I Knew It Was Wrong, Then I Thought It Was Wrong, Then I Knew It Was Wrong Again

i knew it was wrong, then i thought it was wrong, then i knew it was wrong again

say i’m the grinch and you’re christmas but cindy lou who was aborted

as a writer i want to watch saltburn again, but as a viewer…. no thank you :)

i’m all done growing and yet it still gives me pain.

i hate that i miss you.

i know i shouldn’t,

that you were bad for me

but i cant stop the want of

the feeling of being next to you

from rushing back into my body

like i’m being jolted back alive.

i miss you.

i hate it.

what’s worse is that maybe,

maybe,

i’m not hallucinating the looks you give me.

maybe you think of me, too.

maybe you wish you could

notice more things about me that i never did.

like how i turn my shoulder when

passing someone i don’t want to talk to.

have you noticed i never do it with you?

nothing makes me feel smarter than understanding a hozier song.