My God Twitter Is Fvcking Brutal. Also-

my god twitter is fvcking brutal. Also-

Tw: sh

I wanna do wrists/arms so bad but I shouldn’t bc I want to get clean. Also arms are a nightmare to hide. The scars on my arms are still not fully healed but they are nearly there so that’s good. Been clean since the 19.9.24. Ik it’s not long but still. I’m so scared of my mum finding out. I don’t want her to feel bad abt it-she had nothing to do with it my brain is just a dumbass. It feels like it’s inevitable she’ll find out. I can’t wait to be an adult so I can more easily make excuses to get out of things that might show my scars/cvts.

I’m so dam fat as well. Why can’t I be skinny, where is the willpower I used to have?? I used to be able to starve for ages and not binge but now it feels like all I ever do is binge and cvt. i just don’t know. Why is everything so fvcking hopeless. I’m done with this shit. agggg I wanna sh so badly. I fvcking hate urges. STUPID URGES LEAVE ME ALONE! I WILL NOT REL@PSE!

Also I’m running out of eyelashes bc I keep pulling them out.

I’m just so tired

agghh

Tw-sh mentioned

god it’s been so long since I cvt with a knife. I forgot how shit I was at it. Except that one time that scared me off using knives😅. I’m gonna stick to pencil sharpeners for now. stay safe bitches bros and enby hoes.

tw: sh

ugh I rel@psed on my arm 😖. What the fuck is wrong with me. Later I’ll probably just do some styros on mah thighs or smt. I have so much homework to do but I’m procrastinating and cvtting instead

Me when binding for fourteen hours straight results in pain

aaaaaaaa my binder arrived!!!!! I’m so fvcking happy!!!!!!!