I'm Gonna Take Me And My Verse As An Example, I'm A Brainmade Formed Long Time Ago, At Some Point A "new

I'm gonna take me and my verse as an example, I'm a brainmade formed long time ago, at some point a "new me" was formed thanks to a problem, altough this "new me" share name with me and some likes and things like that he was his own brainmade alter that just had similarity in name and personality wise

This is also an interesting topic that I'm willing to explain more regarding labels, we personally don't like autojects as a label (introject of someone who already is in the sys) and so we call them brainmades

Hope this explains a little bit the question

I'm curious, do you have a "verse" in your system?

Explanation: A verse is when you have multiple alters from the same source and/or are classified as similar or the same; it's not always about introjects cause we have brainmades who are a verse

We have like 10 verses lol

Brain doesn't have budget to make original ideas /j

I just entered in a state where I wanted to be certain fictional character so hard and that was helping me a lot to keep me safe and cope with certain personal problems, and when I realize I was being accompanied in front by a semi-formed alter that was formed to help me cope and don't hurt myself (The same thing I was doing alone when I was making myself think that I'm that character)

Like... Ok brain, curious way of using a blank fragment and give him a purpose... I guess..?

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Yeah I get that, at first I didn't know anything about CDD other that some random encounters in internet with OSDDID community content and I didn't understand anything of that, when we finally get my medical recognition I immediately entered in a denial spiral, it was one of the toughest denial episodes I've ever had and it took me like another two years and more personal investigation on the CDD to finally start to accept that what I was experiencing was DID because I was scared and the amnesiac barriers play dirty to you

Amnesiac barrier are very wild and strange, and when you combine them with possessive and non-possessive switches it gets worst, it's a very complicated thing that gets very frustrating when you try to understand it, it works in its own patterns but it differs from sys to sys and that makes it difficult to handle and understand your own case, more with denial and blurry in the same table

Dissociation and amnesia works together in this disorder, and it's wild and interesting trying to understand and find a meaning for the patterns and ways to work form your brain an system

I hope things are getting better for you, and I totally related with what you say

Something that I haven't seen a lot to be talked about in the CDD community is how strange amnesiac barriers can act sometimes

One moment you're talking with the others at front and you're aware of the system, and in the other you feel completely alone and stop knowing about the system and alters like 1-3 months and suddenly they pop up again and make appearance just like nothing happened

When this happens is when I usually get into the denial episodes and start thinking I'm faking, but then they return and I'm more confused than ever

Or when you're normal and suddenly you become hyper aware of your system and start hearing alters that you never heard but aren't new, just the barriers didn't let you know them before

This are just some of the most common experiences we have with the amnesiac barriers and I think it should be talked a little bit more, after all is a primordial part of the complex dissociative disorders

If you want reblog and/or comment your own experiences and thoughts regarding amnesiac barriers!

We have like... 3-5 introjects that are well formed, the rest are just fragments or semi-formeds and is WILD cause they act so different from well formed alters 😭

Running to send you help and donating brainmades 🏃 /j

I find so funny that even though we're introject heavy the most formed alters are almost always the brainmades, and like 98% of the fragments are introjects

It's like the brain says "We need a new fragment, let's introject... Wait, we need a more fully formed alter? Here you go a brainmade"

All the formation budget goes to the brainmades /j

This is a vent like post, but it's ok if you reblog cause you feel identified with it or want to share a similar experience, we don't care for that so you can do it

One of the worst things as a system with low split tolerance is when you are in a relationship based in trauma bonding, and you end up splitting or forming an alter because of thta

When you form an alter that make sure you don't get out the relationship as a response of the trauma bonding

When you form an alter that tries to get you out of the relationship but you can't because of the trauma bonding

When you form an introject of that person to help the reinforcement of the trauma bonding

When you form an introject of that person to try and cope the relationship (Good, neutral or bad way)

It doesn't matter how the alter ends up pressenting, is related of that trauma bonding relationship, and even if you get out the relationship you'll see that alter and you remind that relationship, you can't help but feel guilty

Even if the alters gets dorman, fuse or fragments after the relationship broke out you're conscious that alter once was there, and you can't help but remember something about that relationship, and how the impact on you was so strong that ended up in formation/splitting of someone new

One of my favorite things to see within the plural community is when some system use a different term for alters/headmantes, systems can get so creative when maken up things

We have seen parts, homies, familie, roommates, guys, and some random things that are so funny and interesting to see, and I think that's a great thing

Even though it's normal for systems use one of the two more common terms you don't have to stick with a term you and your systems don't feel comfortable, there's not a bad nor incorrect term when calling your system parts cause that's a you thing, and I think is awesome when a system is ok to using alternatives for themselves cause that can be helpful to recovering, even though it sounds stupid or nonsense

If you want to share with us how you call your alters besides that you can do it!! We'll gladly read with joy

And for the record, even though we call them alters online, with ourselves and a close group of friends and people we call them persmos, yeah, like our name hahahaha #PersmosRule