I Ain't Gonna Tell People Anything Anymore. I Can Sense When I Try To Share Things About My Past Or What

I ain't gonna tell people anything anymore. I can sense when I try to share things about my past or what hurts/bothers me they start to act weird. Like why are they immediately count it as if "you're just trying to make them feel sorry for you" or something like that? Look, I just want you to know why I am the way I am and how do I feel. Why is it so wrong to wanting to open up? Why do they have to make it feel like you're doing a crime with that? Like, yes I have emotions. I don't share stuff like that to, just anyone anyway

When you're having bad thoughts and feelings and they listen to you, giving you reassurance, checking up on you during the day just to do something to cheer you up and push you out of that state even if just for a little while, people like that are so rare and so important. Like, they actually care and most importantly, they try and put in effort, just for YOU.

It's good to know people like that still exist.

And I appreciate that more than anything. Even if it only happens every once in a while.

It's so painful to see that people that you had happy/fun times with are slowly leaving you behind and you know there's nothing you can do, but live with the thought. Now you're left with feeling unwanted, that after a long time the place you thought, you finally belonged to, turns out that you're not really belong there.

yeah, sometimes they may see me as being cold, but in reality I'm just unspeakably sad, hurt and dealing with feelings...

and honestly, why should I say it, when they either judge or don't take me seriously and just saying "it's all in your head, snap out of it" like my feelings wouldn't be valid and with that, pushing me more into this state?

they never acknowledge or notice that.

No wonder why I always feel like I constantly have to protect myself and shut myself down. It's so damn exhausting.

those little piece of kind words and actions just mean a lot. It's just make me smile, even on a bad day

maybe it's just me and just stupid, but when I'm in a bad state I lowkey just wanna hide from the world and I really don't wanna be seen