My Default State Is Apathy. When I Get Under-stimulated, I Will Do Anything To Feel Anything.

My default state is apathy. When I get under-stimulated, I will do anything to feel anything.

Best case scenario is having a personally interesting conversation to feel intrigued. Worst case scenario is deliberately putting myself in a dangerous situation to feel angry or amused.

Understanding that now makes me so frustrated with the adults, who I asked to entertain me, who I told I was bored, and who dismissed me.

I hurt myself and others because the adults in my life couldn’t be bothered to entertain a young kid. It’s my duty to accept responsibility (and more so the older I get) but I wasn’t given a chance.

how would yikes be a question... yikes because you're flexing abt being a nasty person.

Yeah I'm a really nasty person. I cuddle my dog and comfort people when they're sad and everything. It was my friend's birthday a few days ago and I (being the horrific person I am) sent them a happy birthday message and told them they were awesome. Clearly malicious of me.

Thoughts and desires don't equal actions. I'm in therapy trying to be a better person to myself and to others. I've stood up for a lot more people and been a lot more understanding of others than so called non-nasty people who just think about being kind and never actually do it.

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your first column of emojis describes your personality! what’s yours?

I don’t know who needs to hear this but indirect racism is still racism.

Just because you aren’t yelling slurs at someone doesn’t mean you aren’t committing microaggressions or doing overt generalised racist things.

damn you evil fr

Thank you :)

Open tag :)

cute thing im coming up with

this picrew of yourself and your current hyperfixation !!

no pressure tags @pearlzier @julesssyy @reidsfavoritegirl @whitney23317 @willowsblanket @flowercrownsandtrauma @rottenletter