So. The People Who Were Banned In Aspencord Have All Been Unbanned.

so. the people who were banned in aspencord have all been unbanned.

we rejoined for a little while, and for a bit it was as if nothing changed.

yet a lot has changed.

we don't forgive Aspen even despite her acknowledgement that it was shitty. yes she's never acknowledged her actions were bad before so that is a step in the right direction, but even then our forgiveness isn't so easily earned. even if she was unmedicated during that time, I won't believe she's so easily changed. I mean, yeah, I do shitty things while unmedicated too, but it's not like I'm proud of it and I own up and do better.

she hurt us. and when we were back in the server we were anxious constantly. not because of the usual "worrying we'll miss out on the fun", but because of what happened before. I could feel us slipping into the conforming mindset that we had during our initial time there and it was agony.

so we couldn't stay. we couldn't stay despite the fact we mostly just wanted to collect screenshots of shitty behavior. we couldn't even do that much.

we feared so much for possible dogpiling that conversations were almost agonizing. knowing what's happened in the past, and seeing people who participated in dogpiling us now being in the mod team, we were fearful.

we're never going back. we never intend to go back. even if Aspen herself apologized with all her heart and soul and personally invited us back, we will never go back.

our forgiveness isn't earned that easily and never will be.

it’s ween

hi heres the entire twilight movie as a stamp

oh yeah if you wanna date me you have to defeat my seven evil alters

Hey if someone is a spiritual kinnie and you want to go and tell them “Ackshually you’re delusional, those memories aren’t real you’re just a system” because they have kin memories (unprompted!) you’re an asshole!

-from a SYSTEM who has a host with spiritual kin memories, thanks!

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while I do agree I'm seeing improvement, and she did (kind of) apologize for what she's done to us specifically, I'm not holding out much hope that it'll last. I mean, good for her that she's starting to be better, and maybe I'm just in too deep with the grudge against her. it's hard to say honestly, I just wouldn't be surprised if she reverted.

Well, this is one hell of a turn over, talked to Aspen some and she actually seems like she's doing super well. Shes on meds and honestly she seems so much better then before, I'm happy to see she's gotten so much better