Me When Gillion Tidestrider My Last Sin Is That I Hate You Speech

me when gillion tidestrider my last sin is that i hate you speech

anyway umm gillion's parents are the only people I think gill won't have much of a reaction to seeing. no matter how he decides to approach the elders, he'll be afraid of them, like he always was. he'll openly weep the next time he sees his sister, they'll hug each other and never let go. but seeing his parents again. I think he won't even recognize their faces. barely remember their names. whatever they do, however they react to seeing him again, I think gillion just...doesn't do much of anything. it's uncomfortable and somehow overwhelming and underwhelming at the same time and these people that are crying and hugging him and apologizing are just strangers to him (and he feels bad for thinking of them that way, but what else is he supposed to do?)

I think he'll expect to be sad or angry. maybe happy to finally meet them. but he just shuts down. he doesn't know why.

Straight friend groups are like *The blonde girl* *The funny one* *Chad*

Gay friend groups are like *The Tortured Detective* *The Blind Vessel* *The Fractured Piece Of An Eldritch God* *The Serial Killer*

i know it’s been said before, but it bears repeating: a big, big part of maintaining your confidence & self esteem as a creator is fully embracing the concept of “you don’t have to be good like them.  you can be good like you.”

for example, i’m not someone who’s particularly good at coming up with complex, elaborate plots or incredibly unique ideas.  it’s just not how i choose to write.  and it would be easy for me to look at someone with an elaborate, super unique plot & decide that because i don’t write like that, i’m not a good writer.  after all, unique plots are good, and my writing lacks those, so my writing must not be good, right?  well, no, actually.  i just have different strengths, like taking a simple premise & digging super deep into its emotional depths.  that’s what i do well & it isn’t any better or worse than people who do elaborate world building or come up with really creative and unexpected plots.

your writing is never going to be all things to all people.  it just isn’t.  inevitably, you’ll have to make creative choices that favor certain aspects of writing over others.  there is truly no getting around that & it’s honestly a good thing, because it means you’ve developed your own style.  but you’ll always encounter other creators who posses strengths that you don’t.  it doesn’t mean one is better than the other or that your writing isn’t good enough. 

comparing yourself like that would be like taking a piece of pizza & a cupcake & going “oh no, that cupcake is so sweet & my pizza isn’t sweet at all.” or “gosh, the garlic crust on that pizza is delicious and my cupcake doesn’t have ANY garlic.”  obviously your pizza isn’t sweet.  obviously your cupcake doesn’t have garlic.  a food can’t have every single delicious flavor at once.  the cupcake is good like a cupcake.  the pizza is good like a pizza.  so you don’t have to be good like them.  you can be good like you.

me reading straight up pornography: hmm… this one just doesn’t have enough accurate character psychoanalysis to get me off

literally no better feeling than blurting out some loud dumbass joke with your buddies and hearing a total stranger ugly-snort-laugh as they walk past bc their own laughter caught them by surprise. find joy and connection in the spontaneity of strangers you son of a bitch. i fucking got your ass