I Love Headcanoning Old Men As Ftm. Like Considering Fandom Loves To Equate Being Transmasc To Being

i love headcanoning old men as ftm. like considering fandom loves to equate being transmasc to being young no one will probably agree with me but i look into his eyes and see the wisdom only a post-menopausal man could provide

BEING A TANK. IS ALL ABOUT LOVE.

and very, very often, self care is not plants and ice rollers and fluffy blankets of peace.

it’s standing over your kitchen sink and crying while doing the dishes because you just want to go back to bed but the dishes need done. and you don’t know why you’re crying but you're trusting you need it. and you aren’t listening to the music that pulls you into a spiral; you’re listening to some cheerful shit your friend sent you. it’s getting up and staring at your fridge and closing your eyes and then cooking yourself food even though you hate it and it’s miserable. because you know that you’d cook for your friend, and you are trying to befriend yourself. it’s dragging yourself into the shower because you know you’ll feel better afterwards. it’s doing mundane tasks with patience, cursing under your breath, trying desperately to give yourself grace. grace is the beginning of care. care is the beginning of love.

we think it’s supposed to be peace and yet the most powerful self care moments are when we hate everything but especially ourselves. and life does not feel worth the loving. to look into that pain and yet choose to care for yourself in however many pieces you are — that is care. love. grace. trust. belief. it hurts because it’s love where there was no love before. it heals because it believes there will be love, one day, soon.

And Bad Ends not just for WoLs, but potentially the Scions as well! One of my fave fics I ever wrote had Urianger get turned into a Lightwarden at the hands of a spectacularly messed up WoL. (That character was such fun to write for, as was the body horror scenario.) The possibilities for angst are truly endless!

Everyday I wake up and thank Shadowbringers for all the potential angst and bad end/lightwarden AUs the Light corruption arc handed to us.