Nd-babblinggoblinfromthevoid - I Don't Even Know...

This! When I was young and home-hopping I got harped on for getting things that weren't a survival necessity. But for me it was a necessity, of a different kind. My heart and brain needed the comfort, the hope, of said item(s) and without them I probably would have lost all hope, thrown away what little I had, and spiraled downward into oblivion. Whether it be a small trinket, a special drink or treat on occasion, etc. It was needed. Or I'd have fallen into more despair than I already was in.

During the most poor and homeless period of my life, I had a lot of people get angry with me because I spent $25 on Bath and Body Works candles during a sale. They couldn’t comprehend why the hell I would do that when I had been fighting for months to try and get us on our feet, afford food, and have an apartment to live in.

Those candles were placed beside wherever I slept that night. In the morning, I would move them and set them wherever I’d have to hang out. At one point I carried one around in my purse - one of those big honking 3-wick candles. I never lit them, but I’d open them and smell them a lot.

I credit that purchase with a lot of my drive that got me to where I am today. I had been working tirelessly, 15+ hour days with barely any reward, constantly on the phone or trying to deal with organizations and associations to “get help at”. It’d gone on for almost a year by the end of it, and I was so burnt out, to the point that I would shake 24/7. But I could get a bit of relief from my 3-wick “upper middle class lifestyle” candles. They represented my future goals, my home I wanted to decorate, and how I would one day not be in this mess anymore.

When we moved into the apartment, and our financial status improved, I burned those candles every single day. When they were empty, I cleaned them out, stuck labels on them, and they became the starting point of my really cute organization system I had ALWAYS planned to have.

So whenever I hear about someone very poor getting themselves a treat - maybe it’s Starbucks, maybe it’s a home deco item, maybe it’s a video game… I don’t judge them. I get it. I get that you can’t go without anything for that long without it making you go crazy. You need to pull some joy, inspiration, and motivation from somewhere.

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I CANNOT

But also

I had to know what would come up and

this gif is like... almost biblical. as if hes experiencing a pharaohs curse...

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Update I got my fan working again but who knows how long that's going to last 🫠

I ran out of my bedside emergency snacks and now I'm lying in bed dizzy and starving also my fan broke so now I'm overheating - is this it is this how I end