It May Be A Conjecture But His Quote About Martyr Being A Monster When Camera Stops Rolling Rings A Little

it may be a conjecture but his quote about martyr being a monster when camera stops rolling rings a little bit to personal for me.

he also said specifically that his dad was stationed in France once. stationed → military man?

and the number of siblings = we know bryson, we know annalise, but where's the last brother?

plus his dislike of cops. I think there is a chance of his father being police adjacent/military man and some policemen from around the city knowing jeremy by face and name because of his father.

I know we’re kind of talking about how normal and untraumatized the trojans are but I have to know Jeremy’s backstory okay I HAVE TO

these are all out of order but

why does he sleep with the girls on the weekends??? what’s the deal with his family??? What happened at the banquet with his sister???

Do you think there is ever a year where Kevin just like really really really wants to win his Mom’s award? He cries about it and the Foxes are just like “Christ ok we’ll try.” And thus the Foxes actually have their most intimidating year on record.

They’re trying so hard but their reputation precedes them.

They win it through sheer intimidation that year.

i've seen the post that goes "neil has the crunchiest hair ever seen because of constant dyeing" with counter argument being "his hair is lighter color so it wouldn't be so damaged" but like do we know that he kept the same brown hair for longer than a year in a row? i always assumed that he and mary went through different hair colors so they wouldn't be recognized. on the other hand i haven't reread the books in a while so i maybe forgot something.

also him having an absolutely dead crunchy hair and still looking gorgeous enough to make people flirt with him is funnier to imagine

thinking about my girls once again

i got so bryan seth gordon and polyamory pilled that i invented polyam seth/allison/renee au.

it's v form triad even though none of them know it's called that. all they know that while allison is on and off with seth, she's also looking at renee and renee is sending those vibes back.

in a better world, where seth survives od and gets better, stops tearing team apart with animosity towards monsters, where renee allows this to happen, allison draws her in. renee stood no chance. and seth looks at her sometimes, commiserating — that's ally for you — and renee responds with a fond smile — yes, she is like that.

connection to allison does not make renee and seth friends automatically but it offers possibilities to become ones.

(renee has to bleach and dye her hair every month. seth just bleaches his to look less like his brothers. usually allison helps them both but once she just dumped seth on renee with bleach and brushes and departed, citing that she's busy and they can help each other. they did. it's a nice ritual to have.)

it's a strange thing for seth. how do you treat a girl your girlfriend looks at longingly? even his homophobia and possible left over misogyny aside, how do you talk to her?

(what if allison chooses her over you, seth? yes, she struggled more than you and has baggage three times yours but she's nicer. sweeter. when she thinks you can't see she holds ally's hand like a knife: carefully, respectfully, like something revered. what do you do with that?)

allison's brutal honesty keeps seth out of habit of lying to himself and offers a breath of fresh air to renee. when he asks: me or her? she says: both equally and differently. he has to reckon with the fact that he can have allison like this or not at all.

(he will never know, but if he broke off things that one time, it would have been the last.)

he deals with it good, all things considered. couple of fights and nights spent blindly drunk and high notwithstanding. rare edges of renee — knives, spars with andrew, quiet no when faced with drugs — help to reconcile with the notion of sharing.

renee didn't care for him before she entered the relationship with allison. he was on a periphery and if something happened to him that upset allison she would have been understanding but she did not consider him her own the way she did with the girls.

after seeing him with allison she has to reckon with the fact that there is actually something in him that allison loves. it's not just body chemistry and bad decisions. brutally honest and so bloody loyal, pushing her to be the best, not trying to restrain her but to egg her on. willing to shut up and listen sometimes. blackest sense of humor you have ever seen, voice a sweet tenor.

(if seth dies, his ghost isn't haunting only allison. renee mourns too, quietly.)

i think of that moment when allison fresh after seth died went to see the banners with his picture and nicky went "i bet she's crying". like. he's putting up with a lot of shit from the twins and kevin willingly but he's still a shitstarter at heart. neil is saying that it was a bad attempt to lighten the mood but nicky ffs why?

dude. neil, someone who is callous to this kind of thing, got mad at that. how do you achieve that?

I still can’t believe so many people place Nicky as some sort of pacifist/conflict hater who is upset when arguments break out when canonically he is known to makes things awkward and uncomfortable just because he finds sheer joy and amusement out of it 😭