Comeback From Mental Health Isssues

Comeback from Mental Health Isssues

I know I haven't been updating for the past few months, and I just wanted to say that I've been having some problems lately. I've started school again, but a little bit before that, I started to care about thing less and less. Even before that, I've always kind of put things to the side and said, "eh, no matter," but it's started to get worse. It started from me not updating on the blog for 2 weeks because I had started not to care about it, to neglecting my grades in school because I didn't care about it, to neglecting my own physical and mental needs because I just don't care.

I think that it had become a very unhealthy coping mechanism for me, but I've always kind of been like that ever since I was young. I say "I don't care anymore" to the point where I acctually cause myself to not care anymore. Thank God though because my parents and friends had really been noticing my behaviour and really trying to get through to me. Now I won't go into detail about everything that's been going on, but I am a little bit better. I hope to be creating more and more content now because honestly, it makes me pretty happy to do for myslef as well.

I also wanted to mention that I have a lot of catching up to do on all the fics and thirsts i said I was going to finish. I'll get them done soon :)

omg sorry for not being active for a while, my computer hasn't been working for a while(I lost my charger) so I haven't been able to make as many thirsts as I would like to😭

But no worries, I'm back and will be posting more thirsts

Also, I'm still working on Satan fic!

I'm working on a transformers fic right now(featuring Rodimus🤭) and before that I remembered to update my fandoms and masterlist to add transformers to it.

There are literally so many transformers characters because there are so many continuities, shows, cartoons, comics, that its so damn hard to include that characters I write for and which ones I don't. Shows like TFP are easy because the cast is a regular size but the IDW comics, which I'll be writing from the most, has so many characters in it and I barely know half of them</3

I regret this shit so much

I'm going through my reblogs, likes, people I'm following and I found out something I never realized. When it comes to tokyo revengers, I never knew that not all the characters were in the timeskip. I thought everyone survived to adulthood and that people were writing smut of them as adults.

BUT I WAS WRONG. people were literally writing fics about BAJI. The bitch who died as 14 year old. People even use the younger versions of the characters to make smut with. I am literally so disgusted that I'm trying to unfollow everyone who did that nasty stuff :(

Warnings: gn reader, dom/top reader, sub/bottom ayato, masochistic ayato, degradation, spanking, choking

Word count: 979

Just imagine, Ayato teasing you as he works

"Accidentally" brushing up against your crotch when standing next to each other. "Accidentally" rubbing himself against you when walking past you. "Accidentally" grabbing your hand and rubbing it on his crotch--Okay, he isn't even trying to hide it anymore. And it doesn't get any better whenever the two of you are alone.

One time when Ayato was doing his paperwork and got horny again, he started off with the light and subtle touches like he always did. As always, they started to get more and more close to sensual and suggestive touches . It was then that you realized that something about him was...different.

While he was touching you or doing his work(which he was barely even doing), you noticed that his breathing was getting heavier or his face would get pretty red at sometimes. Whenever you would tease Ayato back, he would jump a bit as the blush on his face spread wider.

Now of course, you knew that something was up.

While you didn't know exactly what was going on, you could tell that Ayato was fidgety to to some form of pleasure. So like normal, you'll find out what's going. "Hey, Ayato, stand up real quick," you tell him. "I want to check something."

When he's standing, a confused look on his face, you suddenly grab his dick through his clothes, a loud yelp coming out of Ayato's mouth. Since you didn't feel anything there, you quickly felt up his ass, pushing your fingers towards his hole.

There it was! A buttplug!

Before Ayato could complain, you began pressing down harshly on the plug, causing him to let out a long whine as he grabbed onto your clothes. That's when you realized, Ayato had a small controller hidden inside his hand. So not only did he keep a buttplug inside of him, but a vibrating one and would turn it on from time to time.

Ayato was still clinging on to you as you kept prodding at the plug in his hole. Before he could speak up, you stopped touching him and told him to give you the remote he had in his hand. Being the natural brat he is, Ayato just smirked at you, asking what you would do if he refused. Pissed off, you grabbed his jaw harshly, forcing him to look at you. Ayato let out a needy moan at your behavior, causing you to roll your eyes

Asking once again in a not-so-kind tone, Ayato finally gave up the vibrator, his fidgeting motions coming back as he anticipated what was going to come next. You forcefully bend Ayato over his desk, earning a gasp from him. Quickly, you pull down his pants to reveal a purple plug inside of his ass.

"Now dear, I want you to count to 10 for me. Every slap counts as one. If you mess up I'll start over," you say, getting your hands ready. Ayato nods, shivering in anticipation. He loved being spanked. A little too much. But what he didn't know was that you weren't only planning on spanking him.

As Ayato prepared himself for your harsh blows, you turned on the vibrating plug in his ass to a high setting. Ayato's eyes widened as a string of moans left his mouth, not at all expecting the pleasure he was experiencing. While he was distracted, you planted a firm slap on his ass

*SMACK*

Ayato let out a loud, sultry moan as he felt the sharp pain on his ass, the vibrator only aiding his feelings of pleasure

But he didn't count.

"Ayato, dear, what did I say?"

"T-to--ahn! To count for every slap!", his words were interrupted by a moan from the plug still acting up inside of him.

"Okay then. Let's start all over again"

*SMACK*

Your hand cracked down on him again with no warning.

"O-one! Mhnn..."

"*SMACK*

"HyaaAHH! TwooO!"

*SMACK*

*SMACK*

"UnnNGH! OH--T-three! F-f-four, hahh,"

Ayato was beginning to lose his reasoning despite only being on his fouth spanking, but the spanking plus the vibrator in his ass were making his mind swirl with dangerous thoughts.

Every slap had his eyes crossing, a little drool coming out of his mouth as he couldn't keep his lewd mout shut. The slaps had him convulsing everytime; he felt like his nerves were on fire!

*SMACK*

That was the last spanking that Ayato could take

"O-OHH♡♡ HAHHNGH♡ Y-Y/N! CUMMING♡"

Ayato came with a loud cry, eyes rolling into the back of his head as he rutted against the table, milking every last bit of cum out of his useless dick

You just stand there, looking at Ayato with disappointment and disgust as he continued to whine as he rides out his orgasm

When he finally quiets down, he makes a feeble attempt at an apology but is quickly cut off by you grabbing him by the throat. You pull him up pressing your chest against his back. Ayato grabs at your hands because of the pressure on his throat, only causing you to tighten your grip.

"You know, Ayato. You just made me really angry. You came while I was punishing you? I never took you for such an eager whore." Ayato let out a choked whine at your words and your unforgiving grip on his throat. His eyes began to roll back into his head as black spots began dancing in front of his eyes, a small grin forming on his face.

"Look at you dear. You're even smiling, like the masochist you are. Don't worry though, I love playing with little sluts like you." Ayato finds himself cumming again from your name-calling and the crushing feeling on his throat. Ayato couldn't even think properly! All he knew that he belonged to you, and was your masochistic whore that loves any kind of pleasure or pain you make him feel♡