Hello, Dearest Readers,

Hello, dearest readers,

Thank you for your continued support.

I am still in the hospital because of a few things.

My kidneys are not doing well (but very slowly improving) because of the antibiotics I was on to clear up the sepsis.

Apparently, those two meds are great for infections but highly toxic, and now I have a minor/moderate kidney injury.

My original Hospitalist Doctor, who was off for a couple of days, has returned.

She found out that I can’t leave the hospital because they are still fighting about wound care.

We thought I had been accepted into Valley Presbyterian Hospital for daily wound care, but they will not let me start until September.

So now they are trying to find somewhere to go for wound care that the insurance will cover between now and September.

My insurance is fighting it because they don’t want to cover anywhere.

So even if my kidneys are good to go, I can’t go anywhere.

I still have major brain fog and what not which the doctor says may take a while to get over since when she first saw me I was “one foot in the grave,” and I need to give myself a break.

To be perfectly honest, I am getting clearer every day but exhausted easily.

So we will see.

I am not giving up on you guys or my love for writing anytime soon!

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↳ Index [Day 15 - Loss of Virginity]

Pairing: Virgin!Jungkook x soft Domme!Reader

Kinks: anal fingering, gentle male anal, anal dildo, tears, body worship, praise, good boy kink, Missionary to Doggy, this is really sensual

Wordcount: 5.1k

a/n: y’all wanted anal virgin!kook, so i am here delivering the goods. he is so cute istg i wanna protect him :( i also wanna state that i listened to romantic music whilst writing this, so excuse the absolute fluff fest in the beginning ❤

Jungkook is not the adventurous type. He likes the comfort of familiarity and the safety of the known. Adventures bring risks with them. They bring situations he didn’t overthink a hundred times, situations he didn’t mentally prepare for and outcomes he wasn’t ready for.

Quite frankly, he still doesn’t quite understand how he was able to take on the adventure of being your boyfriend because he never even imagined that someone as awesome and amazing and cool as you could like someone as boring and weird as him. But apparently you did. You liked someone like him so very much that last Christmas you asked him to be your boyfriend and the rest is sweet history.

But being with you didn’t change the fact that Jungkook was never adventurous and therefore never accustomed the great knowledge about the scary topic sex like you did. Sex was always a terribly intimidating topic to him. Sex brings situations he didn’t overthink a hundred times, situations he mentally didn’t prepare for and bodily sensations he wasn’t ready for and had no idea how to react to.

You were entirely different. Younger than him by just a few months, but still so much more knowledgeable and experienced than him. Jungkook thought that you were the bravest person he ever met, because of how many stories you told him. You told him that kissing is actually really nice and that it won’t end in him having his lips bitten off. You were joking, but for a short while Jungkook worried greatly that his lips will be bitten off until you kissed him gently and showed him that the adventure wasn’t at all scary to take. You also told him that being naked with each other doesn’t always have to be sexy and that touching skins won’t instantly end in him getting you pregnant. Jungkook then proceeded to be your little spoon as you cuddled naked and he liked it so very much that he cried a little. They were happy tears, but also tears of pride because he managed to go on another adventure he always thought himself too cowardice to take.

You also told him that sex can feel really, really nice and that stuff like falling off dicks, twisted balls or ripped open vaginas (yes Jungkook was very creative in his fears) won’t happen if you were being careful and gentle. You then proceeded to take his virginity in the backseat of his car after a movie date and Jungkook didn’t want to let go of you for the rest of the night because he realised that he loved you like he never loved a person before.

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Wild & Free (Teaser)

Min Yoongi x Reader

Summary: Everybody says they want to marry Min Yoongi. But what if he only wants to say 'yes' to you.

Alternatively: While on the last leg of their PTD tour, Yoongi discovers there was such a thing as drive-thru weddings in Vegas, something that his pretty little brain can't seem to process having lived the last decade of every second of his life being planned by his management team, which includes you. When he goes down a rabbit hole of Youtube videos about The Little White Chapel (Omo! Michael Jordan got married there!), he starts getting all sorts of ideas - all of it starring him and you.

Genre: Fluff, Angst, Eventual Smut, Childhood friends to lovers, Idol!au, Coworkers to lovers (reader is a HYBE employee)

Notes: What can I say? We got all the tropes in this bad boy, because I don’t know when I can write again, so let’s put everything in this sucker and call it a day! This is canon-ish. I included some real-life events during this period, but it may or may not be loosely rearranged to fit the narrative - just go with it. Ginger Yoongi, because this is the LOOK I don’t give a damn what haters say. I have not written in a decade and this is me attempting to pick things back up, I hope you like it xo

BTW, the teaser scene is inspired by that leaked video of the BTS tour crew’s  private party in Vegas. It’s here if you want to see it. Enjoy! xo

Read the teaser under the cut!

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"Yoongi, marry me!" You shout at the top of your lungs, earning laughs from the people around you. On the other side of the room, a couple of other people shout the same catchphrase, including Taehyung, who seems to get the most kick out of it out of all the members.

Coerced to do one of those Tik Tok dance challenges, Yoongi stands in front of the room, hides his face behind his hands and you watch in delight as he awkwardly sways his hips side to side. More cheers erupt and two seconds after he decides he was done.

"Hajimaaaa!" Your friend says to no one and everyone, cheeks burning as he stalks back to the chair he was occupying across yours.

You push his beer bottle towards him, "Good job, gramps."

"Fuck off," he says with no real bite, taking a long swig off his drink to cool off his reddened cheeks.

It's great to finally get some down time with the crew. After such a fast-paced, high production tour, everybody needed to blow off some steam. This Korean BBQ restaurant off the Strip was the perfect venue to get the team together for samgyupsal and drinks. The vibes were, as the kids say, immaculate.

You are already sufficiently buzzed so you sit down as Seokjin takes his turn to do the challenge. He really seems to be more into it than the man currently giving you a look.

"I heard you." He narrows his eyes at you, a small smile playing on his lips.

"What? It's the new viral catchphrase," you shrugged. "Everybody and their grandma is saying it these days."

"Not their grandma."

"You should be flattered."

Stop, you thought he would say. But his response catches you off guard.

"Only ‘cause you said it."

And he has the audacity to lick his bottom lip, a ghost of a smirk forming.

Fuck. Your throat dries up. When did it get so hot here?

“And in case you were wondering…” he leans forward, a dopey-ass grin now on his face. “The answer is yes.”

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To The Wolves

♦️Pairing: Rebel leader Hongjoong x afab doctor reader x Rebel Yeosang ♦️genre/au: rebel leaders/dystopia. one-shot ♦️Word Count: 3,376 ♦️Warnings: mentions of a raid, lil bit of blood, smut(warnings below cut)- 18+ MinorsDNI ♦️AN: okay so thanks to my ult's just coming for my throat with that teaser video- and THIS just adding to the brain rot, this was created. a head's up that like halfway i lost focus and when i came back i had no idea what i was planning so i just winged it so if it seems like the tone changed a bit, there's that. ♦️Network: @pirateeznet ♦️and thank you my beta reader: @yourfatherlucifer

♦️♦️♦️Smut warnings: choking, rough, slight voyeurism, slight mxm, slight degradation, unprotected sex (dont do this), oral (m receiving), petname: Doll- yeosang is called pretty boy. lmk if i missed any.

Wolf in sheep's clothing was such an understatement when it came to these two. Two you had decided to trust with your life, your safe space, your dreams. Two men that were standing before you with their familiar innocent and sweet expressions, that after tonight, you realized were lies.

Hongjoong and Yeosang were the two that graced your doorstep the most, asking for supplies to help the needy and wounded or to get patched up themselves. What had started as two boys just trying to help out their communities after the raid attacks had turned into a friendship that you cherished and coveted. Their sweet smiles and gestures, heroic words that made you believe there was good in this damned city.

Those same two men were at the center of bloodshed and chaos earlier in the raids you so horrible despised. Sure you didn't care much for their foe, the men that ran this city with a heavy hand- but you also hated their anarchist ways to combat it. You always avoided the raids, keeping your doors open to give medical attention to any bystanders caught in the crossfire, and that was how you had met them.

And why you had run into the heap of chaos early tonight because you had seen them head that way. You had followed out of concern, worried for your friends, only to see a side to them that still had you reeling.

You had run into Yeosang at first, calling out to him as you had pushed past people in white cloaks. He had looked back, locked eyes with you, and watched his beautiful features harden. Jaw clenched, he twisted his head to the side as he turned away from you, barking orders.

Panic had welled inside your gut as you realized he was part of the rebellion- a bit part. So you ran, it didn't matter where, through alleyways and more of the chaos; you heard bombs go off and more leaving you frightened on more than one occasion.

You were hiding in an alley when he came across you: Hongjoong. There were a bunch of civilians before him, running away from the chaos and he seemed to be guiding them. He had looked rather shocked to see you crouched against the wall, struggling to breath, calling out to you.

You bit back the urge to tell him what you saw, noticing a bit of blood on his chin as he held his hand out to you. You had pushed it away and stood up with a scowl, shaking your head.

The grin he gave you as he dropped his hand was purely sadistic and had your blood running cold. “Aw come on, don't be scared of me now.”

“Fuck you.” You spat, moving around him to make a run for it.

He licked his lip, that smirk still there. “That can be arranged, doll.” He didn't come after you, just watched you run.

You should've known he didn't chase because he could just walk into your little clinic, your home, at any time: you gave him a key.

That's how you found yourself in your current predicament, fresh out of the shower and finding the two men you had considered confidants and more, in your room as if they owned it.

Yeosang at least had the decency to look guilty while Hongjoong was wearing that stupid innocent smile you now knew was fake. He didn't seem to care much, both still in their outfits from the riot and the blood from his chin was now smeared down his neck.

“Hey there doc, did we catch you at a bad time?” Hongjoong sat on your bed, legs outstretched before him as he leaned back on his palms. Yeosang stood by the door, arms crossed and unable to meet your gaze- wearing just a towel might have something to do with that though.

Holding the fabric tighter around your body you lifted your chin and stared Hongjoong down. “You better be here to return my key.”

He clicked his tongue to the roof of his mouth, reaching into his pocket and pulling said key out. “This key? Mmm, I don't think so.” He tossed it over to Yeosang who caught it easily. “You know we didn't intentionally hide this from you-”

“No, we decided to.” Yeosang added, staring Hongjoong down with the same tick in his jaw from earlier. “When we realized how you felt about the rebels, we didn't want to risk our resources getting thinned.”

Your jaw went slack, staring over at him. You weren't sure what shocked you more- his admission or how much it hurt to think that they used you for your connections. “So what… you pretended to be my friend to get access to my meds and resources? Are you fucking kidding me?!” Anger burst through you, hands clenched into fists on the towel. 

“We thought about it.” Hongjoong replied, getting to his feet with ease. “You're a good doctor, you have a good heart, we needed you. Still need you in fact. Don't run from us now.” He stopped just before you, reaching out to cup your jaw. “We know you like it, you want it. Want us.”

You stiffened at the touch, cheeks burning red as his words washed over you. Wanted them? He can't possibly mean- oh but he did. They had noticed.

It was just a silly crush; an attraction you vowed never to voice because they had been clients and then friends. You were a good person, you told yourself that, and that was the excuse you used never to make a move. You didn't want them to think you were friends with them to get their dick. And you didn't want them to think you were disgusting just because you wanted both.

Now that little crush was complicating things further. Who you thought were innocent, saint-like men were not that at all. No, they were rebels that thrived on anarchy and had your knees weak with the hard energy they had about them.

“Was it all a lie?” You squeaked out, defeated by your own emotions and the knowing look in his eyes.

This time it was Yeosang who stepped closer, a hand going to your hip as if to comfort you. “No, the only lie was keeping this part of us from you. We wanted to tell you.”

“We should've.”

“I didn't want to scare you-”

“That's you. I think I liked her trembling in that alley.” Hongjoong bickered lowly with Yeosang as they seemed to cage you in. “What do you say, doll, now that you've seen us as we are? You still want us?”

Yeosang pushed your damp hair to one side of your neck, running his nose up the curve of your exposed throat. “Do you want to see just how… rebellious we can be?” The deep rumble of his voice sent shivers down your spine and to your core.

Suddenly you felt like prey trapped between two salivating wolves. Both had a possessive hand on your hips, Yeosang's wrapping around your throat to expose your neck more while Hongjoong plied your fist off the top of the towel to loosen it. The worst part? You didn't fight them at all.

Your eyes were wide and locked onto Hongjoong’s dark gaze, his bottom lip pulled between his teeth as the towel fell open and to your waist. Truthfully you were at an impasse. Morally you felt conflicted. Emotionally you hurt. But hormonally? Your thighs were becoming wet for an entirely different reason than the shower.

“Is this a lie? A ruse to get me to trust you again? To keep me in your clutches?” You whispered into the space between you, swallowing hard against Yeosang's hand.

“Do you want it to be?” Hongjoong asked as he peeled the towel from you, hands running up the front of your body appreciatively.

“No.” Your answer was immediate, no need to think it over because this was the truth: you wanted it to be real. With each touch you were beginning to ignore the rational sides of your mind as well, debating on taking them up on their offer.

A kiss to your sweet spot on your neck and the massage of your breasts was the final string broken- you caved. “If it's not, if you really want me like this… then show me.”

Your consent was all they needed before they snapped, devouring you just like the hungry wolves you expected them to be. Hongjoong’s lips were on yours while Yeosang's fingers sought out your other pair, finger sliding between the slick folds. The groan he let out just below your ear at how wet you are only had your walls clenching for more. They were positively sinful.

You weren't a rebel but damn did they make you feel like one against your own heart. With every kiss, every touch, you craved more. Wrapping your arms around Hongjoong you pressed closer, legs spreading to accommodate Yeosang's hand as he worked two fingers into your hole, spreading them to work you open.

You were the first to pull away, turning to Yeosang as a moan fell from your lips. Before you could say anything he was pressing his lips to yours.

“Fuck you’re so hot, doll. It's been so hard holding my tongue around you.” Hongjoong took your arms and guided your hands to his pants, bucking his hips to rub the bulge against your palm. “And listening to Yeo whine and pine for you was fucking torture. But I'm a generous man, I'll let him fuck you first- do you like that idea?”

Yeosang wasn't letting you pull away from his lips, his hand cupping your jaw and holding you in place while his fingers leisurely pumped into you. So you got creative with answering Hongjoong, squeezing his cock while grinding your hips down onto Yeosang's hand.

“Hmm I think she does- make sure you fuck her right Sangie~” Hongjoong stepped back, your hands in his as he gently pulled you away from Yeosang.

Both his fingers and lips chased you, stumbling after you with a growl. “Joong-”

“On the bed Sangie, and lose the clothes.” The pretty man stripped while Hongjoong helped you onto your bed, moving your body as he pleased while inspecting you as he saw fit. He arranged you like a doll, humming with approval as you let him. “Hmm you listen so well now, where did that attitude go huh?” When you whined in response he chuckled darkly. “I knew you would fucking like this.” Spreading your legs apart he made you hold them wide, admiring your wet cunt.

You squeaked out when he slapped your pussy, wide eyes meeting his amused smirk. It was still hard to wrap your head around this new side to him, your heart beating wildly in your chest, but he was right- you liked this. “I-I do. I-I'm trusting you both.”

As Yeosang climbed onto the bed, situating himself between your legs, Hongjoong moved off the bed to the end where your head. “That's a mistake doll, you shouldn't trust us. Don't you know how bad we are? You saw us.”

Yeosang took over your hold on your legs, pushing them wider to lift your ass off the bed a bit. “I think she likes the idea of being corrupted. Want us to corrupt you? Ruin you?”

You nodded, tearing your gaze from Hongjoong to look down at Yeosang, breath caught in your throat at the sight of his cockhead pressing against your entrance. “Fuck yes- please.”

“I guess you’re right, our little good girl wants us to ruin her. We should do it thoroughly then.” Hongjoong’s hand slid into your hair, both of you staring between your legs as Yeosang gave you just what you wanted: he pushed his cock forward, inch by inch disappearing into your sweet folds. 

Yeosang’s head fell forward a bit, lips parted in awe as he too watched. “You’re sucking me in so well.” You would’ve reached for him if Hongjoong hadn’t gone out of his way to pin both of your hands under your head, holding them by the wrist and your hair. When he bottomed out, you clenched down, both of you moaning from the pleasure.

Hongjoong was getting a bit impatient though, tsking. “Come on Sangie, ruin her.” 

Yeosang snarled his upper lip at Hongjoong, the tension between them palpable for a moment before Yeosang had his hand around your throat and was pounding into you relentlessly. The 0 to 100 of his movements had you reeling, crying out as your head fell back into Hongjoong’s hand. With your ass slightly off the bed, legs bent up to the point your knees grazed the bed under your arms, Yeosang was rubbing every inch of your inner walls that mattered.

“This what you wanted?” He hissed out, and part of you didn’t think he was talking to you; at least not entirely to you.

The fact Hongjoong answered with a breathless ‘yes’ had you clenching down on Yeosang, his harsh thrusts faltering at the feeling. 

It felt too good to actually focus on Yeosang, and with his hand adding just the right amount of pressure on your throat you couldn’t watch him even if you tried. But Hongjoong? You could see his expressions perfectly. He had a wildly dark look in his eyes, that sadistic grin appearing for a second whenever his eyes flickered down to your throat but otherwise he was watching the way Yeosang was ramming his cock into you.

Yeosang’s low grunts were a perfect compliment to his rough thrusts, the bed rocking from the force that didn’t seem to bother Hongjoong at all. He stood still, taking in the sight before him while still holding your head in the palm of his hand, watching as Yeosang brought you to a climax in the next few strokes. You cried out, Yeosang fucking you through the high that just made youre head even more fuzzy with ecstasy, barely registering the soft curses he let out at the realization that Hongjoong didn’t have any reaction. You whined for him, wanting him to want you just as much as Yeosang did, yet you didn't think he did. But just as Yeosang had seemed to snap, escalating quickly, so did he. 

Hongjoong quickly pulled his pants open and down, his cock springing out and slapping against your cheek. “Open up Doll, I can’t let the pretty boy have you all to himself.” 

Your head fell back, mouth open, moaning around his length as he wasted no time stuffing you in sync with Yeosang’s slowed thrusts. The angle had you gagging, the hand on your throat not helping much either, but you were enjoying it. No, it was the low rumble that left Hongjoong that made it enjoyable. Still reeling from your climax, the two men leisurely made use of your holes, showing that even in their quest to ‘corrupt you’ they were still kind.

Or perhaps it was just a momentarily sense of ease they gave you, Hongjoong’s hips snapping with a sudden roughness that had tears brimming in your eyes.

“Fuck I can feel you in her throat-” Yeosang whined, matching his thrusts as to not be outdone, his grip tightening around your throat making it tighter around Hongjoong’s cock

“Oh yeah?” Hongjoong moaned out in response, his hand covering Yeosang’s as the two locked eyes. “You feel every fucking thrust? Every inch of my cock inside her?”

You gagged, your now free hands grabbing Hongjoong’s pants and tugging before you really did find yourself suffocating on his cock. That would be one hell of a way to go though.

Hongjoong didn’t even take his eyes off of Yeosang at the gurgled sounds you made, but at your whine- “Don’t worry doll, I haven’t forgotten about you. Just need to make sure this dumb pretty boy has enough brain cells to fuck you properly.” He released your throat, letting Yeosang relax his grip and the pressure.

“She’s not complaining.” Yeosang shot back yet you swore he seemed to like it.

“That’s because she’s too busy choking on my cock. But I’ll happily take over fucking that sweet cunt, show her that it takes more than a pretty face to fuck properly.”

Yeosang groaned, hand removed from your throat to hold the back of your thighs, bending you a bit further to hit deeper. You cried out around Hongjoong’s cock, eliciting a breathless whine from him that was echoed by Yeosang.

“Fuck, I can’t tell if you’re enjoying my insults or pissed off by them but look at you- found yourself a second wind Pretty boy? You have the muscles for it, but not the brains for a comeback?”

The tension between them was palpable and felt through each thrust, beginning to annoy you just a bit as Hongjoong focused more on degrading the man fucking you with such a ferocity you really couldn’t think of much more. Not about to be forgotten, you clamped your pussy walls down around Yeosang while hollowing out your cheeks and sucking, resulting in both men cursing while their thrusts momentarily faltered.

“Oh fu- doll don’t do that.”

“We’ve been neglecting our baby.” You whined blissfully when Yeosang’s thumb found your clit, adding just a bit of pressure that had your hips bucking. “I’d also rather hear the sounds she’s making.”

“Oh really?” Hongjoong pulled out, leaving you gasping for air while he stroked your spit along his cock. “Mmm, you’re right, she does make better sounds with her mouth free.”

You honestly didn’t give a damn about the loud noises leaving you as you held onto Hongjoong’s legs. “C-close, wanna come.” Lifting your head a bit you could see Yeosang now and the sight he made: muscles bulging as he held you folded over enough you could easily see the full length of his cock disappearing into your squelching cunt -which alone was a sight to behold- yet you couldn’t take your eyes off his fucked out expression. Pupils blown wide, hair sticking to his forehead and brow that was scrunched together in concentration, and lips parted around soft little moans that were barely audible over your own.

He looked like he was straight out of your wet dreams but better. Better because you could see Hongjoong stroking his cock in your peripheral vision. His free hand was once more under your head, both of you watching Yeosang and you swore that both of you loved the sight of him fucking you.

You didn’t have time to question it, not when Yeosang’s head fell forward, letting out the sweetest whine in his deep voice. “Come with me, please~”

It didn’t matter which of you he was talking to, the next moment filled with a symphony of sinful sounds as you were covered inside and out with their cum, eyes rolling to the back of your head as your own orgasm washed over you. 

You were still reeling when Yeosang pulled out and set you down, leaning down to still a kiss that required all your focus just to give back. Your legs were still shaking, well aware you would be sore tomorrow and lucky if you would be walking without issues in the next hour. Your throat and thighs felt thoroughly bruised and used, so did your cunt.

The raid you had stumbled into earlier was forgotten, brain still buzzing from the effects. Yeosang’s body heat was replaced by a damn towel, cleaning off the cum on your chest and shoulders before it was tossed to Yeosang who cleaned up your thighs and core. Slowly you blinked up at Hongjoong, barely processing that he was fully dressed now.

“Now that everything is out on the table, we won’t be holding back anymore. Are you prepared?” That cold twisted smile was back on his face, Yeosang coming into view with his jaw tightly clenched with emotions you couldn’t place.

Now the raid did come crashing back to you: the sight of chaos and destruction and these two in the middle.

Wolves in sheep’s clothing, and you happily let them devour you.

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