Oh Girls It Seems I Just Overthought Everything!!! (nice Soah Lol)

Oh girls It seems I just overthought everything!!!🙄 (nice Soah lol)

Even today, I was expecting that we would just say hello to each other in the corridor, but now he came up to me and asked if I would like to have a coffee with him, to which I said yes, a little reluctantly, but happily.😳😳 omg omggg

Then we sat down in the yard and it was just him and me, away from everyone so no one could hear us. He turned to me and while drinking his coffee, he stroked my head kindly and you can imagine girls... he started talking. He apologized for behaving differently than usual, told me that he was in the middle of moving and that he had to spend a lot of time on this, and that he had taken on a lot of extra work at the university and that he really wanted to buy the kitten soon. He initiated me into things I didn't even think about and I felt very guilty that I "attacked" him in a selfish way, that he doesn't take care of me. I started to respect him even more and I also apologized to him for not being respectful to him.🥺

Then he jokingly pushed my shoulder and I remember his words: "I would never be mad at you for something like that, because we're friends…or something like that, right?" I just smiled to my embarrassment and said yes we are friends or something like that. (????? YEAHH?? OR MORE THAN?? OR WHAT)

So now we're fine and I'll be a smart girl (i promise) I'll respect his boundaries and I won't force him attention, I'll let him approach and if I see that he's allowing me, I'll approach him again, but carefully.

I really love this man.

I'm a loyal slut to him.

Girls, I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to know what happened, I haven't been able to sleep for days because of all this.😫

So today after school I didn't go home straight away, but I wrote him a message asking where he is and I want to talk to him a bit. I wrote just in time, because he replied that he was leaving now, but we could meet in the yard. I quickly ran out into the yard where I saw him, he was smoking and leaning against the wall, it seemed that he was going to his car because he had his bag and a lot of papers.

So out of a sudden impulse, since I had been waiting so long for us to talk, I ran to him and without even thinking, I just opened my mouth: "I feel like I'm not important." - I told him honestly while trying to catch my breath (bc I had been running so far) lol YEAHHH girls…I told him this without any hesitation. ???!! WTF WHY

And R (I think) expected everything but this, because he looked at me with such big eyes and then started to laugh softly and put down his cigarette. Ofc I got upset bc I thought he wasn't taking me seriously and I told him: "this isn't funny! are you mad at me?" 😭😭 After that, my eyes widened when he came closer to me and raised his hand. "Do you see this?" - he asked and pointed to the bracelet that I had given him... "If you weren't important to me, I wouldn't be wearing this gift." - he said, ruffled my hair and pinched my face again. (i died)

After that, he told me that he had a lot to do and that he had to go now because he was already late. The events happened as fast as always, so I just nodded and he said goodbye.

Honestly, I'm a little relieved that there's no problem between the two of us, but I feel that it's no coincidence that he's been "neglecting" me so far... but it's okay now.

so maybe i don't need to worry?

OK GIRLS???! I tried to boldly flirt with him, but I didn't think that I would die more from the answer....SIR WHAT? U FLIRT BACK???😭

Older men are the strongest drugs and I'm addicted.

I love my teacher okay? I love the way he teaches, the way he cares about his students and their future. I love his hackneyed humor and his silly side, and at the same time, I'm fall for his seriousness. I simply admire him and I have the utmost respect for him.