[9:01 A.m.] At First, It Was Little Things: The Lingering Scent Of A Feminine Sort Of Vanilla On His

[9:01 a.m.] at first, it was little things: the lingering scent of a feminine sort of vanilla on his jacket, when you clearly only wore floral scents. then, his long phone calls that went late into the night, leaving you in bed alone. you didn’t think too much of these things, and in fact, you didn’t want to think about them. you’ve your own shit to deal with, this is the least of your problems. that’s where you fucked up, because well, this could’ve been taken care of far earlier, and could’ve saved you much pain.

when things escalated, and suddenly johnny was home less and less, you began to really feel the loneliness. the breaking point was finding a hickey on his neck that you did not give him one morning, when you happened to wake up before him. you managed to catch a glimpse of a text message that arrived to his phone minutes later, from a contact named soojin. the message?

last night was great, but I wish you would’ve stayed for some cuddles 😩♥️

so now, you’re doing what you have to do. you are quietly pulling out a carrier and putting a few days’ worth of clothes into it, quickly packing your important things, before heading out the front door, leaving the following note by his bedside: “two days is all you get. pack up your shit and get out of my apartment. go stay with soojin, I’m sure she’d love to have her boyfriend stay at her place. if you’re not out of here in two days’ time, I’m calling the landlord to kick you out, I don’t give a fuck. don’t try to call or text me, johnny suh, because it’s pointless. I’ve let this continue for long enough. I’m tired and don’t have the energy nor the time to deal with this. goodbye.”

Hi :) can i ask that you refrain from using ‘crimson’ and ‘red’ to describe the face of the reader when embarrassed? just to respect your readers who have a darker skin complexion and often feel excluded from reader-insert works that use exclusive physical descriptions. when conveying embarrassment there are many ways to write it without mentioning skin tone and physical descriptions! on a lighter note, i loved your sungchan timestamp <3

HI, so first of all, I would like to apologize. I most definitely did not intend even the slightest to offend anyone or to make anyone feel excluded. I’m so sorry if you felt this way :( it was not my intention at all! secondly, thank you so much for bringing this to my attention. I feel like I’ve used these descriptions in other places here and there throughout my works, so I’ll be sure to go back and change them. I truly had no idea that using these words could make someone feel excluded, so I deeply apologize for that. again, I’m so sorry and thank you so much for informing me about this.

xoxo zai

Please, reblog! IIt’s called self defense. Apart from having here, in the US, one of the highest cases of homicide and rape in the world and high rate of GBV, think about how this could help your mother or sister

that being said, i’ve also decided to scrap carpe diem, and instead i’ll do something else with the dead poets society/boarding school trope. I also kinda wanna just switch to writing long ass scenarios instead of committing to series.

eventually tho, i’ll finish coterie, since that’s my baby lol

i’ve deleted some works that flopped and am moving things around rip

writer’s tag!

thank you @kyuwoyo for tagging me in this!! you seem really sweet and i’ve been loving your recent works!

which new trope would you like to try writing? I wanna try writing a e2l but kinda gradually build up to that relationship so i’m probably gonna start small then kinda work my way up! I also wanna do something horror-based!

which trope do you want to write again? I wrote/am still writing a mafia!au and I had a lot of fun with some of the older tropes I incorporated into that so maybe something along those lines!

which drafts are you most excited to post? right now a lot of them are still ideas?? hahaha but there is something I wanna start on asap, along the lines of rival camp counselors, mayhaps???

new genre you want to explore? hmmm maybe sci-fi? I really like the variety that’s in that genre. also horror, mystery and thrillers? I don’t do a lot of that on this blog, but I feel like I have enough background to write about that stuff!

do you have a favourite line in any of your drafts right now? “stoner? I prefer the word... cannabis enthusiast. or I guess, that’s two words.”

have you decided on any creative goals for 2021? maybe to think a little more realistically. I thought I would be able to crank out all these series, but it’s so difficult while also being a student and I work, too. I’m just gonna take it slow and focus on quality over quantity.

describe your journey on this blog in the last year in three words! and three more words for what you hope for 2021! for the past year, I would say: didn’t think realistically... I’ll be honest, in the beginning of 2020, my blog had been blowing up because of my x1 series, and they soon disbanded after that which meant either people lost interest or they didn’t want to read it anymore. I was very quickly starting to lose motivation to continue writing, period. however, I came out of that, and still have decided to finish the series, as well as expand on my main purpose, which was writing for nct. I hope that 2021 brings: even better stories. I have some ideas that I’m really excited to bring out from the drafts, and I hope that once they are out, they do well :)) 

i’m tagging @strawbwrry , @hwayoungscorpioshin and @arckook whoever wants to (also I want some more moots 🥺 so literally if anyone wants to be moots, just tag me in your version of this!!)

WaitForSoo Week 82 of 82 // 25.01.2021 Discharge Day! 

(Thank you to everyone who has consistently supported me through making this series! It’s been a challenge mostly due to my poor time management skills but it has definitely helped the time pass faster <3 )