17/04/24

17/04/24

saw swan lake at the ballet last night, was so gutted by the end of it 

DAMN it why didn’t my parents force me into ballet when I was three years old?????

04/05/24

May is…

the scent of cleaning products, fresh air coming in from an open window, waking up in a sunlit room, baking cute pastries, green meadows and wild flowers, morning runs, diary writing on a balcony, iced coffee, cream and vanilla coloured everything, freckles, productivity, peace and patience, falling in love again

08/04/24

happy late Easter!

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here’s some signs of repressed anger because why not:

never feeling angry, but often feeling sad or depressed

overuse of sarcasm or cynicism

being uncomfortable with conflict or confrontation

feeling the need to control a lot of things

experiencing chronic muscle tension or headaches

having difficulty setting boundaries, expressing needs or saying no

shutting down, avoiding people or isolating yourself when upset

high levels of chronic stress or anxiety

feeling guilty, ashamed or bad when you are angry

17/06/2024

going to my cousins' summer house to celebrate midsummer in two days

there's a perfect lake and everything is so scenic, especially during the evenings when the sun is low

22/04/24

you can’t convince me she’s not literally an incarnation of Aphrodite

06/05/2024

my therapist that I’m in so into sent me a message on self-compassion and I keep rereading it with increasing anger and frustration (it’s utter shenanigans, will probs copy it onto here later)

he also promised me I could reach out to him whenever, when I’ve left the country post-Summer, and have therapy sessions with him online

my friend says he just wants that juicy, thick pay check my mom gives him aaaand… yea she’s right IknowIknowIknow