Would Be A Lie - Gojo Satoru Genre: Angst | Notes: Manga Spoilers!, Angsty Gojo Supremacy | 0.9k Words

would be a lie - gojo satoru genre: angst | notes: manga spoilers!, angsty gojo supremacy | 0.9k words - those three words that he saw as curse. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Upon meeting Gojo Satoru at his prime, you knew that this man would be your greatest enemy and greatest home, meeting Gojo Satoru isn’t like a tea in winter, it’s not like an iced tea on summer, meeting Gojo Satoru is like tasting a mint chocolate ice cream for the first time: that is meeting Gojo Satoru, you don’t know if you like the hint of sweet or like the hint of mint, because he is nowhere in between that two flavor.

But meeting him was one of your greatest cheers in life, you knew Gojo’s past because you lived in it, you were a part of it. You knew Geto Suguru became his first and only best friend as well as Shoko being his friend and human diary. But something made you feel closer to Gojo, because of all the pain he went through, he still chooses to be back to you, whether you may play a big or small part in his past he still chooses to go back to you.

You smiled at this thought because indeed, you knew Gojo more than you planned too: on how would you explain to him that you’re thankful that he let his guard down as you bring him an embrace, on how much you adore his body warmth to yours, on how you would catch him staring at you despite his blindfold, on how his mood suddenly shifts whenever you’re there, oh, and how could you thank him on how he would allow himself to fall asleep next to you when the night is chilly.

Such a cliche love story, if some would say but that’s just the thing, Gojo never really made it clear who you were, who are you in his life: because not even you could not explain if he’s toying with your emotion or just being him. You never knew what’s written on his mind, despite the fact he’s letting his guard or infinity around you it doesn’t mean the wall that he built is gone too.

Gojo was a man, having ten steps in his mind, ten steps onwards to the future, ten steps before you could even move. Despite the mixed signals he gave. You never seem to notice on how his blue eyes tend to show such sadness, that behind that strong persona he puts on, him: Gojo Satoru, is more than a jujutsu sorcerer, that person behind his blindfold and upholded persona is the one you wish to love, and you helping him to replace that sadness that he holds for too long, that you wish that hole in his heart will be replaced by you.

“Then, tell me..what are we Gojo? Cause--”

That was the question you asked him, to which he didn’t know what to say and you bet he thanked his students for calling him that time. You wished that he forgot that question but deep down you bid the gods that he will answer you with the answer you wish to hear, because how would you explain the deep embrace he give to you, how would you explain the long intertwining hands whenever you two are alone, how would you explain those lost and deep nights where he only showered you with taste of love? What is it, then?

When Gojo heard you asked the question, he felt his heart skip a beat, because you’re the only person he never wished to lie to. He thanked his students for saving him from your question. He trembled for a moment, for the thought that maybe you don’t want him anymore, you don’t wish to be at his side anymore. He feared that maybe you would find someone, but no, you wouldn’t do that.

Throughout the whole day he spent his time thinking of how he would answer you, because in the end of the day, in the middle of the night, he knew he would want to spend it with you. Because he knew, he was in love with you.

When he was about to go home, he felt your eyes staring at him when he first years arrived at the school, he saw your eyes lit up the moment you saw him, he saw you lit up all of the sudden when you saw him that made him calm and made his stomach feel those butterflies.

But that hole of sadness is much scarier, he thought that every moment he can lose you, just like how lost himself back then with his best friend. He engaged a deep sigh, shaking his head and believing that he is the strongest that he can protect you but he couldn’t shake the fact that maybe, some day, you will leave him and there’s nothing he can do. He loves you so much that he would do anything to protect you.

Love is indeed the most bitter curse, this is the taste of curse, because he already felt it, he tasted it already. He just wished to be happier, but this is too much, and when the night left the both of you, he finally answered your question.

“Cause, I love you, Satoru.”

Ah, this is where he wished to be himself, that he wished he lived like a normal man living with you. But just this once, he would like to lie, because you were the important piece in his life and he couldn’t bear to lose you. He sighed and when you heard him clear his throat, you knew you lost in this gamble, you lost in this taste of love or more like curse.

“[Name.], If I told you those eight letters...three words..it would be a lie.”

And maybe he did lose you after this night.

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don't say i love you - amajiki tamaki genre: fluff! | notes: i miss amajiki plss, Mirio-wingman energy | 1.0k words - Say 'i love you' without saying i love you cause both of you are shy

— extra notes: - forgive me for being inactive, i'm currently working on a series which i'm having a hard time to where i would post it so meh.. - drink your water everyone and this story is just an excuse, i just miss my babie amajiki

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Take a deep breath. Take a deep breath, he keep reminding himself to take a deep breath, whether it’s a way to calm himself down or the calm everyone down: Tamaki Amajiki keeps inhaling and exhaling to calm his pounding chest and to tire down the ringing in his hair but in spite of all the battles he had in his head, there’s this one person that he always thinks of, the one who tells him that he should keep going, the one who keeps cheering on him even if he felt like everyone is watching him, that person was you. He is indeed in love with butterflies but he surely knows that haven’t eaten any type of butterfly and yet, your laughter, your smile, and the way you speak made him feel soft and familiar inside.

He never knew what caused this, he never knew what’s the reason for his sudden excitement when you enter the room, his body would react when he feels your warmth to his fingertips, he would often ramble this to Mirio to which Mirio was happy and pleased: he always wanted to see this sight where Amajiki finally found the missing part and him feeling the warmth in his skin.

“Come on, just one date..”

“I’ll just end up going home..”

Mirio left a chuckle but with a little push, he said that you wouldn’t turn him down or even leave him alone because deep down Mirio knew that Amajiki has the best version of himself and that’s when he’s with you. But to his state he never knew how much big deal this is for Amajiki thinking of all the things that may not fall to the ending he wishes to possess however, he, himself was also indecisive despite being one of the UA’s big three, he had no clue which move he should do next.

The last thing he knew is that he only wanted to be next to you, all of the time.

But the funny about that is that you and Amajiki posses the same attitude, him having anxiety whenever he’s with new people and you being afraid of asking some additional ketchup to a fast food chain worker: due to this fact you two pledge closer together and the two of you voyage the outside world the language you and him only knew and communication became a golden key for the both of you.

So, you noticed how Amajiki mostly feel embarrassed or flustered next to you: you wondered if maybe you did something wrong? Or maybe you did something that actually made him and that is the last thing you wish would happen, without a doubt losing Amajiki would be the greatest travesty you wish you wouldn’t think of, due to the sudden change of his attitude you tried to think of somethings that can actually affect Amajiki from the food you gave him to the way you talked to him but nothing seems to be the problem but still he seems to have that pink shade of powder in his cheeks, and to your conclusion maybe he has a crush….on someone else.

Not that you like him or maybe you do...but maybe he’s being like that because you two seemed to be too close and now it’s affecting his crush, you tried to clear your mind in this kind of thought, but looking back he did mention that there’s this one person that makes him keep going.

You dealt with heartache before but now, you wonder if Amajiki is worth it because truth to be told, seeing Amajiki with someone who isn’t you, doesn’t really make your stomach happy, however if it’s a way to make him smile, you’ll gladly let him go.

You stood in front of Amajiki’s room and with a heart on your hand as an offer for a love that you wish he will return. You informed him ahead of time that you were gonna go inside but then you remind to yourself that both of you are like house of cards, you two take time to build each other and just a short time to make you both fall apart but alas, for now, you or both of you tries to make this house of cards even bigger.

You went inside his room and saw Mirio and Amajiki talking, it seems so intense and still Amajiki’s red blush is still present, as if by magic or most likely quirk Mirio vanishes making himself sink in Amajiki’s room leaving you and Amajiki alone, oh, and also those butterflies in yours and his stomach.

“..I noticed something..are you mad at me?”

You asked Amajiki to make him stand up asking you why you would think of that and you looked away. Huh? So he isn’t mad. Maybe he really likes someone, then. Without a word, Amajiki just stared at you as you sigh in deep thought, Mirio’s words had a call in his head, like he is having a telepathy with Mirio.

“...I see..”

You gave off a vibe like you knew but at the same time you didn't. While Amajiki stares at you, adoring you in every way he can.

“I like you.”

Ah, crap. You and him muttered in a low voice, ah, soulmates. What a twist indeed, you two heard a low chuckle and Mirio’s face was on Amajiki’s wall. “See, I told ya!” To Mirio, he told you beforehand that you should just go for it and he cheered Amajiki a while ago to ask you out. He disappeared from the wall as you ran to Amajiki and gave him a hug as he did in return with a shaking hand; no words were heard that time and apparently you need don’t need to say ‘i love you ‘ to say you two love each other, forgot about the blue moon and shooting stars because in this universe you two have each other hearts inside the bigger house of cards.

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old fashioned lovers - kuroo tetsurou genre: angst | notes: slight mention of cheating, hbd kuroo, angst, twilight reference, falling out of love | 0.7k words - where you and kuroo fell out of love. extra: Hey! everyone, it's been a while, I've been busy and facing a huge self decision whether i should change my username or not erm--yeah, but i hope everyone is doing good and i'll try to be active, stay safe

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You and Kuroo have a lot of differences and sometimes these differences were overlooked because you two were the perfect couple -- was the perfect couple.

It happened on the night you met Kuroo, and despite the differences in yours and his personalities, you two looked forward to the date set in the morning. For months and a year Kuroo followed you, he followed you to get your heart, to get you to say yes. And you did.

The first night he spent with you was your second anniversary with him and that night he realized he loves you more than anything and would do anything for you, including breaking your heart. Kuroo knew how hard a relationship can be, he knew it first hand seeing his parents fall apart, seeing everything he adores fall apart, but that change when he met you, because of you he finally had hope, he had courage, and felt the love that he longed for a long time, he knew that it was good having you by his side, in fact, he believed that it was too good, too good to be true, and it was.

The third year in the relationship was buying a home with no one just you and Kuroo, the third year in the relationship was you having a secret language with him and him having a secret favorite scent that reminds him of you. Kuroo looked at the bedsheets as he rest his hand on your cheek.

This was too good to be true.

“Tetsu, why are you awake, it’s too early…”

“Sorry, I woke you up, baby. Go back to sleep, I just like watching you sleep.”

“Are you pulling an Edward Cullen, now? You should go back to sleep too, Tetsu..”

And there he stared at you, sleeping peacefully.

This was too good to be true.

The fourth year in the relationship was the first and last fall of the glass. The glass was no ordinary glass, it was a glass filled with passion and love, and that first fall ruined the night, that night he think of someone while holding your hand but he didn’t tell you about it cause he believes that made him more of a good guy. But he was wrong. The first time the glass fell wasn’t only his fault, it was yours too.

That time when he uttered another name while holding you, you think of another person other than Kuroo. You wanted to scream at yourself for thinking like that, as you remind yourself, you love Tetsurou, but when you met his eyes that time, his eyes were pleading something, something you could not give. And that time Kuroo wasn’t the only one who dropped the glass, you did too.

That night, was the last night.

The last night Kuroo saw your face, the last night you held Kuroo’s hand, the last night Kuroo held you like a fragile glass, the last night you kiss Kuroo a ‘goodnight’.

The night was so painful, that it was true.

The last night wasn’t a painful farewell, it was the sweet goodbye, you two knew that you danced too much these past years together, you two loved too much together.

“I’m sorry--I couldn’t keep my promise of spending forever with you..”

“It’s okay, Tetsu. I’m sorry too.”

Some would say they are the perfect couple --- they were the perfect couple. They were so perfect that even their differences took part in that perfect piece but not all the time perfect wins.

You and Kuroo part ways but a part of him stays with you and a part of you stays with him.

You are his greatest love and his calming pain.

And he is your sweetest serendipity and soft goodbye.

And just like the first night you and Kuroo met, you saw the differences between you and him, but this time it was the last night.

This was too good to be true, he reminded himself once again.

He kissed your forehead and you returned it with a sad smile.

“We met but it was never destined.”

That’s the last piece of glass, and you and Kuroo were nothing more but old lovers.

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"Deja Vu"

Kuroo Tetsurou (Ft. Kozume Kenma) | Haikyuu Imagine

notice: all characters are aged up, angst

part 1 | part 2

playlist: Uptown Girl by Billy Joel, Deja Vu by Olivia Rodrigo

author's note: this fic is heavily inspired by Olivia Rodrigo's deja vu ;)

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You knew Kuroo and Kenma since the three of you are still young, you knew about their flaws and golden qualities but more importantly you became too fond of Kuroo and Kenma, on the other hand also knew that. He knew how your eyes linger a little longer when it comes to Kuroo, Kenma watched you feel enamoured while you watched Kuroo. Kenma watched you so much that he knew you loved Kuroo more than just a friend. Kenma, always watched you, trying to figure out if Kuroo feels the same with you.

To his luck, he watched Kuroo’s eyes watch every moment, every scenery whenever the bedhead is with you. Kenma also watched the first time Kuroo looked at you as if you’re the most fragile thing in the room. Kenma watched Kuroo and you fell in love with one another.

Kenma was always there with the both of you. Gosh, he can’t even get over the fact that he stayed up all night hearing Kuroo talk about you and you greeting him in the morning only to tell him about your dreams that you wish to achieve with Kuroo. The blonde already fed up with too much information to the point he just blurted out that you two should date.

Kenma watched his two best friend love each other, he watched the both of you trade jacket’s even your jacket actually doesn’t fit Kuroo, he watched you laugh at every Kuroo’s chemistry joke, he watched the both of you sing the songs in Pitch Perfect and Glee even though sometimes you two are out of tune, and he watched you and Kuroo brag to your friends that you finally found someone to keep and to hold for a lifetime. Kenma always wanted this to see Kuroo with a smile on his face and a joy creeping up your lips.

He also was one of the first persons who knew where the two of you went when you two ran away from town.

From Kuroo's perspective, he got everything in his arms and that was you. He can’t forget how thankful he is that there’s this person he is able to share his strawberry ice cream with. He felt at ease with you, he felt home with you. He also regretted that he never got to tell you that he loves you a lot sooner, but you assured him everything is fine.

At night when he holds you tight, your hair would fall in his arms as you both sway to Billy Joel’s Uptown Girl, and a Cheshire smirk in his face. And when the morning comes, you showed him your hiding spots, you showed him a place where it is peaceful, you showed him your safe place as Kuroo knew how your hands moved when you’re nervous, he watched you lips turn into smiles when you see him, he knew your mannerisms and jokes that always makes him laugh.

A small pond close to yours and his old school, that’s your favorite spot and now, also his. He would hold you close when he’s there with you playing soft songs that you and he knew, as he tells you that he loves you in between the chorus and verse.

He still remembers the night where he slept by your side while you tell him your dreams and hopes for the both of you. He still tastes the time when he heard you bragging to his friend that he is so unique.

Like from the beginning Kenma watched you two fall, he also the first one watched the both of you break.

Kenma watched Kuroo’s eyes leave yours whenever his new friend enters the room, Kenma watched Kuroo’s hand leaving yours and guiding the other person in the room. He watched Kuroo’s jacket on his friend too. Kenma watched the sweetness of strawberry ice cream start to get bitter. Kenma watched Kuroo leave you.

He watched Kuroo break you.

Who would’ve thought he would be here, watching Kuroo kneeling in front of someone he never really knew asking their hand in marriage, there Kenma sees your image in the pond next to your old school and his, there he watched Kuroo making another person that’s not you to be his. He watched Kuroo once again fall with someone, look at someone as if they are the most fragile thing in the world, he watched Kuroo trade jackets with someone, he watched Kuroo telling the jokes you used to tell him, he watched Kuroo fall in love with someone and fell out of love with you.

But among other things, one thing that Kenma cannot seem to unsee is whenever he sees Kuroo with that someone, he sees you, Kenma sees your mirroring image, doing the things you used to do with Kuroo.

Here he is now, staring at Kuroo, in a room where people are waiting for the groom to enter the room. Kenma watched his friend preparing for a marriage.

“Kuroo, when you enter the place where you will say ‘I do’, please be honest with me..” Kenma uttered a simple glimpse from Kuroo while Kuroo fixed his hair. “When you call her, do you almost say [Name]’s name?”

Cause they actually sound the same. “With everything you did with [Name], was [Name] just your type?”

Kenma argued and his voice got a little louder making Kuroo stand up and look at him firmly. “I bet you danced her with Uptown Girl, like you once did with [Name]!”

By now, Kuroo and Kenma had their first hardfist argument. At Kuroo’s wedding day.

“When are you gonna tell her that you and [Name] did that too?” He asked, making Kuroo bite his inner lip, Kenma walked closer to Kuroo and looked at his eyes. “..She might think it’s special but Kuroo, it’s all reused!”

Kenma watched tears coming out of Kuroo’s eyes as he looked away from Kuroo and stared at the empty wall behind Kuroo.

“I’ve watched you for a long time, Kuroo. And don’t act like you didn’t do things with [Name], like trading jackets? Singing along with Glee? Give me a break, Kuroo.” He sighed, while letting his hand ball into a fist meeting Kuroo’s face.

“Do you get Deja vu, when she’s with you?”

That was the last thing Kuroo ever heard from Kenma’s voice, as he left the room and entered his own wedding ceremony, there he saw your eyes when he walked on the aisle, he saw your eyes in the crowd and visioned himself next to you. He met your eyes in the crowd and he now realized, someone took your spot that should be yours.

A spot that was yours--supposed to be yours. He met your eyes, wishing he can turn back time. His eyes left you for a moment and you were gone. Kenma watched you leave the ceremony and when Kuroo reached the end of the aisle he met Kenma’s gaze and whispered.

“I do get Deja Vu of [Name], Kenma.”

At last Kenma watched Kuroo again as he breaks from the inside and as Kuroo wishing this was only a dream--a nightmare that he can wake up anytime.

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one step forward, three steps back - bakugou katsuki genre: angst | notes: song fic, interactive-ish !toxic relationship! | 0.6k words - loving bakugou is like moving forward but also three steps back,,

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