Hey Baaabe, Can You Maybe Write Tae Or Jimin Falling For Oc Whos Also An Idol But They Cant Really Show
hey baaabe, can you maybe write tae or jimin falling for oc whos also an idol but they cant really show it to anyone? đ„č
A/N: I will write Tae with a proper secret relationship but for now I present to youâŠâŠ
IDYLLIC
IDOL!JIMIN X IDOL!GN!READER
Synopsis: Jimin has a rule. A code if you will. Under no circumstances will he ever date another idol. He's lived by it for many years. Not once has he ever been close to breaking it. Until he met you that is.
W/C: 2.2k
WARNING: Jimin struggling with his feelings slight angst
REQUESTS: OPEN
It wasn't ideal. In an industry like Jimins you don't have time for relationships. A lot of the time you don't even have the mental energy. There was too much to work around.
You don't want to date a fan. They already have a version of you built up in their head. One that would quickly prove itself untrue.
If you do manage to find someone who doesn't know who you are that too can become a disaster. Paparazzi lurk behind every corner. The whole relationship is forced into secrecy. It could ruin your career, it could ruin your partner's life. It isn't good for a relationship. Most people need more. They want to go out on dates. They want normalcy, not to be hidden deep in a closet like dirty laundry.
There were other idols⊠one look at an idol of the opposite sex and the media would be pumping out articles about a secret love affair. Every week someone would come up to Jimin asking about an idol he hadn't even spoken to.
That was only part of it. Companies would clash. Some companies would push a narrative to try and profit off it.
In the Idol industry, two idols dating was taboo. Some sort of curse that ran rampant through the industry. People would talk behind their backs. Send sympathetic looks to the poor souls that fell victim to it. It was hard as an idol not to fall for another. Idols ended up being around other idols quite a bit. People have needs and when you're surrounded by attractive people it's hard not to go seeking comfort.
Another idol would know what you're going through. They could understand things regular people never could.
But it always ended badly. The media loved it. It was a drama that kept people clicking. So the cameras kept flashing.
So Jimin did the sensible thing. He swore off dating. Of course, every now and then he would find himself in someone's bed. But it never was more than that.
He would risk his and his members career on a scandal. Jimin knew he wouldn't be able to balance a relationship and everything else like Namjoon does. He would slip up when he knew he would. It was easier to just not even try. It was better this way.
For a long time it worked. Jimin managed. He wasn't tempted. He was good.
Until you waltzed into his life. It was at a photoshoot. You were also set to get photographed by the same photographer.
Your shot was before his. As luck would have it, Jimin had arrived early and the staff invited him back.
He had seen you before. Your face was plastered over posters and billboards all across Seoul. None of it could compare to you in real life. None of them, not even the best photos that got the front page of magazines, came close to capturing all of you.
Jimin couldn't tear his eyes away from you as you posed. Your eyes strayed from the camera and settled on him for one brief flickering moment and that's all it took for Jimin to know he was a goner.
Then as if you hadn't even seen him at all your eyes settled back on the camera. Jimin hightailed it out of there and into the break room.
Water. He needed water. That's it, he was probably just dehydrated. Jin was always getting on his case about drinking more water. Something to drink and he would be just fine.
He had just cracked open the bottle and was about to take a sip when he heard you.
âHey it's Jimin right?â
Slowly almost like a scene out of a movie Jimin turned. Only a few feet behind him there you were. Still in all the glam required for the photoshoot, obviously you had just finished. Jimin swallowed dryly, wishing he had drunk the water already. His tongue was sticking to the rook of his mouth. He managed one shaky nod.
âI'm Y/N.â
âI know.â Great, he had finally managed to say something and he sounded like an asshole.
You took it in stride, or maybe you just hadn't noticed
âSorry for making you wait. Had some wardrobe issues so we went a little over time,â You said sheepishly.
Then as if it was the most natural thing in the world you reached around him and grabbed one of the water bottles on the counter.
Instantly your scent surrounded Jimin. His breath hitched before he settled on just holding his breath. This close he could see the rise and fall of your chest with each breath. He could see the smallest crease in your eye makeup, probably from laughing.
You leaned back like nothing had happened at all. Like you hadn't just thrown Jimin's code and way of life out the window. You hadn't noticed a thing at all.
Jimin's photo shoot didn't go as well as they usually did. His mind was elsewhere, his poses a little sloppy as he tried to listen to the staff. But everything just felt like static noise.
Ever since then you seemed to be everywhere. Or maybe Jimin was just now noticing your presence.
You were at every party. Every formal event. Always dressed exquisitely. Always looking perfect. Always distracting him.
The rest of his members took notice. They would cast each other looks every time Jimin's eyes strayed back to you.
Jimin tried his hardest not to think of you. To cast every thought of you from his mind. He would turn off the T.V if you came on screen. He would turn off his phone every time you were trending.
Yet everywhere he went. You were there. When he got seated next to you in a fashion stone all he could do was sit stone still. He listened to you gush about the pieces with your friend and it just made everything ten times worse.
Occasionally you would turn to Jimin and try to make small talk. Everytime you two were in the vicinity of him you tried to talk to him. Maybe you were just being polite but Jimin couldn't help but relish in it.
It was so unnatural for him. Jimin was used to making others flustered, not the other way around. He just had that effect, yet this time all of it was turned around on him.
All of it came to its peak on New Year's eve. Hoseok had insisted on throwing a party. Only certain people were invited. Mostly other Idols the group trusted and some personal friends.
You made an appearance. Something Jungkook who had made the guest list failed to mention.
You were beautifully done up and hanging off the arm of one of your friends. The two of you looked so comfortable together. You fit into that spot so perfectly Jimin started to wonder if the two of you were dating.
The thought made him so uncomfortable that he had to turn away. Jimin just missed the look Jungkook gave him.
Jimin poured himself a drink, the first one of the night.
âYou alright man?â Jungkook asked.
âYeah why?â Jimin took a sip and winced at the sharp taste of alcohol and way to sweet juice. Damn Taehyung and his strange drink concoctions.
âI dunno. Lately you've seemedâŠâ Jungkook paused, not sure how to put it, âStrange. You know you can talk to me right? Any of us?â
He wanted to. So badly. He wanted to ramble endlessly about you. How you always managed to look so perfect. How you helped the staff that one time you spilt a drink. How you always kept a calm composure when something clearly ticked you off. How he thought about you every waking hour.
But he couldn't. They all knew about his code. How he felt about dating, especially dating another idol.
Jimin was afraid that he would agree. They would tell him it wasn't a good idea. Not worth the trouble. And then he wouldn't. Because he respected the options of his members, even if it killed him inside.
Yet he was also afraid they would tell him to stop being stupid. To go for it. That even if it ends horribly at least he had you. Even if it was for a little bit. If they held that opinion⊠Jimin didn't know what he would do.
So he settled on âI'm fine, just stressed about this next album.â
Jimin could tell Jungkook didn't buy it. Not even for a second. Not wanting to be questioned, Jimin slinked off to go find Jin and to avoid you.
He managed well. Jin was in the kitchen over seeing Taehyung's new drink ideas.
You were easy to avoid. Jimin could easily spot your form in the crowd. Pick out your laugh in the cacophony of voices.
Halfway through the party Namjoon came and found him, âHey Min can you go grab the bottle of tequila I left out on the balcony? My hands are kind of full.â
Namjoon gestured with an arm full of coats. Jimin didn't even notice that most of the coats were the groups, which had already been started away in their respective closets.
âOh so it's a tequila kind of party?â Jimin said with a smirk before he pushed himself away from the counter.
He worked his way through the crowd before he reached the glass doors leading out to the balcony. Jimin spotted the bottle, sitting on the patio table. He slipped out to quickly grab it.
But what he failed to notice was you, arms crossed and leaning over the balcony. Gazing up at the stars.
Jimin noticed you only a split second before you turned around.
âOh hey Jimin,â you greeted. It was too late now for him to scamper back into the party.
âHey. What are you doing out here?â
âOh you know. Just needed a break from the party.â
Jimin hummed in acknowledgement.
âCare to join me?â You turned back around to look at the night sky once more.
âWell Namjoon asked me to-â Jimin looked over his shoulder back at the glass doors. What he saw cut his sentence short.
Yoongi was staring at him with a devious little smirk. When their eyes met Yoongi reached forward and turned the lock on the door.
God damn him. Jimin gestured widely at Yoongi, willing him to unlock the door. It's not like he could yell out and demand him to. Not with you standing there.
With a cheeky smile and wave Yoongi slinked off into the crowd. Leaving Jimin stranded on the patio with you.
âDo I bother you?â You asked.
Jimin swung back around so quickly he almost gave himself whiplash. You hadn't turned back around but there was a noticeable tension in your shoulders.
âWhat?â Jimin said bewildered, âNo? What makes you say that?â
âIt just seems like you've made it your life mission to avoid me.â
Jimin was starting to wish he had accepted the third drink Tae tried to shove into his hands. He could really use the extra liquid courage right now.
Damnit. Jimin thought to himself. Get it together. You're a grown man. Jimin Park.
Jimin breathed out a deep breath and came to rest against the railing with you. His eyes focused on the cityscape in front of you two. He couldn't trust himself to look directly at you. He might jump onto you and never let you go.
âI don'tâŠ. Dislike you.â
âWell it sure seems like you do.â You said quietly.
Jimins heart panged. This wasn't what he wanted.
âI'm sorryâŠâ
âListen. I know we don't know each other. And we don't have to. Let's just be civil? It's hard in this industry.â
No no no. This is NOT what he wanted. Not how he planned this to be. Jimin didn't want to be civil, he wanted to be yours.
âI want to⊠know you.â
âYou don't have to spare my feelings Jimin.â
Jimins head whipped around. You still hadn't looked at him. Your jaw was clenched and your bottom lip was quivering as if you were about to cry.
âI'm not! I'm really not, Y/N I-â Jimin took a deep breathe âI like you. I really do.â
You were silent.
âI don't dateâŠâ Jimin said after a moment.
âOhâŠ.JiminâŠI really think I like you too⊠But I don't do hookups.â You said slowly.
âThat's not what I meant⊠I mean usually I don't date. But I can't stop thinking about you. You make me want to throw that rule away and never look back.â
There were some cheers from the party. Then the countdown started.
You turned to face Jimin head on. Your eyes met his for the first time since he came out to the patio.
âThree!â
Jimin swallowed and his eyes flickered down to your lips.
âTwo!â
âJimin. Will you kiss me?â
âOne!â
He pressed his lips to yours as cheers echoed out from the party.
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Requests: OPEN
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WC: 400+
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synopsis: The winter gods are out to get you. That could be the only possible explanation for the series of bad luck tumbling before youâ tropical vacation cancelled, snow locking you inside. Hell, even your shovel broken in half has got to be the gods playing some sort of trick on you. Pulling you along, making decisions for you as they guide you along the red string of fate. Guide you towards the very spider that found his way into your basement. Allowing him to fall into your heart all the same. -> apart of the rest, relax, reserve series
p.jimin x f.reader
âđâ: wc: 20.0k
âđâ: genre: hybrid au, soft yandere, soulmate au, romance, fluff, smut, v light angst
âđâ: content: spider hybrid!jimin (cobalt blue tarantula), human!reader, soft yandere jimin, dom!jimin, power imbalances, blood, blood kink, injury, mates / mating, stupid misunderstandings, reader is rlly bad at feelings, heat/rut cycles, jealousy, biting/marking, jimin has fangs, brat taming, light subspace, bondage, fingering, breeding / breeding kink, unprotected sex, cumplay, overstimulation, manipulation, mentions of kidnapping, mentions of venom, honestly rlly soft- jimin is just a little off his rocker, so many mentions of the word silk, jimin is soft for reader but also a little perverted freak <\3
âđâ: notes: AHHH itâs finally here!!! Iâve had such a bad crush on spider jimin for such a long time. Creating his character over the years in my headâ how exactly this type of hybrid would function was so fun for me. This fic (& the others that follow) has been spurred on by my special interest in arthropods so I hope you end up loving this jimin as much as I do <33 mwah I kiss u guys
18+ -> minors / blank blogs dni
The weather has grown cold, too harsh for anyone to live outsideâ survive. Burly temperatures tumbling through the air in icicles, the entire world painted in white.
While the city was still busy, your quaint neighbourhood had gone completely quiet. Everyone huddled inside, trying to keep warm while they sipped on cocoa. The worst blizzard in generations deciding to tumble through on the exact weekend you were meant to go out of town. Meant to be enjoying a tropical beach with the best of your friends!
But nooo, all of the planes had to stay grounded and you had to be stuck in your house with nothing but chilly embers decorating your fireplace.
You were pissed about it all, to say the least. Annoyed that your vacation had to be cancelled, annoyed at the fact you couldnât stay warm in the slightest, annoyed that you had to be shovelling snow out of your driveway right now.
Well, attempting to shovel snow would be a better way to put it. In theory it seemed like the right thing to doâ try and get your car out just in case, start to clear a path for when youâd finally be able to greet the outside world, triumph over whatever winter gods are trying to keep you locked in your home.
In reality, you could hardly moveâ three layers of pants, two coats keeping all of your joints locked down. God, and the snow. It was coming down way too hard, piling up faster than you could brush it away. Hurting your cheeks with the freezing temperatures, making your bones throb with want to go back inside.
It is safe to say that you did not succeed. That was an easy enough conclusion to come to with the two halves of your snow shovel in your hands. Eyes staring blankly at the object with utter⊠you donât even know the word.
Cheeks flushed red with cold, head lifting to the sky as you blink. What the fuck! How shitty can your shovel be! What the fuck is wrong with the snow!
Okay, maybe you did buy it at the dollar store. But that isnât the point! Where has quality gone in our nation! Caring about the consumer! Yeah, that was never there to begin with! But still! You like to think that there's a point in that somewhere!
The snow falling on your skin feels like the sky is laughing at you, mocking you. It probably is. Cancelling your trip, forcing you to stay at home into the lonely confines of your small neighbourhood.
Yeah, the world is out to get you, youâve decided it.
A grumble leaves your throat in annoyance, quiet cusses leaving your lips as your legs try to waddle themselves inside. Layers of clothing restricting every movement you make, joints feeling stiff and bones feeling cold. You are no more than a penguin, are you?
âStupid fuckinâ shovel, stupid fuckinâ snowâŠâ You huff, slamming the thick oak door behind you. Hoping, in a way, that you could pretend none of the frost was there in the first place.
Itâs not that you hate snowâ of course not. You donât like to hate much of anything. But when itâs this deep, this thick, you canât help the sour mood you fall into. Canât help the sickly feeling in your gut that it has somehow wronged you simply for existing.
Whatever, not that it matters much. You arenât mother nature. You canât change it or your now cancelledâ most likely non-refundable plans.
What you can change? A nice warm pizza in your tummy.
You hum to yourself, tapping off your boots before ridding yourself of them entirely. Soon follows your jackets, puddles of water quickly forming on the floor where it falls. Snow melting much too fast now that it is in the warmth of your home.
You stare at it in spite, another way mother nature has wronged you today.
You know what? No, not your problem right now. That is a problem for you later today! The wood would be fine. And if it isnât?
âŠ
You groan, throwing your head back as you move to the bathroom. The battle of opposing forces inside of your head has won againâ being responsible, doing the right thing.
Your hand snatches a towel, âStupid shovel⊠stupid snowâŠâ You huff, kneeling on the ground to wipe away the liquid that pooled.
You hang the towel back in the bathroom for it to dry before finally making your way to the kitchen. To finally make the frozen pizza you wantâ no deserve! Yeah, youâve had a hard day today, being an adult is too hard sometimes. You deserve a little treat don't you?
Feet scuffling against the floor, fluffy socks dragging along the surface allowing you to quickly slip against the tiled floor. Your hips sway, a quiet hum leaving your lips as your hands move diligently, efficiently. Placing the pizza in the oven, setting the timer, flipping the switch on on the kettle.
Everything happens with practised ease. With movements that leave no room for error. Careful, efficient, the way your parents always taught you. The right way.
If you do everything correctly, things will never go wrong. Youâll never have to worry. When everything is in your control, everything is perfect and content.
Itâs too bad the right way never accounts for things out of your control. When the world causes you to tense and get annoyedâ when it doesnât behave the way it's supposed to, like you want it to. Just like stupid shovels and a winter storm no one predicted.
But hey, at least you still have power. Your backup generator is there if you need it. Can still watch your dramas and eat warm food. Keep yourself sane while the insane persits just outside of your door.
Lonely, lonely, lonely winter storm~ whatever shall you do~
Your head begins to sing to itself while you wait. Maybe you already were going insaâ
Bang.
What the fuck was that?
Your eyes instantly dart to the basement door wide with fearâ the source of the sound.
A crash, a quiet cry, a scurry all sound in quick succession. Too loud to miss. Too loud to ignore. Too distinct to place on anything else.
You know winter noises. The crash of shutters against the window, the influx of snow on glass. The beating of hail against the roof or the creaking of pipes chilled from the cold. The noises you just heard? None of the above. They couldnât possibly be. They werenât. They were too⊠tooâŠ
Human.
Shit, shit. Is someone in your basement?! Oh god, oh fuck.
The room, it freezes over.
Your pulse starts to raceâ hairs raise, stand on end. Breath filtering through your nose as you start to panic. Fingers grip the countertop as you try to ground yourself. Try to figure out a way to escape this.
If horror movies have taught you anythingâ itâs how to run. Grab everything you can, high tail it out before you become victim to the unknown lurking just below the surface of your floorboards. Before you can be possessed or worse, chased down by some mass murdering clown.
That would be the smart thing to doâ the wise thing. To get out of your house as quickly as possible, call the police to investigate it for you before you have to become the âfinal girlâ of a movie franchise of your own.
But the storm, the storm would never allow for the right thing.
The police would never make it in time, the roads far too hazardous to truly reach you. If they did, you would already have frostbite from the cold outside by the time they made it. You might be worse off than beforeâ
At least, thatâs what you tell yourself. The reasoning formulated in your head as you grab a broom from the closet, slowly make your way to the basement door. Completely ignoring the nagging feeling in your gut, the one that tells you that you actually want to travel down the stairs. A string tugging you along a path predetermined, forcing you to forego anything you had thought before.
No, your line of reasoning had to be the object pulling you down those stairs, creaking with every slow, nagging step that you take. It could never be curiosity, a want to understand the unknown guide leading you astray from the dirt road youâve taken time and time again.
The right road that would lead to the right solution is all but forgotten in this moment. Only adrenaline spurring you on, fingers clenching and unclenching around the broom handle in your grip. Fingers tied so tight around the metal that your knuckles may as well be white.
You're terrifiedâ scared out of your mind. The only noise passing through the drums of your ears is your own pulse, the accelerated beat of your heart as you try to clear the fog that dances over your brain. Fear must be clouding your judgement, making you follow it blindly into the light; well, dark.
Your breath leaps from your chest in short pants, eyes haphazardly harding around your form as you make it to the bottom of the stairs. Something is keeping your legs moving when all your brain wants to do is turn back and run. Call the authorities like you should be doing instead of risking everything to satiate the incessant need pulling at the back of your skull. Acting on instincts alone, allowing the string of fate to tug you around the corner. The urge to investigate is stronger than anything you had ever felt before. Anything youâve ever wanted to feel before.
He sees you before you see him.
âP-please..â The quiet, almost non-existent voice sends a chill down your spine. One you were not expecting in the slightest.
Terrified, panicked. Shaking like a leaf, eyes welled with tears. Itâs almost like he knew you were coming down all along, just⊠didnât know what to do about it. Too scared to move, too scared to hide. Too scared to do anything but sit there and wait.
Just as petrified as you.
Nothing about the scene before you is making much sense at all. Not to you, at least. Why is he so scared? Why is he in your home? Why isnât he doing anything but sitting there with pleading, helpless eyes? You try to take everything in, try to fit the pieces of the picture together.
Basement window opened slightly, just enough to allow the manâ was he a man? To climb inside. Pretty blonde hair completely dishevelled on his head, grime coating what you know would be such pretty locks. Eyes with double pupils brimmed with tears threatening to spill at any second. Pink plush lips quivering with worry, fangs biting into them so hard you fear they may bleed. No, they are bleeding.
He is definitely not a man. Nor is he a beast. An intoxicating swirl of the two combined into a species of hybrid youâve never seen before.
The first thought in your head is one it shouldnât be. One that makes your heart stop for entirely different reasons than before. Makes you drop the broom in your hands, allowing it to fall to the ground with a clatter. Defences dropped completely in the face of the stranger before you.
He only flinches at the noise, blood covered hands reaching in panic to cover his all too sensitive ears.
Any worries have left youâ something seeded deep within your soul tells you he isnât a threat in the slightest. Not to you, at least. Never to you. Maybe it is the same string as before pulling you along. Pulling you to what destiny has provided.
He is absolutely gorgeous. Even with the grime and his pale complexion from the cold you can tell that easily. He might just be the prettiest thing youâve ever seen, and you find lost in yourself what to do about it.
What is anyone meant to do when a drop dead gorgeous hybrid enters their home in the middle of a blizzard? Just as scared as you were moments before? Looking like he might freeze to death if you donâtâ
Holy shit he must be frozen solid.
Itâs only then that you come to your senses, your eyes racking over him once more as you take in all of him for more than just the beauty he brings.
His clothes are thinâ far too thin for this weather at least. Tattered on the edges, few stains spotting the fabric, though its clear effort was spent trying to get them out. Your mind wants to wonder why he would worry about that, worry about making himself appear presentable, but raking your vision down you know there is no time for it. Not with the blood on his palms or the red of his flesh.
Your body moves quicker than your brain can think, crouching down in front of him. Noticing the way he flinches once more, the fear in his eyes more palpable, hurting worse than a gunshot wound.
The constriction of your chest is dumb, or at least it should be. Feels almost benign, unfounded. You just met him, you're scaring him, but for an unexplainable reason you wish you could take all of his worry away just for that moment. Make him feel a little better, a little warm. A little safe.
âItâs okay⊠itâs okayâŠâ Your voice mumbles, trying to soothe him or yourself, youâre not entirely sure.
âI-Iâm sorry⊠pl-please donât.. Itâs just so cold⊠PleaseâŠâ He begs, though neither of you are sure what for. Not to hurt him, not to send him back outside. All you know is the tears that now flow from his eyes, cresting along his cheeks, dripping to the floor.
âNot going anywhereâŠâ You hope your voice sounds stronger than you feel, hope he canât hear the way the strings of your heart break, hope he hears how much you care in your tone all along, âTrust me a little okayâŠ?â
You know your words mean nothing, that it might have been an impossible task for him to do so. But you had to try. Had to hope.
It should be hard for you to trust him too, it should be hard to rectify your fear in the face of the one who had caused it. It isnât the right thingâ none of this is the right thing, but it all just comes too easily. Compassion, caring takes over the anxiety too easily. Too brilliantly to do anything else other than care for this hybrid that has wound up at your door.
He was just a scared hybrid doing whatever he needed to to survive. Terrified out of his mind that he would freeze or starve out thereâ probably had no burrow or⊠youâre not sure, honestly, what his home might be like. But no home nevertheless. You could never just send another person out there to die.
He stiffens as you reach out for him, gently take his hands in your own. They feel like ice, frozen solid. You don't want to acknowledge what could have happened to them if he was out there any longer.
Without thinking you raise them to your lips, blowing on them as best you can. Trying to do anything to get the blood flowing again before you take him upstairs. Warm him up properly. Make him feel like more than a snowman once again.
You donât notice the way his form completely loses all stress as you touch him for the first time, speak to him the first time. He feels transfixed on your voiceâ it had to be too sweet to be real. But you were too focused on your mission. Too focused on making sure the man who has broken into your home is okay to notice the way his lips part slightly at your tone.
You donât notice the way his breath hitches, the way all of his hair stands on edge as a current runs through his body, breathing life into every pore he possesses. Nor the way his eyes widen, losing their will to cry as he stares at you.
Donât notice the recognition on his face.
You donât notice a lot of things he does that day. Too focused on getting him into a warm showerâ one he was very confused by, you might add. Too focused on getting a warm meal in his belly. Too focused on getting him in nice, clean clothes. A set that will properly keep him warm.
You could worry about other things later. But this felt right. This felt like something you were always meant to do. Or maybe that was just the size of your heart talkingâ you could never be too sure. But you liked to think it was the former. Liked to hope that Jimin, who you later learned was a spider hybrid, was always meant to come tumbling through your window, into your life for good.
The days that follow are easyâ falling into a rhythm with him, taking care of him is just too simple. As basic as breathing, maybe.
Though, it hasnât exactly been hard with how much he sleeps. How deep heâs nestled in your bed, blankets piled on top of him to drown out any chills that may attempt to slip into his bones. Itâs almost like hibernationâ if you could describe it. Re-building his energy, making himself feel strong again before he faces the world.
You canât blame him, honestly. Not after everything heâs been through. Only god knows how long he had been out there. How long he had to brave the snowstorm, the cold weather that previewed it as well. You would probably do the same thing. Hide yourself from everything that hurt you.
Most days you wish you could be doing the exact same thing as him. Hide under a pile of blankets and forget the rest of the world exists. But the voice of your parents would always nag you out of it, force you to be human with the rest of society because it's the right thing.
You humph, gently placing a plate of food on the bedside table. Let him occupy your room for as long as he needs, preparing meals for him even though he never touches a bit of it. Itâs the least you can do with his condition.
You donât think youâve ever wanted to stop someone's pain so badly. You hope you can by just doing small things like this. You sigh, heading for the door once again. Another day on the couch.
âHumanâŠ?â His voice is quiet, almost non-existent as he calls for you. Cracking slightly, the first time he's spoken in days.
You quickly turn to face him and almost want to fall to your knees at the sight. Fluffy blonde hair peeking from just below the covers, doll eyes peering at you while the rest of him stays hidden beneath the surface. Does he know how destructive he is?
Wait, no. Now isnât the time to be thinking about this. Heâs letting his defences down, actually talking to you. Stop it.
âHmm?â You gently call back, glued to your spot in the doorway. You donât know what he would do if you moved, how startled he may be because of it. You want to talk to himâ to find answers.
âWhat time is itâŠ?â He slowly asks, pacing his question. You notice a slight lisp behind his wordsâ how much of an effort he puts to cover it up.
âMmm.. about 1? I made myself some lunch so I was just stopping by.â You explain, trying to justify your presence in the room.
âOh.â He looks beneath the blankets, eyes darting around the room, âOkay. Thank you.â
It seems neither of you are great conversationalists, awkward air passing between the space left between your bodies. You donât blame him. You donât know what you would be thinking, feeling if you were in the same place as him. If you didnât really know what your fate was going to be.
âHow are you feeling?â You ask quietly, playing with your fingers to distract from the nerves that you feel. As much as you want to jump, pin him down and ask every single thing your heart begs for, you know that isn't the right thing to do. You know you should be slow, careful with this. At least, that's what the articles online have told you.
âBetterâŠâ His voice comes out smoother this time, finally coming out of sleep as he sits up in the bed. Gently taking the plate into his lap, scrunching his nose. âItâs not cold in here like out there.â
You canât help but smile to yourself. He seems so relaxed, so at ease. Not scared in the slightest of you or what you may do. You forget all about the fact that you should probably be scared of him too.
âNot really,â You smile gently, eyes glancing at the window as he starts to eat, âI was really worried about you, scared me bad.â
You donât see the flush that covers his cheeks.
âI-Iâm really sorry, I didnât mean to⊠your window was the first one I could get through and I knew I couldnât take the storm anymore so Iââ
âHey, Itâs fine.â You turn your attention back to him, âIâm just glad youâre okay, yeah? It mustâve been terrifying out there.â
âIt was.â He doesnât hesitate in answering in the slightest, eyes serious as they focus on you. Theyâre beautiful, really. His eyes.
âIâm sorryâŠâ
He shakes his head, âNot your fault human, I left the reserve. My fault.â He tells you in earnest, wanting you to believe it with every piece of your soul that you could never do anything to hurt him, âCome sit?â
The question is quiet, but you oblige nonetheless. Legs moving you slowly, perching at the end of the bed to face him. Kicking your legs slightly as you stare at the pattern of your sweats.
âThe reserve?â You ask, turning slightly to face him. His face is suddenly smiling, nodding at your question. He must like the place a lot, see it as home for him to become so excited.
âYeah! Where I live,â He explains, continuing to shovel food into his mouth as he speaks, âThey say humans can't hurt you there, you get to hunt like in the wild too.â
He hums, content in talking about the one place he has ever found comfort in, found friends in. You canât help but smile as he speaks, too.
âYeah? It sounds really nice.â Heâs nodding his head once again, as quickly as he can.
âThere are lots of other arthropods to play with there. Lotâs of food. Sometimes the humans that visit will give you some too, but theyâre normally scared of me.â He suddenly looks serious, eyes coming to meet yours once again, âYouâre not scared of me, right?â
You jerk your head back, brows furrowing together in confusion. How could someone be scared of someone like Jimin? Youâve only known him for a matter of days and you doubt that you could ever be.
âOf course not.â You tell him, gently reaching a hand over to place on his knee. He doesnât flinch away like you expect him to. âYou just needed some help, we all need help sometimes.â
He smiles, the serious demeanour retracting from his face in an instant. Back to smiling down at his food happily. The silence doesnât feel as awkward anymore, at least you don't think it does. It makes you happy, stretching on as he continues to eat like a man starved. He probably is, days of not eating and only sleeping.
âWhy did you leave it?â You tilt your head, staring out the window once more. Few snowflakes trickle against the blue sky, âI mean, you donât have to tell me if you donât want to. But I figure if weâre going to be together through the stormââ
âYouâre not gonna kick me out?â His face is awestruck, fork dropping to the plate in surprise. What is he talking about? Kick him out? In this weather?
You quickly shake your head, hand slowly pulling itself back from your knee. He whines in protest, quickly trying to force himself back under your heat. The touch of your hand warmed him up more than anything else in this roomâ more than the blankets, more than the heater or the warm towels.
His hand tangles itself with your own, pulls you back to his covered knee. Keeps your hand in place with his own while he uses the other to eat. Good. This is better. He likes it when you touch him. The way your small hand feels wrapped in his own.
Makes the tips of his fingers tingle, warmth spread throughout his skin. This is right. This is good.
âWhy would I kick you out?â You ask in disbelief, either unnoticing or uncaring to the way he holds your handâ heâs unsure. Not that it matters much! âItâs too cold for anyone out there. I wouldnât want anything bad to happen to you.â
He smiles, the pit of his stomach only warming more at your words, âGood.â
âWe have to wait for the snow to melt to drive you baââ He cuts you off once again, not wanting to think about going back. At least not without you.
âMy friend Taehyung leaves a lot,â He begins to explain, fingers squeezing your own as his palm lays heavy against the back of your hand, âHe always talks about how fun it is. All the cool things he gets to see, you know?â
He places his plate to the side while he talks, licking one of his fangs gently. You donât want to think about how handsome he looks while he does such an action.
âSo I wanted to try it out, but weâre not really supposed to leave, you know? âCause then weâre not protected.â You nod along, âAnd I donât really have wings to fly out so⊠I had to wait until they werenât really paying attention.â
âAnd that just happened to line up right before the snowstorm was supposed to hit.â You finish for him and he nods, looking down at his lap, âThat has gotta be such shitty luck, Jimin. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs okay.â
âItâs really not, you just wanted to go out and experience new things and you almost ended up dead.â You frown at him, trying to get the man to understand the gravity of what may have happened. He simply shakes his head, plush lips tilted into a small smile just for you.
âI said itâs okay.â He tries to make you believe it, leaning closer. Feeling nothing like the stranger he was only days before. âI got to meet you, so it was all worth it.â
Mate. Mate. Mate.
Jimin has a mate that heâs going to be with someday. Someone heâs going to fall in love with. Someone heâs meant to be with, be happy with for the rest of his life. Someone that isnât you. You really need to accept that and move on from this stupid fucking crush youâve developed. One that will amount to nothing but heartbreak.
All hybrids have themâ Jimin is not excluded from that. You know itâs true. Know itâs so true that you can hardly breathe but he just makes it so easy, too fucking easy to fall for him.
He takes care of the house, cleans it for you whenever there is a mess. Does the dishes after dinner. Takes out the trash. Tells the spiders in the yard not to mess with youâ okay, youâre not entirely sure he does that last one. But he is adamant he can speak to them, and who are you to rain on his little spidey parade.
As the seasons change and the months pass, he only makes it easier and easier. Fitting into your life like he was the only piece missing. Filling in all of the bits and pieces you never knew you needed, wrapping silk around your heart and pulling it tight before you could ever think about letting him go.
Even as the months heat and his deep blue roots grow out from his bleached hair, he has no desire to the place he once called home. The reserve quickly pushed aside every time you try to bring it up. Saying he likes it better here, that this is now his home.
To be honest, nothing makes you more happy. Nothing in the world could possibly make you feel better than Jimin. His little webs he places in the corners, the soft way he clings to you when he becomes needy, the way he likes to show you any bugs he catches before he eats them. Youâre not sure you could continue in your life without it.
Yet still, still. Youâre not sure if this is right. The right thing, the right way to go about it all.
You often fear that youâre keeping him from what he really wants, if he actually wants to go back but feels indebted to you in some way. If thatâs the only reason he actually sticks around.
You worry youâre being selfish in that regard. And then once again you find yourself spiralling into the void of questions you could never have answered. Feelings that will always be unaccounted for because Jimin has a mate.
Or at least, will have one. Someday. And youâre not sure if you could handle that day coming. Not in the warm heat of spring, flowers blooming alongside feelings for an arachnid that has entered your life.
One that has no intention of leaving your side anytime soon, if he has anything to say about it.
But nothing, nothing in the world could prepare you for this. What could prepare the thrum of your heart or the butterflies in your tummy? You never expected him to hold you this close, keep your body pressed against his own in the small space of the coat closet. Keep his face tucked away in your neck, whining in pain at something you could never think to discern.
So quickly you were pulled away, without a second to waste you were dragged onto his lap. One second kicking off your shoes, covered in mud from gardening, the next a hand wrapped around your wrist, pulling you into the dark confines. Only Jimin there to cover up your scream, lips delicately pressed to your ear uttering a quiet please. Voiced laced with a whine so pained you couldnât help but join him without a second to spare.
A thought to thinkâ a debate on whether this is right to do or not, for yourself and your own heart.
âMin? Min, whatâs wrong?â Itâs the only thing you can think to ask, pulling him away from your neck, making his head face your own. Hands gently cupping either cheek as your eyes attempt to make out the features of his face.
Itâs too dark, you canât see anything. The only answer he gives is in the form of a pained groan, not even his eyes reaching you through the darkness. You start to panic, feel the nerves along your spine light up in trepidation.
Heâs hurt. He has to be. What happened? Is he okay? Heâs never acted like this before. Not with you. Never before has he seemed so hurt, so dishevelled save for the night you first met him.
Just before this the two of you were gardening, mid-morning sun shining bright overhead. A light breeze passing through the trees keeping the two of you cool. That was it! He only went inside a few minutes before you, a few minutes alone and he was already hurt this bad.
Oh god, you never want him to hurt. To be in pain. It hurts your heart just as bad as it hurts him, if not worse.
Youâve fallen a lot farther than you thought.
âMin, let me just turn on the lights okay? Let me see whatâs wrong.â You try to coax him, try to kneel from his lap to reach the string above you. Panic flooding through you as he keeps you snug, keeps you from helping him.
You stop your struggle, veins running cold as he lets out a sharp, violent hiss. A sound heâs never made before, never dare uttered towards youâ around you in general. It leaves you nervous, scared for entirely different reasons than before.
But one thing is clear from the way his fingers dig into the skin of your wrist almost painfully. The same wrist that was reaching for the string. He doesnât want you to turn on the light.
âOkayâŠokay I wonâtâŠâ You tell the arachnid, slowly lowering yourself back onto his lap. Letting go of the struggle, letting go of the resistance. It isnât what he needs right now, isnât what he wants.
His grip loosens, arms returning to their place around your waist. Holding you close. Keeping you in his arms. His face nuzzles back into your neck, inhaling deeply with every breath he takes. Smelling you. Imprinting the memory of it in his brain.
âWhat if I use my flashlightâŠ? Would that be okay?â Once again, the response is a much short, quieter hiss. A lot less defensive, angry than the first. Just a sign of dismissal.
âOkayâŠâ You say quietly, bringing one arm behind him to gently run through his hair. Scratching his scalp in a way that always has him preening, âCan you please tell me what's wrong? So I can helpâŠ? PleaseâŠâ
Your voice is quiet, almost a beg as you ask him. He squeezes your body tighter in response. Wouldâve basked in the tone you gave him if not for the pounding behind his eyelids. Still, he knows if heâs going to get you to stay, he has to talk. No matter how much it hurts.
A whine leaves his lips, nose running along the column of your neck as he tries to scent you, âHurts.â
He answered, his voice shaky and quiet, but it gives you nothing.
âI know Min, I knowâŠâ You hush quietly, trying to consol something that you do not have the answer to. Your other hand slowly starts to soothe up and down his back, trying to relax the poor boy enough to speak.
âThe light. Hurt eyes. Head Hurts.â He gruffs out, burying his face into your skin to block out any other source that he could.
Your lips part in a soft âoâ as the picture becomes clear to you. Staying outside too long, helping you in the garden had come at a cost to the poor spider in the form of a splitting headache.
How could you have been so dumb to let him help you? The articles youâve read, the pieces youâve tried to put together to understand the man in your lifeâ they told you as much. How delicate some species' eyes could be but⊠Jimin never seemed to have that issue before. Never mentioned it, anyway. He doesnât mention a lot about himself.
You frown.
âMin, Iâm so sorryâŠâ
He only grumbles in reply, blunt nails digging into the back of your shirt to keep himself grounded. To keep his head from pounding any louder.
âLet meâ Let me go get you some Ibuprofen, yeah?â You hope the sound of your voice isnât making everything worse. If it does, he doesnât say anything, only shaking his head, burrowing it further under your hair.
âJust⊠stay.â He sighs in defeat, shoulders relaxing as he holds you close. He doesnât need medicine. He doesnât need anything else. He just needs you. Why canât you understand that?
âIâllââ You breathe, trying to force the flush of your cheeks to disappear. He can see in the dark, you know that much. You wouldnât want him seeing this. The effect he has over you. Doesnât he know how dangerous he is?
âIâll stay.âYou sigh in defeat, unaware to the pride that blooms in his chest at the battle won. The quiet chirp from his throat that he has you here, with him. Where youâre meant to be.
Hours pass just like that, just the two of you wrapped in each other's arms. No words spoken but quiet requests to know the other is okay. That the other is safe. Even as your muscles begin to cramp, bones start to become sore you donât dare to move. Donât dare to do a thing when you are the only one that matters to him right now.
Jimin makes it so easy to pretend.
Especially as his migraine begins to lift, as the conversation between two souls becomes more frequent. As he moves your body to the side so your head can rest against his chest. As his fingers smoothe over the skin of your thigh, rubbing gentle, comforting circles into your flesh.
âAnd then Namjoon, you know how bad a flyer he is, ran straight into the director of the park. Made her spill her whole coffee all over.â He smiles to himself as he tells the story of the bee hybrid, eyes heavy as he looks down at your form. So cute and small, âand you know what he said?â
You shake your head, âwhat?â
ââYou need some honey?ââ He recites, dipping his voice in a deeper octave to mimic what you can only assume to be Namjoonâs. His voice falling into quiet giggles, you quickly follow suit. Laughing at stories of friends, feeling at home in the dark closet.
You donât care how long the two of you have been in there. Only that he isnât in pain anymore.
âIâm glad youâre okay now.â You tell him, eyes feeling heavy, the soothing tremor of his voice vibrating in his chest making your head start to fog. Inklings of sleep slipping into your frame. Head lulling back against him, looking up at him with sleepy eyes.
He nods, his throat constricting at just how perfect you look there, fingers teetering on the brink of digging into your skin once more. âFeeling a lot better⊠my vision is still a little spotty but it's okay.â
You pout. He has to hold back a coo. Too cute. Do you even know how cute you are when you get like this? Probably not.
âNo, itâs not okay. I should have known. Told you to go back inside so you donât get hurt. I donât like it when you get hurt.â
His heart pounds once, twice before he releases a shaky exhale. Do you know what you do to him when you talk like that? When you show him just how much you care?
The level of restraint he has, it has to be impressive. If he was Taehyung, he would have taken you right there. Wrapped your arms in webs so you couldnât move. Mate you without a second thought.
Seriously, what did you think you were doing? Talking to him like that? Making him feel like heâs going insane, a few short strings from breaking free and just taking you to his nest. Keeping you there.
You canât say things like that to him. Not with how innocent you look, with how terribly he already wants you.
A harsh breath comes out of his nose as he forces the thoughts away. Heâs not Taehyung. Heâs not going to take you for his own selfish desires alone. No, heâs going to keep lulling you into his web like he knows you want. Knows you need. Keep being a good little spider for you.
âI should have told you.â He says quietly, lips coming down to place a gentle kiss on your forehead, âCouldnât have known my species is sensitive like that.â
You hum in quiet annoyance, âStill⊠read online about some glasses that can help some insects manage light⊠should have bought them.â
A courting gift? No no, you donât know what that is. No matter what his spider screams he knows that isnât true.
He sighs, he needs a distraction. Something to calm the voice in his head screaming at him to kiss you.
Your leg kicks out gently as he starts, feeling like nothing but a feather tickling across your skin. Gentle silks laying across the surface from his wrists, spinnerets hard at work to produce the webbing he places on your thigh.
He huffs quietly, a smirk of a laugh coming out as he moves your leg back, âTickles?â He asks, an amused lilt present in his voice. Oh god, heâs going to start teasing you again. He loves teasing you.
âWhat are you doing?â You ask quietly, eyes glancing down to where his fingers move expertly. Thread after thread moving through his fingers, decorating your skin as he draws pictures. Paints flowers, sunsets, anything he can think of really across the canvas of your thigh.
âJust drawing⊠calms me down.â Marking you, claiming you. Showing every other arthropod that this one is his, this one is Jiminsâ. Well, at least for the next 3 days when the stick wears off. âDo you want me to stop?â
A tingle runs through your spine as he works, eyes not able to leave his hands for even a second. Your stomach swarms with what has to be a hive of bees, your core bubbling with something you donât want to describe or think about.
You just hope he canât smell you. Canât hear the race of your heart, the increase in breath. The flush on your cheeks that travels all the way to your ears.
He can.
âN-no⊠Itâs okay. I want you to feel better so⊠do what you need to do.â You mumble, trying to get your feelings to calm down before you fully lose it.
You have to buy those glasses.
Being a spider is just too difficult!
At least thatâs what Jimin has told you time and time again over the past 8 months youâve spent with him. Cold, icy months blossoming into the summer heat with him by your side. With him making residence in your home, cementing his place in your life without any regards for going back to his original home.
Itâs too hard for him out there anyway! People at the park think youâre scary so they wonât give you any snacks, security removes your webs when they become too prominent around the landscape. Something about having to âgive other spiders a chanceâ and them âtaking up too much space.â
Can you believe them?! All the time and effort he put into his pretty webs, gone in a flash! The strain the sun caused his eyes, the pounding headaches he endured stringing up pieces of silk along the trees, creating a beautiful orchestra of white to claim his territory.
Thank god he doesnât have to deal with that anymore, at least. Ever since you bought him those sunglasses, making webs outside has never been easier. Catching prey so much easier than ever before.
You donât think youâll ever get used to the sight of him eating the bugs he catches, but who are you to yuck his yum? You know all of the things heâs had to endure as a spider. Everything heâs convinced the world hates him for simply based on his breed alone. The least you can do is show kindness around his diet.
Thatâs how you end up rubbing his back in soothing circles time and time again, fangs piercing a stuffed animal or piece of fruitâ anything he can get his hands on really, as he whines, flinches as he spits out all of his venom.
His venom is one of the worst things heâs had to deal with, youâve learned. It builds up behind his teeth, waiting to be used on a waiting victim when there is no such thing. No exit point for the liquid to flow.
His fangs begin to ache, begging to pierce something just to release all of the pent up tension in his gums. It hurts too bad, too much to just keep it inside. So once a month, you find yourself in the same position, trying to help him relieve the aggression with soothing, gentle words as he spits the venom out in a way you can only imagine is unsatisfying. Leaving his fangs sensitive and achy for days to come.
In general, his fangs seem to be a point of special contention within the hybrid. Theyâre too pointy, cause too many issues. The extended canines digging into his plush lower lip just a little too hard making every movement just a little too uncomfortable. God, and he has to worry about brushing them to perfectionâ keep them pretty for his mate.
At least, thatâs what he tells you.
The rest of the world hurts him. You donât.
Today especially. At least that's what you can assume by the stretch of his arms, the whine bubbling from the back of his throat. His arms reaching for your form, beckoning you, calling you to join him on the couch. All worked up, acting like a wounded puppy that needs nursing just to get your attention.
It always works. Always will.
Some would say heâs become more pushyâ more desperate for your attention, forcing it from your grasp without realizing it yourself. Thatâs what your friends have told you. How easily you fit into the palm of his hand with no more than a simple gesture coaxing you forward into his sweet embrace, never noticing the glares he sends others who enter your home.
No, you would deny all of it. Listen when he tells you that you donât need your friends anyway. It just feels so good to be needed by him, wanted by him in a way you can never have him. In whatever way heâs willing to give.
r weakness than ever before. No matter how much youâve tried to avoid it, how much youâve tried to do the right thing and shove the stupid, pesky feelings down, heâs managed to twist himself into the confines of your heart. Filling a deep hole inside with his pretty silks and crooked little teeth. Takes up a lot more space then youâd ever be willing to admit. Not to him, anyway. Not when he could find his mate any day now.
Youâve been thinking about it more and more latelyâ the prospect of his mate. Itâs difficult not to when he treats you so kindly. When he creeps in your bed at night to cold you, when he reaches out for your comfort alone. When he graces your neck with his fangs his lipsâ
You drop the dishes back in the sink, shoving your thoughts back into the deep dark recesses of your mind. Maybe if you can be his comfort for now, that will be enough. Even if it isnât right.
Maybe thatâs just how far youâve fallen, how much heâs tangled you in his embrace. Not that it matters much, you smile all the same. Abandoning your task on only his third whine and fourth dramatic roll of the night. Giving in is so easy when itâs him.
But! Itâs a new record for how long youâve held out! Even got two stomps out of him. You should be proud of yourself.
Maybe you are, though it's for different reasons entirely as Jimin grabs at your wrists, pulling you down beside him. Nudging his face into the crook of your neck with a quiet, pained whine.
You like to ignore those other reasons. Theyâll only hurt more if you face them head on. But it's hard to, so hard when heâs this close. When heâs holding you like you may just be the very thing from shattering his world apart.
Or maybe youâre over thinking things.
Yeah. Itâs probably that.
âY/nâŠâ You feel his lips ghost your neck as he whines, wiggling slightly in discomfort.
His duality is always impressive, has been making your brain go a little haywire since he first moved in, since he became more comfortable in your presence. Letting you see him for what he really is. Always playing so cute, so pliant when he needs somethingâ attention, food, for you to just give in and give him what he wants.
Other times he acts as if he could be the reincarnation of Arachne herself. Beautiful, deceptive. Terrifyingly aware of how attractive he is to the human eye. You think he does it on purpose. Likes to see your head spin as you try to keep up with which apparition of Jimin you will experience that day.
He doesnât know how dangerous it can be, especially for you. How easy it can be to believe that it's real and not just the flirt of his personality. At least you have cute Jimin for now. Itâs a little easier to manage.
âYou okay Minnie? Something happen?â Your arm reaches up for where he clings to it, fingers gently petting through his fluffy blonde hair. The action seems to soothe him, make him almost pur from the feeling of your fingers alone. Make him feel the slightest bit better from whatever might be irritating him.
He forces his wrists onto your lap, nuzzles his face further into your neck. Inhale all the scents you have to offer. Let you see the issue of spiders.
The tiny holes of his spinnerets come into view, red and inflamed. Shit. They have to be hurting. The skin jutting out slightly more than it should be. Pretty strings of silk hanging in a messy manner. Clogged glands always hurt. Always make for issues.
You frown at the sight, delicately taking his wrist into your hand, looking at it closer. No, not too bad you have to take him to the doctor⊠you can handle it fine. But it wonât feel good, it never does. Dummy mustâve gotten too excited while webbing up the basement again, got his poor spinnerets working too hard. Overproducing silk to the point it has nowhere to go.
âMin!â You whine, already grabbing a pair of tweezers from the side-tableâ youâve learned itâs always good to have a pair on-hand. âI told you that you gotta be more careful!â
âI know!â He hisses almost pathetically, âJust got ahead of myself!â
His voice is no more than a grumble, turning his head away from you yet not pulling away in the slightest. Pretending he hates when you scold him, when you show just how much you care about him.
You pretend it isnât cute in much the same way.
âAlways end up getting ahead of yourself,â You sigh dramatically, acting as if having to take care of the arachnid bothers you more than it actually does. Truth be told, you donât care in the slightest. Who knows, maybe it even makes you preen in delight.
Feeling wanted as your fingers try to be as gentle as possible while removing the silk. Pulling out the little pieces strand by strand, work out the knot it's made under the skin to try and bring him some relief.
Though, no matter how careful you may be, he still flinches in pain all the same. Trying to cover it up like it was nothing, like every poke and prod doesnât hurt. Like he can be tough under your gentle hands and pained gaze. He knows it has to be done and no matter how much you hate to see him in pain, you do too.
The dull ache will grow worse and worse, could even turn into an infection if you don't handle it as fast as possible. Worst case? He may have to have his spinnerets removed completely. A fate that feels worse than death to a spider hybridâ or so youâve read at least.
Soon after he came into your life you did everything in your power to learn as much about his species as possible. Scoured webpage upon webpage, blog post on blog post, youtube video after youtube video. Even went down the sticky threads of a reddit rabbithole to try and learn everything about him.
The only thing you found: how horrible arthropod hybrids are treated in your society. Either sold at auction for absurd prices or cast aside completely depending on how âinhumanâ they look. How they are used as tools to show wealth or are discarded from the rest of the world completely. The notion alone had pissed you off to no end.
Jimin was a member of the latter groupâ or at least thatâs what you assumed. From behind no one would be able to tell he was any less than human. His lack of multiple limbs or fluttering wings left him to the devices of the reserve. Probably cast aside, dropped off by the people that raised him for not providing anything that went along with their definition of âvalueâ.
Your eyes pinch into a quiet glare. Theyâre just fucking stupid. Anyone could see that Jimin is perfect. Anyone could see that he did not deserve the treatment he's received, nor deserved to be in the state he was in when you first found him.
And while youâre glad he didnât end up with anyone else, still didnât end up in an auction house like many others had, you hate them for thinking they could define his value. That they could define him for more than what he lacked. He still has beautiful fangs. Still has beautiful eyes and his natural cobalt-blue hair. He is still perfect to you.
A sharp hiss leaves his lips, arm attempting to jerk back from your hold as your grip tightens just a hair too hard. As you accidentally tug on a far too sensitive part of the knot. Getting a little too lost in your head while your fingers pick away diligently. Trying to ease the pain as fast as you can.
âHuman!â He whines, quickly shushed by a flurry of apologies leaving your mouth. Face flushed, panic in your eyes as he admonishes you.
Once again youâre reminded all too well of how far youâve fallen for him. Heart racing, brain yelling at itself for hurting him.
Itâs dumb, you know that. Everything about the schoolgirl crush youâve formed on him is. But it doesnât stop the frown on your lips, the gentle rub of your fingers into his skin as you try to make it up to him.
A quiet grumble leaves his lips, heart hurting at the little dejected expression you wear. He forgives better than he forgets, moving his arms back to the pillow propped on your lap, allowing you to continue your work.
A pout stays on his lips as he watches your hands move. Watches the way the tweezers move under the thin layer of skin. Watches the way you move softer now, taking your time with him. Trying your utmost to not hurt him again.
To you it feels far too intimate. To him, it leaves him almost feral.
âBeen working really hard on them lately, havenât you?â Your voice sounds, trying to distract him or yourself from wandering thoughtsâ youâre not sure. Heâs almost cleanâ almost all better so you can stop playing nurse. Get a warm washcloth to soothe the skin, take away any ache that lasts from the overused glands.
He nods, âAutumn is coming upâŠâ He mumbles, the words leaving his lips in almost a shy fashion. Like itâs a secret that isnât a secret at all in the coy fashion he knows you adore.
He knows all too well all of the things that make your stomach flutter. Listens to your heart beat like itâs his favourite song, the flush of your cheeks his favourite painting. Every little twitch of your lip or tap of your feet he catches with ease. You are his favourite everything.
Youâve become far more interesting than any book, far more gorgeous than any actress. Learned to read you better than yourself.But he supposes that would happen to any hybrid who had to wait as long as him, endure as much as he has.
Humans are tricky things, you know? You have to wait and wait and wait just for them to finally give into what they really want. Play the long game to win a prize at the end like he wants, deserves.
Heâll win it soon. August.
âMmm? Having a contest with the house spiders or something?â You giggle, an effort to try and keep the atmosphere as light as possible. Try to distract from any pain he may be feeling at the moment.
Jimin is convinced he can speak to themâ the house spiders that you allow to stay in the corners of your house. Another one of Jiminâs pitfalls that you couldnât help but wonder into. He claims that theyâre his friends, that he talks to them all the time. You, on the other hand, are unconvinced. They probably just use him for food!
âHow did you know?! Who told you!â He gasps in mock surprise, head dipping low to rest on your shoulder before he continues, âNo, not this timeâŠthey all know I would win anyway.â
âI know you would,â He doesnât allow you in the basement to look at them, at least he hasnât in the last month, but youâve seen plenty strung around the house. Dotted in the corners of each room, his way of claiming territory. âYouâve always got such pretty silk.â
His face flushesâ he knows you canât see it. Itâs good if you donât, better if you have no clue how much your words affect him. Exactly how much those words mean to him.
Hopefully you will soon enough. Hopefully, if things go according to plan, youâll know a lot of things. But right now you just need to stay a little clueless. Just for a little longer.
Thatâs what he promises to himself.
âWhatâs happening in autumn then?â You ask, finally pulling the last bit of silk from his left wrist. Both finally clean, finally working like they should be.
Taking each wrist into one of your hands, your thumbs find the openings to the spinnerets. Fingers rubbing gentle, soothing circles into the flesh. Your version of a little makeshift massage. One that always causes him to fall apart under. Spine slumping, mouth parting slightly as he watches your fingers work. His brain going a little empty along with the soothing motion of your fingertips.
Another thing that you donât understand the intimacy of. The extent of what your touch means to him. How terribly it makes him want to bite you.
His voice is a pitch lower than before. You canât help but notice the way his breath stutters in his throat at the gentle movement of your thumbs. The way his pupils expand ever so slightly. The way he leans into your touch, avoids eye contact at all costs.
You canât help the blush that dusts your cheeks, the flutter of your ribcage. The way you keep going just because you know itâs making him feel good.
Stop it! Youâre thinking in a bad way again! It isn't right! Itâs just from the massage, the relief after his spinnerets are cleared! God, you canât think about him like this. Canât do this to yourself! Calm down, seriously. None of this is a big deal.
You know he can hear fast your heart is beating regardless of the argument going on inside of your brain.
âAutumn is mating season.â Your thumbs stutter.
Oh. That is something all of the articles definitely neglected to tell you. They didnât tell you anything about⊠that aspect of spiders. Not that they explained much to begin with but certainly nothing about breeding.
You canât help the way your grip tightens, trying to find purchaseâ stability at the revelation. Heart thrumming in your chest faster, more aggravated than before. The chill that travels down your spine with the hum of his voice so close to your ear.
Canât help the sinch of jealousy that finds you either.
Fuck, you hate that heâs smirkingâ without even looking at his face you can tell! You know he can hear the exact pitter-patter of your heart, any little sound or smell you let out he can easily pick up. Knows your exact emotions before you know them yourself.
âAh⊠I see.â This topic really shouldnât make you so embarrassed! Pull yourself together!
You know that all hybrids have a cycle they go through. Heats, ruts, anything in between. You knew that when Jimin came into your life he would be the same! Knew there would be a time when heâd have to lock himself in the basement, body flooded with hormones. The pretty sounds youâd have to block out filling the house.
But still, because itâs him, you canât help the nerves that arise from your core. The realisation that it would be coming sometime soon.
If youâre going to make it through youâd have to invest in some soundproof headphones. For your own sanity.
âMmm?â He smiles, voice sweet and saccharine. Away with the pain of existing also left cute Jimin, leaving a deadly predator in its wake. One that likes to taunt and tease you while acting as innocent as an angel.
Leaves your brain confused, floundering trying to keep up with his deceptively sweet tongue. Doing it all just to get a cute little reaction out of you.
Guess he picked up on the exact little whirlwind of your mind, âYouâre so cute when youâre embarrassedâŠâ
âShut up!â You whine, trying to stand from the couch so you can retrieve a washcloth. Try to avoid the way your heart is going to pound out of your chest, the way you know youâll fall farther into his clutches.
His arms lock on firm, face nuzzling into the crook of your neck to rub his cheeks against your skin. Scent you just like he does a million times a day claiming that it's necessary. Spiders smell so much less than other hybridsâ he has to do it or else.
Or at least thatâs what he saysâ you think that itâs another lie.
âWhat!â He laughs, âNot like Iâm saying anything dirty, itâs only natural.â He chides, sliding back against the couch, pulling you into his side with ease. Slotting you in like youâre meant to fit there, not whatever mate he meets in the future.
Your brain yells at itself. You know how dangerous that line of thinking is.
âUnless you want me to be dirty? I could if I wanted, you know.â He smiles as innocently as a wolf, fangs oozing with confidence behind them.
âOh my god!â You sigh dramatically, putting on the front you always do when your heart feels like it may just explode. When you feel like digging an early grave because Jimin knows exactly what heâs doing.
You simply roll your eyes, âAnd I could punch you in the dick if I wanted to, you know?â
His laugh is always so pretty, boisterous yet still as light as air. Head tilting back, his neck on display as he chastises you for the empty threat. One you both know wonât come true, at least not right now.
He smiles, a gentle kiss being placed on your forehead as he urges you to stay. Promising heâll be a âgood little spiderâ so you donât have to worry about him. The implication of snacks and movies making you stay. The way he pouts when you tell him youâre not buying anymore BugBitezâą until the end of the week confirming that this is where you need to be right now. That itâs right.
Itâs almost too easy for him too. Everything is too easy for you when it comes to Jimin. He claims the exact same.
Or at least, thatâs what he mumbles in your ear now. Arms wrapped around you as tight as he can manage. Movie nearing its end with Jimin on the cusp of consciousness, you having lost the plot of it a long time ago.
Something about Aliens? Cowboys? Mothman? You couldnât even hope to guess. Not when his breath is in your ear.
Itâs hard to focus when heâs so close like this. When heâs saying pretty words that could get you lost in your fantasy over and over again. Making him harder and harder to give him up every moment that passes you by.
âGot lucky with my human.â He mumbles, half asleep, face buried in your hair, âReally good human.â
His lips move so lazily when they speak. Fangs running across the surface your skin like they have a mind of their own. Never daring to pierce the surface. Never daring to bite you for real. No matter how bad he really, really wants to.
How bad he wants to mate you. Make you his pliant little preyâ see if the rumours about what his venom does to humans is real.
Your breath stutters but you pay it no mind. Trying, begging your eyes to remain focused on the movie. To ignore how deceptive sleepy Jimin is. Tomorrow, he will act as normal. His words will carry no weight.
He isnât your boyfriend. You arenât his mate. You two are just friends sharing a house.
Feelings you have no right to have are forced down over and over again. It seems like it's become a daily occurrenceâ a pattern of habit you have no hope in breaking. The love piling behind your eyelids means nothing when the person he is meant to be with could be around any corner.
But itâs getting harder. Too hard to hold them back and restrain yourself. Especially on nights like this when it feels like fate that the two of you met.
Thinking back on that fateful day now, all of those months ago, youâre sure it had to have been. Maybe the winter gods (if such a thing existed) decided to shine their light on you; to make the blizzard a little less lonely. Make your life filled with long days and even longer nights just a little bit brighter.
Or maybe they hated you and wanted you to suffer.
Wanted you to live a life knowing your affections will never be reciprocated, knowing that Jimin has a fated one out there somewhere just waiting for him. Knowing that it isnât you. Cursing you to a life of watching Jimin fall for another.
Thinking becomes so hard when itâs about Jimin. When itâs about the man who made you so far into the pits of hell that you donât think youâll ever crawl out.
So instead your fingers simply squeeze his hand. Rub gentle, soothing circles into the skin. Care for him like youâre meant to instead of thinking about what the future may hold. What will happen when he does find his mate. What they might be like, what they might dress like, if theyâll have to move in here, if youâll have to watch him fall in love over and over again every single day.
You think you might hate them.
You sigh.
No, that wouldnât be fair. Could never be fair to Min. He deserves happiness. He deserves the world whether or not youâre a part of it.
You hope he isnât able to pick up on the changes in your scent.
âMmm mm, got lucky with you Min.â
August 11th.
A beautiful dream shattered by the incoherent nightmare that is your spider pacing around your room. A pillow pulled to either side of your head, doing everything in their power to drown out the noise as an audible groan leaves your lips. His nervous prattling too early in the morning for your liking.
Any other day it would be fine, you would think that itâs cute. The way he worries his lip between his teeth. The way he gently bites down on the pad of his thumb, one arm crossed while the other soothes the skin of his chin.
Any other day youâd sit in bed, listen to him. Mock him slightly with how much worry runs through his body.
But he isnât talking about his mate any other day, is he? No, it seems that the occasion has been saved for this morning. His head running a mile a minute, losing all composure he once had before. Losing his very sense of self as anxiety courses through his veins.
âWhat if it isnât good enough? I need to present it to her soon. Need to make sure everything is perfect for her.â Apparently he had met her. When? You have not a single clue. Jimin hasnât left the house in weeks other than to go hunt bugs and to go to the grocery store with you.
âWhat if the web isnât big enough? She might not like the style eitherâŠâ He grumbles, eyes locked on the carpet as he moves back and forth across your room, âGod and what if she hates the food⊠No, no you know what she likes.â
âJimin, sheâll like everything. It will be fine.â You groan, sitting up in bed to face him, voice gruff with morning air.. You donât want him to be in here, talking about this. Talking to you about this. Shattering your heart every second that passes by.
You knew it would happen someday, you really did. You tried to do everything right. Tried to pretend reality wasnât creeping through your windows with every second that passes by. Try to ignore the impending sense of doom that covered your skin.
Did everything right only to end up failing once again due to the rations of Park Jimin.
You try to look at him through the fuzz in your eyes, sleep still trying to force you back into its clutches with everything that it has. Try to see what he is doingâ understand what he is saying. His voice continuing to speak yet not fluent enough for you to actually understand. His body twitches ever so slightly, head jerking as his teeth dig deeper and deeper into his thumb. It was almost like you werenât even in the roomâ not to him at least. Lost within the tangles of his brain.
Pulling himself deeper and deeper into the recesses of his mind, spiralling out of control of everything that seems rational, everything that he is meant to do or meant to say. Itâs almost like he isnât in the room at all. Isnât pacing along your floor, surrounded by your scent. Comforting his inner spider before it loses control entirely with the hormones that rush through his veins.
August 11th. The date was circled 5 times on his calendarâ red exclamation points, doodles scattered across the stupid day. Yet now, for the life of him he canât seem to remember why. He canât seem to remember much of anything though, so that isnât a surprise. Only his web. The gifts heâs prepared for this day. Yeah. Those are the only things he can seem to think about.
A hand lands on his shoulderâ one that isnât his own. Whoâs touching him? He isnât sure. Isnât sure of much other than the smell combing through the room that becomes sweeter and sweeter by the second. Honey he is unable to resist.
Especially with how soft the hand is that touches him. How gentle it is on his shoulder, his pace back and forth falling just so he can revel in it. Understand it.
âHey Min.â Oh. Itâs you. Your voice coming through the fog. Your voice startling him from the dream.
Gorgeous, gorgeous you.
Mate.
âItâs gonna be okay, yeah?â Why do you sound sad? No, maybe itâs distressed. His face falls.
No, no, no. You shouldnât be sad. You should never be sad. You should always be happy with him. You should love him. His love should make you whole. Your love makes him whole.
Wait, does he have your love yet?
Now he isnât sure.
All he knows is that he should. You should. He should wrap you up in his nest, hold you close until you feel nothing but him. Donât think about anybody else. Look at anybody else. You should always be happy and safe. Happy and safe with him just like he feels with you. Has always felt with you.
More than that stupid reserve. More than his webs back there. It was fate that brought the two of you together, right? Right? So he should be allowed to indulge just a little. He should be allowed to let go of this stupid, fucked up play heâs been putting on for so long. He should be allowed to do whatever he wants.
The reserve always taught him he was a wild spider, you know?
Wait, spider.
Spider.
His rut. Thatâs whatâs coming today. Thatâs why the day was circled. Thatâs why Jimin isnât acting like himself. Thatâs why his spider is itching, clawing to come out to play. Why he so desperately wants all of you to himself.
He hasnât even presented his web yet.
He tilts his head at you, blank eyes staring down into bright ones. Ones that hold his entire world at your fingertips.
âThere he is.â Your smile is almost blinding. Makes his head pound just like the sun's rays.
Thatâs right. Thatâs why he needs to keep his composure. To keep that smile on your lips. To keep you happy. To keep you falling in love with him slowly the human way. The way he knows youâd prefer. Knows you adore every second of.
He isnât Taehyung. He isnât Taehyung.
The human way is better. Better at keeping you pliant. Better at keeping you happy. Better at keeping you unafraid.
He hates when people are scared of him. Hates when people flinch with every movement he makes. Hates when people canât just love him like he so craves. Heâs still a hybrid. He still wants love. He was bred for it just like the rest of them.
So when you came into his life, so gentle and caring despite the palpable fear that scented the airâ weighed it heavily, it sparked light behind his eyes. When he felt you touch him, felt the sparks dance across his flesh and allowed himself to inhale once more. When there were no traces of fear within you, only the scent of his mate. His eternity.
He knew he had to do the right thing. Had to make you love him the human way. Had to make you fall for him, endure the wait. Endure the daily struggles of his instincts just so you would never be afraid of him. The end would be worth it.
He would never let you fear him even at the cost of his own sanity.
Because he isnât Taehyung. Heâs Jimin. Heâs a good spider.
âYou need to be careful MinâŠâ You tell him quietly. Your voice is the only anchor to his shaky world. The light brought him back from the edge over and over again today.
He needs to leave your room before all of his planning goes to waste. Calm himself down. Present to you his web and all of his gifts so you can accept him properly.
âYour thumb⊠itâs bleeding honeyâŠâ He tilts his head again, inspects your hands as they move closer. Tries to force lucid thought from behind his heavy eyelids as you touch his skin directly.
Tries to ignore the throb deep inside as you gently remove the finger from his lips. Pull it away from the fang that was piercing him. The sting of the bite.
He hadnât even noticed it.
He watches as a single drop spills from the abrasion. Slipping down his finger. Feels the way your hands come up to cup his cheeks.
Leave. Leave. Leave.
The way your thumb comes to his lips, worry etched across your features as you swipe away any remaining blood from his lower lip.
Leave. He needs to leave.
He isnât sure how your finger ends up in his mouth. His plush lips wrapping around the digit, tongue curling around your flesh as he licks away the red spilled. Sucking on it gently as heat curls in his stomach. His eyes half-lidded, staring into the recesses of your very soul.
A groan passes through him at the taste of your skin. How sweet you are against his tongue. Do you even know what a vixen you are? What a tease youâve come to be over the past 9 months?
No. Of course you donât. Not with the blush that rushes to your cheeks. The stutter of his name that passes through his lips. The questions that you askâ what are you doing? Wh-why?
He wants you to be quiet. To enjoy you for all itâs worth. Enjoy everything you have to offer.
The command is silentâ no more than the press of his bleeding thumb to your lips. The demand that you part them for him. To clean that wound that you unknowingly caused.
A hand on your cheek directing your head back. Heâs been a good little spider, you can be a good little girl too, canât you?
You are.
âJ-Jimiââ He slips it inside, resting the pad against your tongue. Holding it in place. Asking, begging for this one little thing from you. You donât mind, do you? Youâve always made him feel better before. This is no different, is it?
And so you do.
He watches the way your eyelids fall, your lips close as you begin to gently suck against it like he so craves. Like he desires down to the very cells that make up his body.
To imagine itâs his cock instead. Gently fucking into you over and over again, teaching you how to take his it how he likes. How he knows youâll like. Youâll love everything about him. Youâre meant to. Itâs in the fabric of your DNA and soon it will all be his. Right after he shows you hisâ
Shit.
He needs to leave.
Got carried away in his fantasy. In pretending again.
His rut is coming too fast, too strong now that he finally has his mate in his grasp. He needs to leave. He needs to calm down so he can go this properly.
He leaves you on the bed, more confused and distressed than when he first entered. Annoyance hovering over your entire wake in a blanket of unrest. One that you know will not ease your soul for the rest of the day.
The spider has locked himself away. Hiding from you. Keeping himself in the basement, door locked, shutters drawn to drown out any sense of you that may be persisting.
You, on the other hand, have had nothing to do but stew in your own emotions. Think about every little decrepit detail that occurred hours prior. Edicting yourself to only address him by spider even in your thoughts.
Itâs spiteful, sure. But itâs the least he deserves, you know? After everything heâs put you thoughâ pulling you along like a little puppet on a string. Making you sit idly by for him to give you any lick of affection heâs willing to part with. Making you feel special, like you're worth something every second that he gets only for him to remind you with too much familiarity that he isnât yours to have.
He woke you up, told you about his mate, looked at you like he was going to fuck you, and made you suck on his finger only for him to leave? The sheer fucking audacity of this man.
Youâre sick of it.
Sick of having to force everything down because you know it isnât what he wants. Sick of falling in love with him every day. Sick of having to play house. Sick of not having him. Sick of being playing the lovesick fool.
So, into the novels you fall. Into alternate worlds that are far better than your own. Displacing yourself into new habitats, new environments to escape the confines of the four stuffy walls that surround your body, head, and heart.
Into a world where itâs okay to fall in love with whoever you want. Where itâs okay to feel wanted. Where reality can be shut away by your headphones and a good snack. Where you can ignore the body approaching behind you. The tap on your shoulder.
You try to, honestly. And a good attempt it was.
Keeping your grip firm on the pages, nails digging into the paper below. Breath in your lungs held as if doing so would keep him away. Eyes tracing the pages over and over again though reading nothing. Attempting to appear as if you didnât notice him at all.
Maybe he would leave, that was your biggest hope. Take the headphones placed firmly over your ears as a loud, obnoxious hint. That he would see youâre not interested and retreat to his basement layer to plot on the next way to torture your heart.
He doesnât. He never would.
His frame comes to kneel in front of you. To stare up at you with those big brown doe eyes that you know you could never escape. Placing a gentle hand on your knee, trying to get you to see that he is there. That he wants to see you.
You see his lips move, though ignore entirely what they say. Letting out a huff, turning your body away from his own. Continuing to mindlessly stare at the pages even though their contents holds no meaning in this moment. No real value.
His forehead drops to your leg, a sigh leaving his throat. Words mumbled from his lips youâre unable to make outâ not that you would want to hear them anyway.
Maybe itâs a temper tantrum of sorts. Giving him a taste of his own medicine. To feel even a pinch of what you do. He probably never does.
Your fight is a good one. It truly isâ at least you think so. But it all comes tumbling down the second his lips press against your knee. His hands reaching past your iron grip on the book to hold your own.
You will always fall to the likes of Jimin.
Especially when you see his lips mouth the word please. His brows crested with worry, his lower lip quivering in worry. Fangs biting the surface to try and soothe the nerves he feels.
Any sense of foreboding he held earlier, gone. The tick of his shoulders, the cold, blank stare of his eyes vanished. Your Jimin, the one youâre used to, in love with, rising to the surface again.
Youâre unable to fight against the plea, no matter how much you want to. Unable to fight against him.
âWhat is it.â Your voice is harsh as you remove your headphones, setting the book to the side. Much more than it appears heâd like it to be if the flinch of his neck is anything to go by.
âIâŠâ Words feel lost in his throat, but he forces himself to continue forward, âI have something I need to show you, humanâŠâ
Why is he acting so weird? Acting like earlier never happened? He seems nervous, almost petrified at your reaction. As if anything you say could break him entirely.
You donât understand it at all. Anything about this situation, really.
âOkayâŠ?â You watch his face carefully, trying to reason. To figure out why exactly the air seems so heavy. Why this situation feels so tense. âShow me then?â
âIâŠYou have to come with me?â It sounds like a question, his face flinching at his own words. Heâs meant to do this perfectly. Why canât he seem to get it right? Why canât his instincts help him with this? âLike, I canât bring it up here⊠I need you to follow me?â
âHuh?â The quiet breath leaves your throat as your features pinch.
He quickly tries to explain further, trying to help you see through the worry on your face, âNot far I promise. Just to the basement, yeah?â
Your head jerks back in surprise, âYou never let me go down there.â
âYeah butâŠitâs special this time.â Oh.
Itâs almost as if the pieces click together on their own. Your brain drawing conclusions, making decisions for you despite the obvious staring right in your face. His mate is probably down there. Wants you to meet her.
You can only sigh, accept your fate for what it is. Follow the boy with the string to the basement once again, just like the first night he came tumbling into your life.
âOkay.â
He holds your hand as you walk.
Holds it as if his life depends on it. As if itâs the red string of fate that has tied your two bodies together for the rest of eternity. As if he might die the second you two part. As if you might run away the second he lets go.
You never do, never try to run away from him. Youâve tried to run away from your feelings for so long. The least you can do is see through to the end of them, right? That would be the right thing to do. The dignified thing instead of trying to throw a tantrum on the floor.
The walk to the basement feels like the longest in your life. A marathon you have no training for, no experience with tugging you along. Silence extended for miles along each creak of the floorboards, each set of the dim stairs.
Jimin left the lights off, dusk settling along the horizon not long ago. Only distant flickers from the basement coming through as you make your way down. Candle light in the distance lighting the way.
He doesnât say a thing as your feet reach the bottom of the stairs, toes cushioned by soft silk lining the floors. He doesnât have to.
Itâs beautiful. Thatâs the only way you can describe what heâs turned the basement into.
Beautiful silks cover every waking surfaceâ the floors, the walls, the ceiling all lined in brilliant patterns of white dancing across the surface. Creating stories as if they were living themselves.
You wish you could stare at them. Admire them for the rest of your life. Decipher each piece laying, coating the surface. Envisioning the world through the eyes of Jimin. Through the world around him.
Webs cross from floor to ceiling, taking space over the room. Intricately laid in patterns you are more accustomed to with spiders. Webbed hatching sectioning off parts of the space, acting as furniture for the bug to rest on.
As your eyes scan the room, you finally find what you think has to be the most gorgeous web in the world. Sitting in the far right corner of the room stands a nest that takes up the entire corner. The effort it took to make it clear in its craft. So soft, so comfortable.
You almost want to curl up in it yourself.
Illuminated by only the glow of candle light, Jimin does nothing but watch as you take everything in. Watch as your face changes into that of euphoria. Mesmerised by everything he has worked so hard on, everything heâs done just to impress you.
You turn to face him, staring at him with nothing but wonder in your eyes.
âJimin, this isâ fuck this is incredible,â Your voice is breathless, cut off by how overwhelmed you are with everything. With him. âThis mustâve taken you so long, itâs so beautiful. Oh my god, how did youââ
He canât take it anymore. Canât take it now that he has you here, has you in his web. Now that he can keep you in it forever. Complimenting him. Completing him. He needs to finish with the rest of this fast. Before he does something heâll regret. Before he finishes showing you how good a mate he will be to you properly.
He tugs you forward, practically puzzling as he tugs you deeper into his room of webs. Expertly guiding you through each one without a second to spare.
Jittery, excited. Feeting rocking themselves back and forth as he sits you on a blanket placed on the ground.
He isn't going to last much longer. Not before his heat takes over. Before he loses his mind at you in the sight of his nest. His mate in his nest. Waiting to be bred. Waiting forâ
No, no Jimin. Stop it. Stop acting like a spiderling that doesnât know what to do with himself now that he has his mate in his nest.
âIâŠâ He takes a deep breath, voice shaky as he tries to calm himself down, âI made us a picnic⊠I hope you like it.â
His spider hisses at the words, hating having to describe it as something stupid like a picnic. No, it's a nuptial gift. Evidence that heâs a good enough mate. That heâs good enough for you. That he deserves you.
You watch him, watch as he pushes the basket filled to the brim with food over to you. Watch as his frame shakes slightly as he stares at you, fingers tapping against strings of webs closest to your leg.
You canât help but feel lost. Overwhelmed with affection, but utterly, entirely, hopelessly lost all the same. What is he doing? Why is he presenting all of this for you? Shouldnât he be doing this for his mate? Isnât all of this some type of courting ritual?
Oh.
It appears the puzzle you constructedâ pieces matched together haphazardly stuck together with glue isnât the solution after all. Isnât the reality presented before you know.
Youâre⊠youâre Jiminâs mate?
Your eyes widen, head jerking to meet Jiminâs gaze. His pupils shaky, not daring to leave the surface of the basket. Not daring to move an inch until you accept him.
Youâre an idiot.
âJ-Jimin a-are weâŠ?â You hesitate to ask, hesitate to break the gentle balance residing over the entire basement.
His head snaps to face your own, eyes plagued with the same blank, predatory look as before.
âMate.â Deep, harsh, scratchy. His voice makes you feel like heâs going to devour you whole. Like he is the monster waiting in the deepest recesses of your nightmares when that couldnât be farther from the truth. When in reality he is the very being your soul yearns for stronger than any other.
The revelation, theâ everything leaves you overwhelmed. Emotions strung up for the stars, casting aside any comets that tried to hurdle towards the perfect glass encasing this moment. This eternity you wish to live in forever as you finally understand that he wants you just as much as you want him.
You canât help but grab his cheeksâ ignore how venomous he looks, and press your lips against his own. Canât help the explosion behind your eyelids, the sparks that travel across your skins in euphoric waves. The way your heart swells like a balloon, racing in your chest so fast you fear you may die.
Every emotion youâve felt that day, every nagging, creeping sensation finding its way into the back of your skull vanishes in an instant. No going back. No orchestra or chorus reprise. No thoughts of not being his mate. You are his mate.
Only him.
Only Jimin.
He doesnât part with you, not for a second. Not when he finally has you against him. When you so easily rise into his lap. When his natural instincts finally stop screaming at him and take over completely. Kiss you with everything heâs worth. Devour you whole.
His hands find purchase on your hips, blunt nails digging into the skin. Mocking him for not doing this in the closet with you all those months ago. Allowing him to truly understand how good it wouldâve felt then. How good it will feel every second that follows.
He thinks you have to be the prettiest thing in the world.
His spider thinks that you need to be bred full of his spiderlings. Fucked so hard that you wont be able to walkâ wont be able to leave his nest. That heâll be able to tie you up nice and pretty, stuff you with his cum over and over again until youâd never even think about leaving.
His spider is winning.
âMinâŠâ Your voice is breathless, trying to keep up with the flurry of kisses he presses against your lips, your faceâ anywhere he can reach. Itâs like heâs addicted to the feeling, like heâs making up for lost time.
âMin, I love you.â And just like that, any sanity he has left vanishes.
His spider has won.
Without a second thought youâre lifted from your place on his lap, thrown carelessly into his nest. His nest where you will stay. His nest where heâll keep you. All thoughts vanished from that pretty little head of yours. Just like it should be.
His hands find the back of his collar, shirt discarded without a second thought on the floor. He doesnât need it anymore. Not when he has you. When he wants to feel you fully.
You can only stareâ fawn at his tan skin. The gentle muscles on display for you. For your eyes only while he crawls towards you. Stalks you just like they might a pretty little butterfly caught in their web. Wrapped in webs and killed without a second thought.
His lips find yours once again. Slotting together, filling the other to make them whole. Dazed in lust and passion, neither soul hoping there would ever be a way out for the other.
Well, there wonât be for you. But thatâs okay. Youâll love it. Love every second of it.
He knows it as his fingers dance against your skin. Sliding beneath the hem of your shirt, running with skilled ease up your sides. The chill that racks through your body is evidence enough. The way you so easily allow him to draw your shirt over your head solidifies it. Your shorts follow, making it set in stone.
Your breath comes out in short pants, every slight touch, every little movement sends fire burning through your skin. Igniting you, setting your core ablaze with heat that only he can extinguish.
Fingers gently sliding over your ribs, thumbs coming just blow your breasts to rub circles into the skin while his fangs nip gently into your lower lip. He canât bite you now. No, after he mates you he can bite you all he wants.
He groans at the thought, hips rocking themselves against your clothed cunt. Allowing you to feel all of himâ the press of his cock, the motion of his need allowing you to fall higher and higher into a heaven you did not think possible.
You whine at him to do something, anything. Too impatient to wait any longer. Too impatient to live a second more without something, anything buried inside of you.
His smile is sick, twisted as he reclines back on his heels. Allows himself to get a good look at you.
âShh, ShhâŠâ His hand cups your cheek, smoothing his thumb against your lips. Pressing it inside with more ease than before. More compliance than before. Thereâs a good little girl.
âPoor thing is having a hard time, huh?â He mocks gently, hips pressed firm against your own allowing you to feel every inch of him, âPretty lips all swollen, pussy a little mess from just kissing⊠mm mmâŠâ
He groans, hand slipping between your legs. What he finds is no more than a mess of a girl. Hips bucking upwards. Slick dripping from your center, panties coated in arousal. Puffy little clit begging for any attention heâs willing to give it.
Without any hesitation his thumb finds your clit, pressing against it without any thought of reprieve. Without any thought to give you any of the relief you crave. Youâve made him wait this long, you can wait a second, no?
He groans high as you buck against his hand, mewl leaving your lips as some sort of plea. Ah~ how cute. Such a little thing so desperate for something, anything that youâre willing to give up your very head in return? How cute! How adorable!
His spider preens. Is almost so belated he doesnât notice the hands that come down to grip his wrist. Hold him in place all so you can circle your hips against his thumb. Rub adorable little rings into your clit without any help from him. Use him to make yourself feel good.
A coo leaves his lips. Who is he to deny such a pretty little human?
âAh pretty baby wants to feel good, does she?â He almost giggles at how pathetic you look. How adorably you cling to him. How hard you try.
His arm is ripped from your grasp, pulling back from the very place you desire him most. Where your arousal soaks the cotton of cotton, so palpable he can practically taste it in the air.
âItâs okay babyâŠâ He sees the annoyance in your face, the battiness you hold in your heart coming to light. Excited to tame it. Excited to quell the pretty little devil in his web.
Tie you up. Breed full.
Breed you.
His fingers work fast. Arms are pulled over your head, silks quickly pinning them to the surface. Strings wrapping and wrapping until heâs sure youâre secure. Sure you canât move.
His hips gently rock against your own, clothes cock pressing against your core. Watching as your hips buck, as you try to urge him closer with a pathetic whine.
See exactly how you struggle against the strings.
Perfect, perfect girl. How did he get so lucky, huh? Can never be sure.
Youâre unable to stop the cry that leaves your throat as his hands pull your panties aside, finger thrusting into your wet heat. Filling you up, making you feel a little more whole.
âMin~â The moan of his name is shaky. Every sense you have in overdrive as he works his finger against your walls. Every push inside deeper, harder. Curling against your walls in the exact way you craved.
Pleasure coils in your stomach faster than you thought possible. A second finger joining the first, pumping in and out as he prepares you for his cock. Prepared you to take all of him and nothing less.
He knows you can do it. You can, canât you?
âMhmm baby, I know⊠head a little clearer now, huh?â He chuckles, chastising, âCan only think when youâre full. Itâs so cute.â
You whimper at his words, head rolling back as the coil pulls tighter and tighter within your gut. Urging you to just let it snap, feel everything youâve been waiting for.
âF-feels goodâŠâ You mutter quietly, unable to see the haze cloud his vision. The way his amused expression drops into that of a wild animal.
Without any warning his fingers pull out of your heat, body leaving your own entirely as he stands. Grabbing your hips, dragging them closer. Flipping your body over. Setting you pretty on your knees, arms uncomfortable crossed in front of you.
He quickly rids himself of his pants, allowing his cock to spring free from their confines. Head red and messy as it hits his stomach. Angry at how neglected youâve left him. How desperately he wants this.
You have no way of preparing yourself for the drag of his cock through your lips. The gentle nudge against your clit. Thick head dragging through your folds, spreading your arousal. Mixing it with his pre-cum.
Making you messy. Making you dirty just for him. Making you belong to him.
âGonna fill my mate.â All humour is gone from the man behind you, as if he is someone else entirely. Itâs really too bad your head has a few too many screws loose to care. Care about anything other than the way his firm head presses against your hole. The way his blunt nails dig into your flesh.
âGonna breed her. Mate her. Make her mine.â Itâs almost as if his word is a command. The very sentences he utters become law.
You can only nod your head. Give yourself to the very man that fate led you to all those months ago. âWant~â
The thrust of his hips into your walls is almost too much to bear. A cry leaving your lips as he fucks himself inside in a single thrust. Forcing you to take him to the hilt, to feel all of him stretch your walls. No break. No waiting around.
Youâve both done enough waiting.
It hurtsâ the burn, as he stretches you full. Presses his cock against your walls making sure your cunt remembers no one but him.
The way he gives no reprieve, fucking into you like an animal starved. Pulling back until only the tip remains inside before fucking himself fully inside once more.
âMin!â You cry, waves of pain and pleasure boiling all the same within your bones. All the same inside of your blurred head, nothing but static and thoughts of him behind the line of your eyes. Slipping off into space as you let cunt clenched pathetically around his cock.
âGood mate, taking me so well. Such a good human.â He groans, hips pulling back and thrusting into you over and over again. Making you fall apart with his pace. Pumping his cock into your pathetic little hole fast and hard. Ruining you for any other man.
Making sure he will be the only one you allow to enter heaven.
Your moans come out wanton, pleaing. Hips start to move back against him, trying to keep up with his pace despite the burn you begin to feel in your tied arms. Desperate to let him know just how good heâs filling you. Just how good heâs making you feel.
âMy mate.â His pants come out harsh, breath on your neck as he hovers close. The sound of skin and against skin is the only thing youâre able to hear. The pressure of Jiminâs lips against your neck makes you feel like youâre about to go insane.
Heâs desperate to make you fall apart on his cock alone. Pleasure building and building, the coil tight. Ready to snap at any moment. Ready to fall apart at his command.
âGonna make you mine forever pretty.â His voice is featherlight once more. The switches have you reeling, your brain spinning. âWant that, donât you? For me to bite you? Mark you up? Breed you full of my spiderlings? Ruin that pretty little head for anything else.â
He sighs, nails digging into your hips where theyâre sure to leave bruises. You nod your head in agreement, moans spilling past your lips as his hips change their angle. His cock hitting the spot that leaves you seeing stars on every thrust.
âSay the word and youâre mine.â You feel his fangs against your skin. The harsh drag across your delicate skin. âForever.â
You canât take it anymore, pleasure burning through you. Blinding you. Unable to think about anything else other than the rough thrusts of his cock against your walls.
âPlease.â Itâs no more than a whimper, but he swears itâs the loudest thing heâs ever heard.
His teeth clamp into your fleshâ the final thing needed to push you over the edge into bliss. Your body stutters, walls a vice around his cock as the coil finally snaps. Heat flowing through every cell you possess. The only thing in your soul is Jimin.
Your back arches, eyes dotting with black as you allow it to overtake you. Jimin rocking you against him, groaning as he fills you with his cum, painting your walls white. Allowing you to ride out your high with him. Finally allowing the rut to rid his brain for only a moment.
He slowly pulls out of you, panting. Quickly moving to cover your center back up with your underwear. Make sure all of his cum stays tucked away in your pretty little pussy to get you nice and pregnant.
You can only whimper, body twitching at every movement he makes. Worn down your bonesâ energy sucked so dry you canât even feel the throb of your neck. Donât even notice the blood that drips from where he marked youâ claimed you in the way only a hybrid can.
All you're sure of is the need to be close to him. Need to feel him.
Is this what he had been feeling all along? Marks were known to do that, to allow you to feel what your mate does. If he had to endure what youâre feeling right now, it had to have been hell for him.
âMinâŠâ you calm his name. Pull him from where he stares between your legs. Where his fingers rub circles into the surface of your underwear, spreading any cum that leaks from your twitching hole.
Within a second heâs at attention, staring at you with all of the love in the world. Youâre not sure how you missed it before. How you could have deluded yourself into believing any less.
He pouts as you wiggle at your restraints, silk holding your arms in place all this time. He gently shakes his head, slowly flipping your body back over onto its back. Crawling over you to look at your face properly. Take in your fucked out expression. Ruined his pretty little human. Made her perfect.
âDonât want to.â His lower lip juts out at you, eyes wide just like a begging dog. âLook pretty tied up in my web. Should stay like this. Forever.â
âI donât think my job would like that very much.â You giggle, lip pouting out to match his own. He leans down, quickly capturing your mouth in a quick kiss.
Something hard pressed against your leg once more. His hand comes down to guide it against your heat. Rub against you despite the oversensitivity and cum leaking from your hole.
âThen we move to the woods together⊠Iâll hunt for usâŠâ He grumbles, pushing your underwear to the side once more. Collecting any cum that has spilled out with his cock, gently fucking it back into your cunt with the head.
A whine rips from your lips due to oversensitivity. Pussy sore, aching from what he just put you though. What you aptly begged for. Yet you canât deny him. Donât want to deny him with how good it feels to be filled. How addicted youâve become. Cock drunk.
âWh-what?â You try to breathe, walls fluttering around his length as he slowly thrusts back inside. Filling you to the brim once again. âW-we canât do that, MinnieâŠâ
His thrusts are slow, languid. Almost like heâs making love. Treating you with utmost care despite how wrecked your entire frame is.
He is entirely unaffected. His rut leaves him wanting for more and more until you have nothing left to give. Face twisting into confusion at your words.
âWhy canât we? Make you up a nice pretty web⊠keep you full all the timeâ He hums against your neck, gently licking at his mark, âtreat you like a real good mate, yeah? Fill you up over and over. Will look so pretty with my spiderlings.â
He moans the words, hips speeding up ever so slightly at the thought. It dawns on you that this must be his rut talking. Filling his head with nonsense he knows canât come true. In a few days when he wakes up from it, heâll probably pretend he never said anything about taking you to the woods. Keeping you there.
No harm in agreeing, is there? Especially when he makes you feel so good. So happy and full. When it makes him feel just as good. When your head starts to feel fuzzy, the exhaustion weighs heavily on your consciousness. Youâre on birth control anyway, it's fine.
âMmhmm⊠sounds nice..â You moan quietly, already feeling your second orgasm approaching. Allowing yourself to become lost in the same dream as him. Allowing yourself to fall victim to pretty words and false promises. Ones that he intends to make true.
âGonna take such good care of my mate.â He groans, face buried in your neck. He feels your walls clamp around him, pulling him in over and over again. Cunt never wanting him to leave.
His hand draws between your thighs, fingers rubbing quick circles into your clit. Neither of you are going to last long. Both too sensitive to do anything but fall into the pleasure of each other.
Pussy fluttering against his cock, head rolling back as your high runs through you once more. White clouding your vision, ears ringing as you are overcome with fire. Drowning in the feeling of his cock fucking you full of his cum once again.
He lets out a harsh groan as he fills you. Breeds you just like a good spider would. Makes you feel complete as he helps you through both of your highs.
Your eyes feel heavyâ too heavy to stay open even a second longer. Too tired to stay awake as he pulls your underwear back over your center. As he pulls your body close to his own.
He doesnât blame you, never could. It must be hard having to keep up with a hybrid during their rut. But he knows you can do it. Knows youâll do it for him. Especially with the promises you made. The ones you made only to him.
The last words you hear before falling under the veil of consciousness is a simple declaration. One youâve waited months to hear.
âI love you.â
âY/n! Hurry up!â
The whine of Jiminâs voice is louder than any car, highway, hellâ aeroplane youâve ever heard, youâre sure of it. The grip of his hand around your own is like iron, tugging you along the worn trail path, trying to urge you faster than your feet will allow.
âIâm going! Iâm goin!â You chide with him, giggle leaving your lips at his hurried nature. You donât think youâve ever seen the spider more excited. Maybe even more so than when he strokes the bite mark scarred into your shoulderâ your permanent reminder that you are his and he is yours.
âNot fast enough!â He groans, head rolling back in annoyance, âThe best spot is going to get taken!â
Heâs told you about this spot time and time againâ excitement palpable with every mention. A beautiful clearing back at the reserve, one that the trees shine perfectly through. The best spot for basking in the whole park, as well as for begging humans for snacks.
You smile at the thought. Following as close behind him as your feet will manage. Blanket and bags of food tight in your grip. After months of paperwork, he can finally return to this place without fear theyâll take you away from him. The mate licence in your wallet proof enough of it.
He finally gets to take you to the reserveâ the place he called home for so long before he met you. The place where he first learned how to be a proper spider. The first place he learned to make friends. Heâs most excited about the latter part, getting to show off his shiny new mate to all of his friends. The one he caught the human way.
Heâs been talking about it for days, since you first brought up the idea of visiting. Of wanting to see where he lived before he met you. Prattling on and on about everything heâs going to show you, how heâs going to introduce you to Jungkook if he can. About the waterfall over the cove that you two can swim in without anyone finding out.
All of it is a dream come true for your little spider. Your mate.
You smile at the thoughtâ how excited he is as he helps you set up the blanket on the ground. As he helps spread food all around you. Body jittery, head twitching at every little sound.
Itâs clear heâs going a little crazy with joy. Entirely ecstatic to have you here with him. Sitting across from him on the ground in a way that almost mocks the picnic you had in his basement that night months ago.
Ah, sorry. Nuptial gift ceremony. He liked it a lot better when you called it that.
âOh! And then, after we eat, I can introduce you to the head of the park! Sheâs Namjoonâs mate, but she doesnât know it yet.â He talks to himself, chatting idly about nothing as he presses another strawberry to your lips. You eagerly take it, biting down on the fruit without a second thought.
You cover your mouth with your hand as you speak, âReally? It must be difficult to confess to her, then.â
He nods his head, overexcited as he looks past you into the trees. Nose twitching as he tries to pick up a scent. Yellow tinted sunglasses high on his nose to block any light from hurting his delicate pupils.
You canât help but think about how beautiful he is. How lucky you are to have him.
His hair has grown out since that fateful day months ago, blonde replaced by a deep blue that puts the night sky to shame. How his frame has bulked out ever so slightly. Pretty tan skin looking more healthy than ever. His head off in the clouds, trying to ground himself so he doesnât pick you up and drag you off into the woods.
The human way is never easy for him.
âMhmm⊠heâs trying but he isnât very good at it. Doesnât understand how humans like it to be doneâŠâ He mumbles.
âHybridâs do it different?â
âYeah,â He seems a little lost in space, nose twitching harsher as he tries to recognise the exact scent he knows will be coming soon. Jungkook can never hold himself back from a picnic, no matter how far. He just wishes his nose was stronger.
âHybrids just take their mate right away. Prove theyâre a good mate and then itâs done. But humanâs you have to teach.â Your shoulders drop slightly, and maybe if it wasnât for the love you felt for him or the mate mark pressing against your neck, you would have understood the severity of his words. Of teaching a human, tricking them into making them fall.
âOhâŠâ You pout, head coming down to rest against his shoulder. None the wiser to the meaning behind his words, âIâm sorry⊠it mustâve been hard for you.â
He only shakes his head, âItâs okay. I just didnât want you to ever be scared.â
Suddenly, Jimin is standing. Eyes darting across the underbrush that surrounds the treeline. You follow his vision, squinting slightly to try and make out exactly what he is looking at when two antennae pop over the other side of a bush. Twitching, pointing in your direction. Hunting down food as they move closer.
The insect moves close, tilting his head as he finally moves within your line of vision. Mop of brown floppy hair on his head, wide bunny eyes. Twitching nose all the same. If it wasnât for the lack of ears and black antennae jolting from his head, you wouldâve thought he was a rodent.
âKook!â Jiminâs voice is loud as he quickly runâs to meet the boy. The other looks just as excited, eyes lighting up with stars as his legs take off in the same direction. The two fall into a puddle of laughter and play fighting as they fall to the ground in greeting.
The infamous Jungkook, an ant hybridâ the biggest ant hybrid youâve seen, mind you. Jiminâs best friend is finally revealed. And you have to say, seeing them together. Watching as your mate attempts to playfully tie him up silks has to be the prettiest sight youâve ever laid eyes on.
âOh my god, Min!â You laugh as Jimin struggles, the giant ant hybrid easily breaking free from the others strings. Instantly the attention is on you. Jimin leaning back to his heels, head thrown back as he whines.
âShut up! Heâs gotten stronger! My webs hold you good enough!â You continue to laugh, unaware of the ant sneaking closer. His antenna tickling your shoulder as he stares at the food in front of you. Begging for just a little taste to bring home to his colony, a little bit to make the queen happy.
You happily oblige, making room for the two of them to join you once again after their little scuffle. A reunion too cute to not try and remember forever. And just like that, conversation begins to flow easily between the three of you. Almost as if Jimin never left in the first place.
The two of them spend all afternoon catching upâ Jimin reciting the story of how you two met, Jungkook opening up about the cute human thatâs started to come by the park every saturday. Pulling his antennae down as he speaks, clearly embarrassed. Telling you all about how they met, about the reserve.
âAh~ donât mind him. Kookieâs just embarrassed cause he doesnât know how to talk to girls.â Jimin teases, leaning over to ruffle Jungkookâs hair. His arm tightly wrapped around your frame, holding you close. âNot every day that an ant hybrid has a mate outside of their colony, you know?â
âHyung! Shut up!â He quickly whines, eyes shooting a subtle glare towards the other. Legs kicking slightly underneath his frame. âYou⊠know what it means⊠especially cause sheâs humanâŠâ
âI know.â His fangs shimmer as his hand reaches out to ruffle his hair, âDonât worry. Sheâll wanna be your queen in no time.â
You nod your head in agreement, picking up another piece of fruit and popping it into your mouth. Nothing much to add to the conversationâ youâll never really understand the intricacy of hybrids and how they work. Especially those like Jungkook and Jimin.
Yet, you canât help but feel at peace with that. At peace with them and this moment. Content with your life, content with your mate and the life youâve built together. You hope that Jungkook can do the same with his own someday. Build a nice little colony or whatever it is that ants do.
âMhmm, anyone would want someone as cute as you.â You smile, watching as the antâs eyes go wide. Blush covering his cheek as he tries to pull his antenna down to cover them. Jimin instantly pounces on the other, starting a new round of play fighting. Laughing about having to defend his mates honour. That she isnât allowed to look at any other hybrid. No one but him.
You giggle along with them, leaning back from your spot. Taking a mental picture of the scene in front of you. Jimin happy, playing. The sunset over the horizon as the three of you laugh in the woods. As Jimin no longer looks anything like that spider all those months ago.
And maybe heâs right. Maybe you did fall into his trap lined with silk. But you wouldnât have it any other way.
Even when you wake up in the middle of the woods. When you wake up in a cabin decorated in pretty webbing. When you come to find society is far behind you. When you discover no one else other than Jimin telling you that this is exactly what you asked for.
You wouldnât have it any other way.
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FLOWER PRAK đž BTS X F!READER SMAU
Summary: You thank them for flowers they didn't send
Includes: BTS 7
Requests: Open
A/N: This is my first ever Smau so like be nice theyll get better eventually:(
JIN:
RM:
JHOPE:
SUGA:
JIMIN:
V:
JUNGKOOK:
In Heat! 4/7
They're in heat, and you smell so hot...
Warning: 18+ smut, noncon, hybrid!bts, snake-hybrid!jimin x human!reader, dark yandere, Jimin is a stalker, and kinda a psycho, corruption, somnophilia, biting, paralysis, technically its not tentacles but I meannnn đ lemme just warn you in advance YOU CAN'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU, Jimin has two penises because snake???
Slithering, he moves closer.
The snake watches as you sleep, inching towards your bed. He lifts his head up, tilting it curiously towards your outstretched arm, right by your hand lying over the edge of your bed as you sleep peacefully. The snake hybrid moves closer, slithering back and forth, left and right until he's wrapped himself around your slender fingers, closer, closer, around your wrist, forked tongue licking the faint outline of the vein in your arm, he's so tempted to pierce his fangs into you.
He slithers under your blanket, into your sheets, moving across your body as you shift in your slumber.
His cold snake form enjoys the warmth of your bed, of your heat. He moves across your thighs, curiously exploring his surroundings, over and under, until he settles himself right under your night shirt, in between your breasts, resting his head on your clavicle.
As you breathe in, he moves slowly across your chest, until he's comfortably wrapped around you and satisfied.
The snake hybrid has done this every night since he first met you, getting comfortable with your body, learning what you like most.
It is your luck, or perhaps your unluck that he's patient and enjoys the slow exploration into your world.
---
"Hey Jimin."
"Hey, y/n."
Your neighbor smiles wide, holding the door to your apartment building open. "Let me help."
"Oh! Thank you!" you stumble into him as he lifts the heavy weight in your hands, taking your grocery bags.
You stutter out your apologies as your body knocks into his frame clumsily. Jimin laughs heartily, only making you fluster even more.
Ever since you've moved into this area, your new neighbor has been so helpful and kind to you. Yet however many times it's been now, his attention continues to make your legs buckle.
What is it about your next door neighbor Jimin that makes you a stuttering mess? Is it his charming smile? His silky voice? His beautiful features? The way he steadies you with the softest touch while he manages to hold your bags easily?
He's just so...perfect.
"You okay?" He looks towards you, a smile curling up at the way you stare at him entranced.
"Huh? What? Yes, right, I'm f-fine," you stutter, jumping into action and rushing towards the elevator.
You stand in awkward silence as the elevator doors close. "Let me help," you felt bad having Jimin carry all your groceries. You try to grab at least a couple bags to lessen his load, but Jimin moves gracefully to the side and out of your reach, tsking.
"It'ss okay, I'm stronger than I look," he teases.
"You look strong. I think you look strong! I mean, you are strong, thatâs obvious..." you laugh nervously.
âObviousss?â His smile widens. âYou have to pussh the floor number.â
âRight!â You press it a couple times out of your nervousness.
What is wrong with you? Why do you always have to embarrass yourself in front of Jimin? Why must you always act so stupid in front of your crushes?
Ever since you were a kid it's been like this, you would have hoped with age you would have gained some wisdom on the matter, and you had gotten better at overcoming your awkwardness, but there's something about your neighbor that makes you so jittery, makes your heart race and palms sweat and your body react in the most mortifying ways...
You wipe your forehead, looking away as the elevator rises higher and higher. It's hot in here, isn't it? It's stuffy. You're sweating like you're under the sun when you're only under Jimin's gaze. You fear you might even pass out if he keeps looking at you like that.
Ding.
You rush forward, pulling out your keys and racing to your apartment door. "Thank y-you-" Jimin walks in, right into the kitchen and sets the bags on the counter. "You don't have to do that!" But Jimin is already opening your fridge and putting away your groceries for you.
"Sssoooo...what are you making for dinner?" he asks.
"Oh! I was thinking pasta?" You grab one of the tomato cans before he puts it away, smiling shyly. Jimin shuffles closer to you, reaching behind you to open the cabinet and putting your coffee away on the highest shelf.
You try to move away to give him space, but you're trapped against his body, trying unsuccessfully to steady your heartrate the closer he moves.
"I looove passta!" he chirps in his soft melodious voice so suited to him, enthralling like everything else about him. He is seemingly unaware of the affect of his body pressing up against yours as he moves the pantry food around to better organize your cans.
"I'll make extra and bring you some! If you wanted me to, I mean."
You wait, unable to decide if this sweet torture is worth it. Sure, you have Jimin so close you can smell him, the muscles of his body rubbing against you with each movement, but the ache of his presence was almost too much to bear.
For the second time today you fear you might pass out as you pretend not to be wholly besotted by your naive neighbor.
Once he's done, instead of moving away, Jimin rests his hands on the counter behind you, caging you in and escalating your heartrate even more.
"Okay, but this time, you have to eat with me, promise?"
"Eat with you?" you repeat, "Eat dinner together?"
"Yess! Y/n! C'mon, you never eat with me," he whines, moving forward so close you have to lean backward, too shy to get any closer, your head knocking into the cabinet door in the process.
The idea of getting ready to eat dinner with Jimin seems like an impossible feat. The last time you agreed you took so long trying to find the perfect dress, redoing your make up over and over again that dinner time had long passed, and you pathetically packed his food and left it on his doorstep, hiding away in shame.
"Okay, yeah...yes!"
"Promise me."
"I promise!"
He smiles wide and wraps his arms around you, hugging you tightly. "You're the beessst, y/n!"
Dinner with Jimin was perfect, just like him. He came over instead, probably worried you were going to stand him up again, and surprised you with flowers from his favorite garden. It felt like a date, was this a date? It didn't feel real, it felt like a dream.
A dream that turned into a nightmare.
---
"Y/n? What happened?!" Jimin opened the door, pulling you into his apartment.
You tried to stop crying, but you were a blubbering mess. Yet somehow you were able to explain to him what had happened to you.
There was a snake in your house! The largest snake you've ever seen. You couldn't stop shaking. Snakes terrified you, and to wake up and have one...in your bed...
You were frozen in fright, unable to do anything while it moved and constricted around your body. You don't know how long it had been, the minutes stretched to hours, and you couldn't do anything but lie there while it slithered on top of you! Under your clothes! It tightened around your stomach every time you tried to escape, making you terrified you were going to die if you moved too much.
Jimin held you delicately until you calmed down, then he made some tea for you. "Are you hurt?"
"The snake..." You couldn't explain everything to him, it was too shameful. You just nod, unable to speak, pushing the edge of your left short leg up slightly to show Jimin.
Jimin looked down at the rope-like bruise across your thigh, chest tightening at the sight.
He took a deep breath, calming himself down.
"Do you want to sleep here tonight? And I can check your apartment in the morning."
You nod again, covering your face before tears escape once more. Jimin wouldn't let you sleep on the couch, offering you his bed instead.
You tried to rest, but your dreams were consumed with snakes. Horrible slimey snakes. You dreamed you were in a pit full of them, slithering over you like that snake had done. You woke up crying again.
It had felt so real...
"Well, he's gone now," Jimin sighed after looking through our apartment one last time.
"What if it comes back?" you mutter, eyes tearing up, worried he didn't really believe you, you barely could believe what happened yourself. "Jimin...I'm scared."
"Do you want me to stay with you?"
Your sweet next door neighbor Jimin spent the night.
He wouldn't let you sleep on the couch, and you couldn't let him either, so you shared the bed. Even if your heart was jumping to have him so close to you, it felt comforting to have Jimin in your bedroom, you didn't want to be alone at all.
Jimin reached for you in his sleep and you were able to finally shut your eyes, letting his embrace lull you to sleep.
Jimin watched your chest rise and fall as you slept in his arms. His finger ran along your collar bone, trailing down, between your breasts, over your belly button, stopping when his fingertip hit the fabric of your shorts.
He pushed the band down, revealing a bit of your skin, humming delightfully at the sight.
'So soft,' he thinks. He felt bad for you, you were so terrified, even now he could tell you were afraid, he could smell your fear...
Even if your fear smelled sweet, he didn't want you to be afraid...
Jimin dipped his fingers under the band of your shorts, lower and lower until he could feel wetness.
Jimin held his breath, biting his lip.
He can't help but smile, to feel you so wet.
He resists pressing inside, happy to feel you shudder as he runs his digit left and right across your mound, softly, slowly.
And like always, the slow rubbing heated you from within, until you were gushing, shaking, whimpering from Jimin's touches.
---
Jimin didn't like when you were gone, but he could explore and learn more about you in your absence. He looked through your photo albums, took note of your favorite music, went through your closet and found the clothes you were too shy to wear yet bought on a whim. He went through your drawers, picked out his favorite panties and placed them on the top of your pile in hopes you would choose to wear the pair for tonight.
He took his time going through every corner of your bedroom, until he heard the door to your apartment open.
You sigh, undoing the buttons of your blouse, pulling the tight fabric off you, and pulling off your bra, heading for the bathroom. Work was stressful today, you need a nice long bath first and then you'll invite Jimin over to watch a movie.
Your smiled, thinking of him.
Jimin and you had gotten so close now, and even though you knew he was just being nice, it felt like maybe he was starting to think of you as more than just a neighbor. At least you hoped. It was what you longed for, cuddled into his embrace on nights alone together. And you were hoping tonight maybe his soft touches would become something more. Maybe, maybe, tonight Jimin will kiss you.
You texted him your plans and relaxed into the warm bath. The hot water felt so good on your tired muscles and you felt yourself drifting asleepâŠ
You woke up suddenly.
The water was cold now, your neck ached. You stretched and sat up.
And then you screamed.
Over the edge of the tub, the head of a large snake peered up at you, forked tongue poking out.
You reached for your cell and knocked it over onto the floor as the snake slithered curiously closer.
Should you scream for Jimin? He was right next door, but would he hear you? Was he even home?
You jump up, backed into the farthest corner away when the snake plops itself into the water. But before you can escape it slithers quickly around your ankle and you panic, falling over and banging your head-
You groan as you stir awake. The tub was only half full of water now, and you shivered wet and cold, realizing your predicament.
The snake was wound tightly around the lower half of your body, and tighter around your wrists, your arms stuck under you as you kicked and splashed.
This is not real, this is not real. It's all you could tell yourself, all you could hope for.
You had almost believed that night was a lie, a horrible apparition when it never returned.
Jimin and you had taken turns sleeping over at each other's places until you were comfortable enough to sleep on your own. Yet at that point, Jimin was always over, never leaving your side, so even when you had those bad dreams, you woke to him beside you and never worried.
But tonight you were all alone, reliving your nightmare.
You began to cry.
The water made it easier for the snake to slither itâs body around, it seemed quicker, it seemed rougher.
You trembled, in cold and in fright. You shivered. You wept, unable to lift yourself out of your tub.
You whimpered, please, please, please, please, repeating the phrase, unable to articulate anything more.
The snake moved up higher around your wet body. It's head was now right above yours and you finally found your voice and screamed.
You screamed for Jimin.
The snake hissed and wrapped around your neck, silencing you almost instantly.
You couldn't move.
You couldn't scream.
You couldn't call for help.
You could barely breathe, but at least you could still do that.
The snake had you caught.
It was wrapped around you like a rope, like it knew exactly where to place it's body so you couldn't escape. And it was tightening around you, around your wrists, around your stomach, around your legsâŠ
---
Jimin wished you would just love him!
Of course he treasured those moments when you would embrace his human form, of course.
But why couldn't you love all sides of him! The real him!
He had watched you so longingly from his garden when you moved to the city. When you would visit and watch the flowers, he watched you. You were more beautiful to gaze upon, you were like a flower to him, just bloomed and unfurling in front of him. He picked you, you were going to be his.
But you screamed when you noticed him in the rose bushes, leaving before he even introduced himself!
So he had to find another way, a better way. Something about you, there was something about you that changed...altered something in him, like a chemical reaction. He changed for you, because he loved you. He changed so you could love him.
He found you cute, the way you would react to his human form like a timid mouse.
It delighted him, the way he could entrance you. Jimin was always very skilled in charming his conquests.
When you were asleep, you were such a sweet treat for him, he could gaze upon your whimpering face all night, embrace you in his favorite way, run his whole body along your curves and watch you unfurl again and again, his own beautiful flower, he only wished to pluck your petals until you loved him.
But you loved him not.
Then after he had finally slithered his way into your day to day life using his human form, he began to feel more confident. After such a successful dinner date he visited you that night again. He rested his head against your heart and tightened himself around you, the urge to get closer to you overwhelming him. Jimin had woken you up, and your fear was another overwhelming.
Jimin tried to calm you, do all the things he knew you liked, slowly and steady tickle your body until you were shuddering, until you were tightening your legs around him.
Yet you only looked more horrified after, so Jimin sulked away. But you went to him once again, found comfort in him, and it only confirmed what Jimin already believed, that you were meant for him.
Jimin enjoyed you, pleasured you, treasured his time with you, but he knew it could be better than this. You just needed to accept him.
If you could just love him how he loved you, everything would be perfect, it would be sssssssooo much better.
---
Your muscles ached, you were starting to feel the coldness travel into your nose and in the back of your throat, you started to feel sick.
Jimin followed the familar track along your slick body again and again, touching every part of you.
You grunted tiredly. You couldn't do it again.
You knew what this terror seemed to want from you, the way it slithered in between your legs over and over again. The very first time, that night long ago, you had thought it was a freak accident, something so shameful for you to have reacted in such a way, something wrong with you. But no, it was the wish of this monster wrapped around you, controlling you.
You had no way to escape, you had no way to hold it inside, you couldn't ignore the rolling pressure against your most sensitive parts, the rubbing across your clit nonstop and precise, the kneading of your flesh, the way your breasts were pressed together, how it tightened around each one, torturing you until the friction against your core became too much and you writhed along. It kept going, even when you thought you couldn't any longer, you somehow came harder.
But now you really really couldn't, you felt yourself slipping away, exhausted, your temperature dropping.
You whispered meekly, "No more. I can't. Please." Before darkness settled in.
---
"Jimin?" Your voice was hoarse from the pressure around your throat for so long. You tried to sit up, but you couldn't. Your muscles were too tired, and the way your neighbor had his body wrapped around yours, you couldn't have moved anyways.
Jimin sighed, relaxing more against you. "You're finally awake."
"What...what happened...there was...the snake...help..."
Jimin had received your last invitation to come over just before he was about to slither away back home. Listening to the soft rumbling of water as you started your bath while he was hidden away in the darkness of your bedroom peaked his curiosity. He decided to go to you then, he decided it was the perfect time. "It'sss okay, don't worry. I'm here now, and I'll never leave you."
You grunt, dizzy, looking around, you notice the familiar bedroom was Jimin's instead.
"Wait."
Jimin sighs lazily.
You're dry now, but your clothes...
And Jimin's clothes, where are his clothes?
Jimin feels you tense in his embrace, he shushes you softly, nose nudging your neck as he kisses your shoulder.
"I don't understand." You want to cry. "What's happening?" you ask him.
Jimin lifted his head, staring down at you, at your lips. And he slowly lowered his head again, softly kissing you.
For so long you had wanted this, you had longed for a kiss from your beautiful next door neighbor Jimin.
His lips were just as soft as you imaginedâŠbut they were cold.
Jimin deepened the kiss, licking across your mouth and forcing you open. His tongue roamed your mouth, invading inside and stealing your air. It felt like his tongue never ended, filling your mouth and down your throat until you begin to gag.
You cried against his lips.
"Sssssshhhhhh."
Jimin cradled the back of your head, he didn't want to do this, but it was the only way! Eventually, you'll learn to accept him. This time, to make things easier, he will indulge in his primal instincts, since it's been so long since he's used his fangs anyways.
They were part of him, meant to be used, so you should accept them too!
You whimpered as he opened his mouth wide and you saw the length of his teeth. Jimin mouth clamped down on your throat, right under your ear, fangs piercing deep into your skin. The pain was quick and then it was gone, and you felt no pain as his venom coursed through you. You felt nothing at all actually, you couldn't move.
Jimin's venom had paralyzed you.
Your breathing slowed down, you were no longer hyperventilating.
Jimin smile brightened, his fangs now showing, his long forked tongue darting in and out reminding you of...
No no no no!
"Oh y/n, you're sssooo beautiful." He pulls the sheet away from your body to admire your curves, the marks of his constricting love across your skin.
Jimin wanted to claim all of you, and in his human form he could do even more to you.
He pulled your leg open, frowning when he touched your center. You were usually wet. He smirked as he moved your leg open wider. This time, he wanted to try something new just for you.
Jimin settled between your legs, pulling you to his mouth.
You felt his slippery tongue enter you, going deeper than even his fingers. You let out a shuddering breath. Jimin hummed happily, lapping your growing wetness up. You couldn't tighten around him, but that was okay, his venom would began to wear off eventually, and you would be able to clench around his tongue soon enough, you would be able to moan out his name.
Jimin had been too eager and given you too much venom, now he knew and could give you the appropriate amount to calm you down just enough next time. For now he could enjoy you as much as he wanted, Jimin had all the time in the world and the patience of a saint.
The patience of a saint, and the tongue of a devil. What kind of twisted nirvana had you found yourself in?
This was a different kind of torture, Jimin putting you right on the precipice of orgasm and you unable to climax. Tears began to fill your eyes as he continued to wiggle his tongue around your insides for hours, massaging you until you were begging, screaming in your mind to come. Jimin happily continued as you gushed more wetness for him to lick up, until finally your muscles deep inside started to tense as the pressure built.
You let out a quiet broken moan as you clenched over and over around Jimin's tongue.
Jimin's tongue finally slithered out of you, and you finally met his gaze, his face glistening with your wetness and his eyes sparkling down at you.
"Oh, you're sssssoooo fucking perfect." Jimin groaned as he slipped his cock in easily.
You inhaled sharply when you felt another pressure further down, against your second hole. He pulled away, watching with glee as the sudden realization washed over you like cold water, because you realize the snake hybrid had a second cock. He pumped both cocks in his hands, both thick and long and intimidating.
He pressed into your slick again with the head of his first cock. You tried to plead with him with your eyes, but he looked back excitedly, rubbing his second cock against your hole, ecstatic to feel your body wrapped around him another way. He smiled wickedly, features shinning so beautifully your mind reeled and you wished to cry out in frustration.
Your slick helped as his other cock pierced into you, Jimin now inside both your holes. He settled down on top of you with a deep groan. He kissed you, tongue prodding to make a point, that you were his inside and out, and there was no place he wouldnât reach.
He was so long you didn't believe he could fit himself all the way in, but Jimin was determined to mold you to him, his skilled hips rolling against your sex, pressing himself in deeper and deeper, and though you couldn't voice your grievances, his venom thankfully dulled the pain at the very least as you grunted the softest whine.
"Yesssssss, fuck yesssssssss." Jimin was lost inside you, feeling the most euphoria he's ever felt in his human form. "Ssssssoo fucking good."
Jimin hugged you tight, pistoning into your heat, faster and faster, both cocks growing thicker and thicker until he burst. You eyes rolled back, you were fuller than you've felt before, the tightness was overwhelming. He used you, fucked you and made sure to stay secure and suffocatingly tight around you as his long cocks throbbed and filled your cunt and ass full of his cum.
You were still paralyzed when he dismounted, kissed you and transformed back.
You were still paralyzed when he wrapped his snake form around your neck and shoulders and fell asleep across your chest.
Thankfully, you were still paralyzed, because who knows what Jimin would have done if you had started screaming.
this took such a turn IDK WHAT HAPPENED I mean I hope you liked it, hopefully I left the appropriate amount of warnings cause a whole lotta shit went down t-t KNJ | KSJ | MYG | JHS | PJM | KTH | JJK | BTS