#we're All Gay

#we're all gay

The Fall

I drew this self portrait sooo long ago what a throwback

Electric

this is why my blog feels so safe to me tbh

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

by supervising director Ryann Shannon

“I’ve been directing on AT: Fionna & Cake for over a year now and i’m so bummed to be rolling off such a beautiful project in a few weeks. (hit me up if you need a director/supe/writer in 2023!)”