left Buck with no explanation to anyone other than Buck and now here you were a few months later all cuddled up with someone else. 

“Everyone, this is Lieutenant-” you pause mid introduction. Do you introduce him as your boyfriend or as a friend ? 

“Kelly Severide, y/n’s boyfriend” he finishes the introduction for you. Once again, you can feel everyone looking at you, there are a few glances around the table and then the eyes are back on you. 

“Kel, this is my house back in LA. Captain Bobby Nash, Chimney Han, Hen Wilson, Eddie Diaz and Evan Buckley.” you name them off, Kelly waves hello. 

“I hate to pull her away but dinner is starting soon and we really should settle in now” 

Everyone seemed fine with the fact that you moved on, you're almost sure it's come out as to why you left LA - left Buck. 

Buck was the one who was still holding on, his eyes glued to you and Kelly. You could feel his eyes move from you to Kelly, to Kelly’s hand on your hip. 

“No worries at all,” Bobby stood up, “come visit us soon, y/n. You’ll always have a home at the 118″ he pulled you in for a hug, you smiled. “Thanks cap, I'll come visit soon, I promise.”

“It was nice to meet you Kelly,” Bobby shook his hand, “pleasure’s all mine Bobby.” Kelly waited for you to say your goodbyes to everyone else. 

Finally you got back to Buck, you smiled at him and pulled him in for a hug. “It was nice to see you, really.” you whisper. 

Buck was a good foot taller than you so he had to lean down, his arms wrapped around you and his hands resting on the small of your back, rubbing up and down gently - just like he would when he had come home from a tough shift and needed to hold you in his arms. 

This felt like a goodbye - the one you never had. 

“Yeah, you too y/n” 

You gave him one last squeeze before letting go, he watched you walk over to Kelly whose arm was now wrapped around your waist. You could feel Buck’s eyes on you as you walked back to your table. 

Kelly pulled your chair out for you before sitting down beside you. 

“Hey, who was that? He seemed kinda attached to you” Kelly chuckled, his hand reaching for yours. Looking towards the table where the 118 sat, eyes focused on Buck before turning back to Kelly. 

“Just an old friend.” 

----- 

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