Been Really Wishing I Had Someone To Come Home To. I Mean, I Always Do, But The Need Has Been A Lot Stronger

Been really wishing I had someone to come home to. I mean, I always do, but the need has been a lot stronger this week, for some reason.

Truth!

How would you describe your heart and is it reactive?

I've seen other posts similar to this, but a recent comment I got during a share made me wanna ask as well.

I'd say mine is thumpy and somewhat irregular (sinus arrhythmia). It is very reactive, depending on the situation.

Just want to say I realize this could sound similar to those "nice guy" posts. I don't mean it that way, just that the one guy I tried dating earlier this year turned out to be a creeper. It makes me frustrated that no one who is serious about dating and maybe getting married someday seems to be interested in me lol. Maybe that didn't help my case either, but just felt like clarifying all of a sudden 🤷🏻‍♀️

Kinda frustrated that no one who I've been interested in dating in the last three years has felt the same about me. 😕

Hearing/feeling my heart doesn't turn me on in the same way hearing/feeling someone else's does. For me, hearing/feeling my own is more of a turn on thinking about how the other person is experiencing it. On the other hand, hearing/feeling someone else's is a turn on because (a.) it comes with being a cardiophile (b.) experiencing someone's heart in such a way and knowing that you're at least partly responsible for how it's behaving is the hottest thing ever.

P.S. I was really sleepy when typing this. Sorry if it's worded weird or it doesn't make sense lol

Anyone up to talk? I need a distraction.