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“No, No, you have nothing to be sorry for, Nor.” Ben insisted with a shake of his head, both his arm keeping their own hold around her, assuring he wasn’t going to go anywhere. “You haven’t done anything wrong.” The last thing he wanted was for her to have thought that she had. Even if they’d both were convinced they had screwed up the conversation, it was a good thing, with the joint, open realization the two of them were in sync, and had been the entire time when they were together. There wasn’t any better of a revelation than that.

As Nora agreed that their painful distance could disperse, a grin instantly appeared at the corner of his lips, glancing down into her fond gaze the most comforting solace. “Hey, Hey, don’t apologize.” Ben whispered, and hearing Nora’s following admittance, one of his hands gently lifted up her head from the sand both their feet were planted in once more to ensure there was nothing at all she had to be ashamed of. “That’s ok. It’s ok that you got freaked out. I mean, I did too. I thought..I guess I thought the worst, actually.” He knew how ridiculous it sounded to have thought that way at first in the moment, his words ended up twisting more than anything. But it was that way with her no matter what, she had only cared about who he was as a person, not for everything else that surrounding it.  “I’m sorry. Nora, I just. I only want to do this right. Relationships, they are scary, but I know there hasn’t been much in my life that I haven’t been more sure of.” Ben nodded to emphasize the upfront truth of those words, having held true throughout the many years they’d become closer and closer. Besides, he and Nora did have a way of figuring out what they needed to.

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“So,” Nora began quietly, fully aware she was restating the obvious, “we’re good? Like, everything’s okay?” 

Just as the words rolled off her tongue, Nora’s last, lingering doubt reared its ugly head. There was still the matter of, well, Will is her best friend. And the relationship between the Holder brothers was... delicate, to put a fine point on the matter. There wasn’t anymore skating around the issue, they were seriously pursuing what was blossoming between them. It had to come up at some point, right? But was it best that she talk to Will first? The thing was, she knew the reaction of either party hinged on the day, and whether or not they were on good terms. 

But Ben was here, and in front of her, and he was smiling at her and things were good and it didn’t seem like something she wanted to squander. Maybe Will would be the easier party. Or maybe Nora was just grateful to be back on good terms with Ben because she’d just really freaking missed him. By now she was staring at him, she was sure, and he would take the extended eye contact (rightfully) as a sign that something was on her mind. So, just as he inhaled to speak, Nora shifted her weight onto the balls of her feet to attempt to close some of the height difference between them, in order to press her lips to his. Even if only for a moment.

When she stood back, the brunette wore an unmistakable grin, whilst perhaps searching for a way to get down to brass tacks. Just to be sure. “So... relationship, huh? As in, I can tell people Ben Holder’s my boyfriend?”