I Wish I Was A Better Person

I wish I was a better person

Goodbye to all the weird

So long porn bots.

Hate to see you leave.

I'll miss your tits and dicks,

And all the strange your brang.

You have been with me since the beginning.

A constant presence.

Your are my number one supporters,

And my most faithful of followers.

Who will love me now?

Now that you are being stripped away?

The quiet emptiness.

Of a pristine world.

- By me Andrew

Episodes come and go;

Earthquakes

Devastation

Our world is shaken to its core.

We live in the metaphors of poetry

Creating form out of whispers.

Drifting through thoughts.

Being born.

Life always comes again.

An existential dance

Between annihilation

And exaltation.

Dragging us to the very edge

Of ecstasy

Of agony

Our death throws but a prelude

To god's orgasm.

- We, Andrew

I have a hard time saying no.

I am compelled to accommodate.

Genderfluid

Sometimes I am a boy

And sometimes I am a girl.

It all makes perfect sense in their certain seasons

"This is who I am

And this is who I will be".

But then it slips

And you are switching into something else.

Now you want these things,

This is who you are, were, and will always be.

Other times it's not so severe.

You know you will change again.

You play into the ride, and love it all the way through.

Yet

There have been times

When it is as if someone is trying to kill me,

Like they are trying to steal my life

Replacing it with what they dream.

Today I am in love with her

Today I am in love with him

I change with my gender,

Maybe it doesn't mean the same I?

I'm still here

And it isn't always so bad.

Sometimes I am just amazing

A special creature

Unlike any around.

I can relish it

And I can loath it.

This has always been my life though

And it gives me a certain kind

Of pleasurable pride.

- me, my writing, personal, Andrew

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- Andrew