Update! Please Read

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hi! so i’m closing my requests because i’ve been getting so many that i can’t keep up with it, but if you really want / can’t control the urge to ask, go ahead and put in your request, just know that i won’t work on it immediately. i also feel terrible for not posting for the past couple of days. even if i do post, it seems that what i’m writing isn’t good enough. i will try my best to improve. i’ve also been very stressed lately with school and homework. i’ve been procrastinating everything, getting too little sleep, and not taking care of my mental and physical health. i know that i sound like i am making excuses, which i am in a way, but i’m also trying to improve.

recently, i’ve been struggling with body positivity and self confidence. though it isn’t severe, i still push myself very hard to slim down my figure by exercising more. my problem with self confidence is a given. i’ve been struggling with it ever since, but now it’s kind of striking hard. as i’ve been saying, i’m taking a math class over the summer to skip to the next class in math, but i’m not doing as well as i would like. i was never terrible at math when i was in school. i always got over A’s. now, i’ve gotten a B- and i’m getting very confused almost all the time. i also get super nervous and stressed when our teacher voluntells people in our class.

if you are worried, don’t be. i’ve been able to reduce my levels of stress and anxiety by enjoying myself with tv shows and movies and games. recently, i watched Red Shoes and the Seven Dwarfs, as well as the tv show/manga Kodocha/Kodomo No Omocha. i recommend you watch Red Shoes and the Seven Dwarfs because of the deep message behind it, even though it’s a children’s movie. as for the games, I’ve gotten back into playing Minecraft. now here me out, i used to play minecraft 24/7 and i quit very suddenly. i don’t remember why, but ever since i began to play it again, i’ve been feeling happier. 

i hope you are all doing great and staying safe back at home! care for yourself, for you should always be your first priority. i love you all!

- m 

i feel like my page is flopping 😔i’ll keep writing but i’m just busy with school nowadays so i’m sorry if my inactivity is the reason for it. if it’s what i write, please message / comment / inbox me ways to improve. i’m always open for criticism. thanks, loves! i’ll also start a side blog to update stuff on my fics or just post random stuff about my life or other stuff. 🥰 love you all!!

you lied / forever and always | fluff ending

a/n: this is one ending that you can choose from, the other is angst... if you haven’t read ‘you lied,’ go check read it before you read this at the link below... enjoy xx

warnings: fluff, fluff, fluff, did i mention fluff?

masterlist                     prompt list

! you lied read first | angst ending !

“Darling, I-I never meant to scare you. I’m so sorry, love,” he moved closer to you.

The pepper spray can fell from your grip, and your knees buckled, causing you to topple over. Tom caught you before you could hit the floor. You sobbed in his shoulder, murmuring inaudible words.

“I’m here for you, love, I always am,” he whispered, stroking your back.

“I’m sorry,” you cried.

“You shouldn’t be. If anything I should be the one apologizing,” he muttered into your hair.

A loud sob ripped from your lips once more, and Tom felt his heart painfully slowly breaking. He knew he deserved it, though.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner, darling,” he pulled you out of the hug to allow your eyes to meet.

You blinked at him innocently, eyes red rimmed with tears slipping from the edges. With his the pad of his thumb, he wiped away the droplets before placing kisses on both your cheeks, traveling to your lips. You half-giggled and half-hiccuped at the gesture.

“Listen, love, please don’t be afraid or ashamed of me,” you nodded in response.

You sat for a moment, then softly laughed, “Who knew my soft boyfriend was a vicious mobster?”

He laughed with you, feeling butterflies fluttering in his stomach. Suddenly, your laughter came to a halt.

“You lied to me, Tommy. Please don’t do it ever again,” you murmured, pouting at him with a seriousness in your tone.

“So, are you afraid of me?” He looked at you with his irresistible puppy dog eyes.

Placing your small hand to his face, you caressed his cheek, “I could never be afraid of you... well, maybe. You’re very scary after a night without cuddles or calls and when you don’t get your ‘big boy’ meals.”

“Am not,” he whined like a child.

“Am too,” you booped his nose.

The banter went on for minutes until Tom suggested that both of you get some rest. Not wanting him to leave, you grasped his arm tightly and yanked him into bed with you.

“Cuddles, pwease?” You whispered in a baby voice.

Rolling his eyes, he replied, “Of course, bub.”

He held you close to his chest, breathing in your sent.

“You know that I love you, right?” He said, voice hoarse.

“Forever and always,” you muttered into his shirt. The two of you laid in silence for a while until you spoke up, “You know that I love you, right?” You looked up at him, eyes sparkling with admiration.

“Forever and always, my love.”

the worst of you

a/n: sorry for not updating for a while, i’ve been more tired than ever before... this song sparked this idea for a fic so hopefully it’s good and you enjoy it... lots of love xx

pairing: frat!fuckboy!tom x reader

warnings: toxic/unhealthy relationship, angst

masterlist                     prompt list

You promise it's different You swear that you listened I don't mind if you didn't 'Cause I just love the sound of your voice You role-play the good guy, lemon juice your white lies But I see 'em in the sunrise

“This is all different, babe. I swear I’ve been listening to you,” Tom placed his hands on your arms.

You couldn’t care if he didn’t listen, you just loved hearing the sound of his voice. You knew he was a complete fake, roleplaying the good guy. He tried to cover up his white lies but they always shone through either way.

You got me right in the palm of your hand and you know it Oh, it's what you do So let me drown, I'll be there with the band Hit the sea bed, all I'd see is you

You were whipped and the both of you knew it. You were vulnerable and easily manipulated when it came to Tom. He knew he had power over you, so he abused the power. 

It’s what he does, you sighed to yourself, but he’s all that I can think about.

So give me your worst excuses, any reason to stay Give me your lips that taste of her, I'd kiss them again I'd rather you walk all over me than walk away Give me the worst of you 'Cause I want you anyway So take me to every party and just talk to your friends Why don't you let me down, I'll let you do it again Go on and walk all over me, just don't walk away Give me the worst of you 'Cause I want you anyway

Whenever he came back late, you already knew where he had been, though you did care about his feeble excuses. You wanted to hear all of his excuses. They were reasons to stay.

You pulled him towards you, placing your lips on his. You could taste another girl on them mixed with alcohol. You didn’t mind it, as long as you could kiss him you’d be fine. You’d let him walk all over you instead of walk away and leave you.

You wanted him, all of him. Even if he gave you the worst of him, you’d still take him.

-

One night, you asked him to bring you to a party with him. He was hesitant about it. Like always, he tried to find excuses to keep you from going. 

“I won’t be a burden, promise,” you smiled softly.

He sighed, giving in. He brought you to the frat house, which was overflowing with people. He led you to the emptiest couch he could find and left. 

You could see Tom laughing with his friends. You smiled to yourself, happy to see that Tom was happy. Girls began to pile on your boyfriend, but you promised you wouldn’t bother him. Besides, he was still yours. You were the one he came back to almost every night.

We make up, but I know we'll fistfight Through iPhones, my left hook a no-show 'Cause I'll just keep letting you win But baby, the truth is I make your excuses You let me down and I'm used to it

Fights weren’t as frequent in your relationship, seeing as you gave Tom all the freedom in the world, but when you did fight, you’d have make up sex. That wasn’t the end of the fight, though. He would text you angry messages, putting you down. You never fought back. You let him win. 

Your friends and family asked why you stayed with Tom. They could see into the cracks of your relationship. You’d always make excuses to defend the brunette.

Tom, on the other hand, hadn’t even told his family about you. You were put down by it but you didn’t force it upon him. You were used to the disappointment.

Another night, another dotted line I sign my heart away to you Some call it foolish, guess I'll call it art

You signed your heart to Tom. You knew it was a one-sided relationship, but you’d rather gain a relationship with him than feel the pain of losing him. It was like selling yourself to the devil: you got what you want in the short-term but costs you in the long-term.

Many people called you foolish for staying in the toxic relationship but you liked to call it art. Moreover, when one looks at art, they might have an immediate emotional attachment to it, like you with Tom. You were emotionally attached to the British brunette.

“Just give me the worst of you because I’ll want you anyway.”

IM CRYING OMG AKSNHDJDB

Nah the trick is to thrist over tom infront of your boyfriend so he gets all worked up about it and then 'fucks you better tom ever could' even though thats a lie

EVEN THOUGH THAT’S A LIE I-

lmao the fact that that website is a thing XD

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