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Belphegor’s Spells in 15x01

Belphegor, as well as being a sassy Dean fan-boy, and a twisted one at that (one who digs Dean’s painful past as a torturer/demon in Hell) is also a pretty damn good spell-worker, right?

As ever in SPN, spell ingredients are often, especially since the particularly blatant Angel Fall spell of 8x23 Sacrifice, connected to the Destiel subtext of the show: heart of a Nephilim - a product of angel/ human congress; Cupid’s Bow - used to make two dudes fall in love; grace [aka spunk] of an angel, and not just any angel - but specifically Castiel himself. 

Belphegor, who thinks Dean is “gorgeous” and who checks out a LOT of dudes during his speech about how people on earth are a lot more attractive than in ye olden days, has some interesting spell ingredients of his own:

His first spell involves grave dirt and the blood of an angel (specifically Castiel’s blood):

 Dean is in the background shot of this spell, which has so many resonances for the Dean/ Cas relationship. Cas raising Dean from grave dirt (from death, from Hell) - remember the shot of Dean crawling from his own grave in 4x01?

That famous line of Cas’ from 7x21 Reading is Fundamental: “Always happy to bleed for the Winchesters”, which is particularly recalled by Cas’ magnificent eye-roll as he ponies up the blood here in 5x01, despite suffering because of having to watch his beloved dead son’s corpse “defiled” by this new, irritating, demon.

And the blood is symbolic of Castiel’s sacrifice for the Winchesters, his incredible journey from Heaven’s soldier to a renegade with a human (and Nephilim) adopted family whom he loves.

The spell banishes ghosts - subtextually the implication is that Castiel’s love and devotion (his willingness to offer his blood for the Winchesters/ Dean) has the power to banish the things which haunt them/ Dean.

Belphegor’s next spell involves salt and a human heart, and he performs it in the company of Dean:

 We know the expression, “rubbing salt in the wound” - well the subtext of this spell is about Dean’s heart in pain. He bickers with Cas during the episode, and things are clearly not OK between them. Jack and Mary’s deaths have hurt Dean and Cas deeply and, despite their continuing love for one another, come between them. 

This spell temporarily contains ghosts behind a barrier. So that suggests repression.

Take the two spells together, one involving Cas and one involving Dean, and our sassy new queer-coded demon performs one spell which banishes ghosts and one which temporarily traps them. 

Two choices - release the ghosts of the past or repress them. 

One involves Castiel’s willing sacrifice/ devotion.

One involves rubbing salt into Dean’s heart.

In the subtext, these spells, performed by a queer-coded trickster figure (aka a truth-teller) are concerned with the (repressed) love between Dean and Cas and the incredible power/ potential for its resurrection.  

So I’m updating every background picture on every social media platform and electronic device I have. 

Alright friendos, buckle in, cuz I’m about to crack the “we are.” I know you’ve all been seeing the arguments over whether it was romantic or platonic, or, as proxy, whether it was referring to deancas only or all tfw. Let me break down the dialogue a bit, first from the grammatical perspective and then the thematic perspective.

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I screamed when he said “We are” <3 <3 <3 <3 omfg what is happening??? :O <3 

15×01 Destiel meta

“You okay?”

“Yes but, uh..”

“Good”

Okay so we can all agree this was totally a dick move. But why does it hurt so much to have Dean saying that to Cas?

For that I’m gonna do a little bit of a travel through some of Castiel’s more significant moments of genuine emotional vulnerability where he actually talks about it.

"You misunderstand me, Dean. It's not like you think, I was praying that you would choose to save the town."

[...]

"I'll tell you something if you promise not tell another soul. I'm not a hammer, as you say. I have questions, I have doubts. I don't know what is right and what is wrong anymore, whether you passed or failed here, but in the coming months you will have more decisions to make. I... don't envy the weight that's on your shoulders Dean, I truly don't."

It's the Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester, 04×07

“Why are you here, Cas?”

“We’ve been through much together, you and I just wanted to say, I’m sorry it ended like this.”

Lucifer Rising, 04×22

“It sounds so simple when you say it like that. Where were you when I needed to hear it?”

"I was there, where were you?"

The man who would be King, 06×20

For the record, this whole chapter is a moment of emotional vulnerability for Cas, but considering that in most of it he was talking to God, and there was no response, I think that was mostly just talking alone. I chose scenes where he is showing vulnerable to someone else.

“I deserved to die. Now I can’t possibly fix it, so why did I even walk out of that river?

The Born-Again Identity, 07×17

“And, at best, I die trying to fix my own stupid mistake. Or… I don’t die- I’m brought back again. I see now. It’s a punishment resurrection. It’s worse every time.”

Survival of the Fittest, 07×23

“Nothing you could have done would have saved me because I didn’t want to be saved.”

“The hell you’re talking about?”

“It’s where I belonged. I needed to do penance for the things I did on Earth and in heaven, I didn’t deserve to be out, and I saw that clearly when I was there. I planed to stay all along”

A Little Slice lf Kevin, 08×07

“Because if I see what heaven’s become, what I made of it, I’m afraid I might kill myself.”

Hunter Heroici, 08×08

“Everyone you know, everyone you love. They could be long dead. Everyone except me. I’m the one who’ll have to watch you murder the world. So if there’s even a small chance that we can save you? I won’t let you walk out of this room.”

The Prisoner, 10×22

Now a little parenthesis in why I consider this emotional vulnerability, because according to a friend it’s not so clear why I say it is.. Because he wants to save Dean for him, yes, but also for himself. It’s not only that Castiel knows what Dean will do is wrong, or that he knows the true Dean would hate what he is becoming, it’s that he doesn’t want to live that. He’s saying I would still be here by your side, and I would have to watch you do this. Please think of what this will do to me.

By talking about himself, Cas is showing the vulnerability of saying this will fuck me up.

“Dean I just, keep failing. Again and again. When you were taken I searched for months and I couldn’t find you, and then Kelly escaped on my watch and I couldn’t find her and I just wanted… I needed to come back here with a win for you. For myself.”

The Future, 12×19

And now I want you to think what all of these scenes have in common. Yeah, he’s talking to Dean. Maybe Dean isn’t the only one in the room always, but these lines that are so powerful and so full of feelings of regret, pain, fear and anger on himself were all directed to Dean. This is not saying that Cas doesn’t have emotional scenes with other people, he has plenty with Sam and Jack and those are beautiful too, but they are mostly about Sam and Jack, or maybe about how they are all a family, or maybe even showing mutual support, but they are not like this.

Now, I could rant for hours about why Cas only opens up for like this for Dean, but I the simplified version is that 1) Dean was the one pressuring to talk in a lot of these ones, and he was the only one that pressured him to talk about it, and 2) Dean knows what is like to be expected to be a soldier with no emotions, because he had to be that for John.

Their emotional constipation doesn’t come from nowhere. Cas was an angel, they aren’t supposed to feel, and yet he did. And Dean believes he has to be this strong figure Sam and everyone can lean on, someone who’s above all that “chick-flick bullshit”.

Cas knows that Dean understands the strong sense of responsibility and the reluctance to you know, show they have feelings. Dean ‘I’m allergic to talk about my feelings’ Winchester has pushed him to talk about his.

So of course, when Dean asked Cas if he was okay, Cas was so relieved that maybe Dean wouldn’t remain angry and him and they would be comfortable with each other again and the could talk, because Cas needs to talk. He has been through so much the last few days, he wants to talk about. And the only person he knows how to talk about those things is Dean.

But then just walked away, and Cas is being forced to bottle up those feelings. And I guess that you all know what happens when the Winchester decide to bottle up feelings.

Yeah, that moment when Jensen said Cas is going away, we are having a pretty awful break-up, again. Or, as @verobatto-angelxhunter calls it, a Divorce (if you haven’t read her destiel metas what are you even doing with your life?)

So yeah, I’m dying over here.

Just finishing the Office (yes I’m very late), but I had to reblog Angela and Dwight. Of course I also love Pam and Jim, but Dwangela is my favorite ship in this show 😅❤️

Favorite Dwangela Moments

Request for @theofficestan