General Info About James' Creation

General info about James' creation

James is not a self insert oc. Yes, he has the same moles as I do and is part Tamil but our personality differ from eachother a lot. We don't have the same experiences nor traits when it comes to the soul, we do have similarities but that is just because I always include atleast a little piece of me in my ocs.

James is merely a character to make my inner child happy. I am mainly writing and drawing him, not because of fame but because I want to make little me happy. I'm just fulfilling a kids dream right now.

Is he a bit bland for not actively murdering people? Maybe, but not every crp oc has to be a murderer to be an actual creepypasta. At least in my opinion. He murdered once and that was also his last. I often forget to mention it but James is part Egyptian actually!! His mother is Egyptian and his father is Tamil. He also has two siblings. Nihila, his older sister and Faris, his little brother.

Taking the break back lol (I'm an idiot)

And that my guys is why you shouldn't make impulsive decisions while being emotional.

So uhm, this is a bit awkward

No break? I guess? Idk man, I'm still not reaaalllyyy well but I figured that taking a break off social media won't currently help me so eh, yeah. Cool.

But maybe don't expect a lot of art bc school started for me again and I'll be a bit busy with studying. But otherwise, usual optimism and content, life is beautiful, blah, blah, blah.

If anyone is curious how I'm doing after the whole tiktok-comment-section-drama idk, I'm just as fine as I was before, I just hope that those people will find some peace in their life and not waste their time on harassing strangers online. I'm personally fine with the fact that it happened with me getting kinda involved I guess, I just deactivated the comments to avoid any more unnecessary beef.

And just for all the people that are somehow involved in the drama, I wish that you all find peace, it will get better and uh, love and respect everyone. The world is far too beautiful to bring negativity into it anyway.

I apologize for yapping this much, just wanted to speak out my mind.

(Also don't be ableist. Not funny to harass ppl with mental disorders or physical disabilities, it really ain't.)

EJ: What kind of spider is that?

James:....It's a tarantula....Is that not obvious?-

EJ: *Eyeless bitch stare*

James: I would like to say sorry.

Since they dont wanna post the full screenshots or the apology I sent way back in January. I did not call anyone retard, I said it as a general statement as a way to be like "You cant control me", because the MAIN part of ASPD is fearing being controlled. Of course Im gonna act in dysfunctional and harmful ways bro, look into reactive aggression. But I owned up to it, and I have already long apologized to them for how I handled the situation. I owned up to it and anyone who knows me knows that I try my best to combat how my brain wants to react to hostility towards me. I choose to respond with kindness now, and healing isnt linear. I will have moments where I relapse into old habits, but I keep on trying to do better with every new day. They started this by saying threats against me for saying a slur I can RECLAIM, way before I even entered the chat. (These screenshots are all old, from back in January or so.) When I said "we all have our own views", I was saying that we all have our own views on reclaiming slurs. I believe that people can reclaim slurs, while Void clearly doesnt, which is fine, but they could have communicated that to me instead of all of this drama for no reason.

Cuz people love to harass people with mental health issues and treat them like a monster when they get fed up. Fuck you for that. Im not apologizing again. I know who I am now, I know the person I am, I know all of the hard fucking work I have put in to get clean from drugs, get myself off the streets, and recover from debilitating mental health issues. This shit is literally the least of my worries. I have owned up to it, I have apologized, there is no pleasing you guys.

And should I mention how you guys fucking bully and harass and insult people who arent even involved in the situation? How you flood innocent peoples comments, DM them, call them horrible names just for having their own opinions on the situation? I have NEVER stooped that low. I never expect anyone to get involved in my drama. I am literally a grown ass man, I have a life, and friends, and a wonderful girlfriend, and I am trying my best to be happy and kind no matter what. But I cant stand when you guys start bullying people who have NOTHING to do with this situation. Its insane. If you hate me, thats ok, I understand and I dont ever expect anyone to like me, but holy shit dont harass random people cuz of it?

And spreading straight up lies? Cropping the screenshots? Not saying the shit you guys did to me? Pushing me into a corner and lying and then using shit against me when I finally get fed up? Using my bad mental health episodes against me when you know damn well I apologized a LONG time ago?

Heres the apology I sent ages ago and them saying they hope my girlfriend abuses me and calling ME a retard directly 👍 And you were FULLY AWARE I have ASPD bro you literally said it during the argument. Ive always been entirely open about it, and have talked about it in that server. Dont bullshit yourselves when you actively target people with no empathy and morality. Of course I dont care about your issues dude my brain doesn't work that way. I literally cannot empathize with your feelings even if I wanted to, and I do. Thats why this is a DISORDER. Yall say its not about the ASPD then you talk shit about me for my inability to follow social norms and have empathy? At least I apologized and owned up to the wrong I did, while you guys keep playing victims for all the ways you mistreated me

Talbin is consuming my mind bro, it's insane. So obviously I had to draw them/sketch them once more.

@necroromantics @clockeyedtoy