Im Not Trying To Start Anything, But The Statement Buck Says To Maddie About How She Is Always The One

I’m not trying to start anything, but the statement Buck says to Maddie about how she is always the one leaving, and doesn’t know what it’s like to watch someone you love walk away seems so unfair, but also makes me so mad for both their situations.

Like Buck comes from a place where he was born to save Daniel’s life, “failed”, and was raised in the aftermath of a long lasting grief and fear. He never understood why his parents acted the way they did, why they never seemed to love him as much as they should have. Maddie was always their for him until she had to go off to college and then eventually went away/distanced herself after Doug. He tried to find his place in the world and people in the world who would never abandon him, and while he found that place at the 118, that fear of abandonment still lingers and probably always will.

And while yes technically speaking Maddie was the one leaving, it just makes me mad on her behalf because it’s not like she wanted to leave Buck. Maddie was also effected by their parents. She knows the pain of watching a brother die and seeing their once loving parents walk away from their two remaining children and stay in that state of grief and fear for years; she was old enough to remember it all. I think Maddie also had a small fear of being left behind as well as unloved, so that’s why she walked away from other people in the past before they could do what her parents did to her. Then she met Doug who she couldn’t help but fall for in the beginning because she thought he loved her unlike so many people in the past, and that’s what love was suppose to be like because she didn’t have any knowledge other wise from her parents or by any other people in her life.

And again I feel bad for Buck because he got caught in this catch 22 where he was only 11 when Maddie went of to college and shouldn’t have had to deal with being with his parents alone, and because Maddie was the only person he had left who understood him, but Maddie also couldn’t take living at home anymore and shouldn’t have to take it either but life also has to go on. People do go away for a little bit for college and then eventually if they get married and start a family. She couldn’t stay at home forever, but then it’s also where she shouldn’t have had to deal with Doug either who was also the really big problem later on.

But every time Maddie left it wasn’t because she was leaving as if she didn’t care at all, but rather quite the opposite. The Buckley siblings have the biggest hearts, and Maddie had always just wanted to protect her or her brother’s heart which is why walking away seemed like the best choice for certain situations. Like when she didn’t leave with Buck like he wanted her to in Hershey, or when she went radio silent on him for a few years. It’s just kind of unfortunate that it didn’t come out that way.

I just think it’s not as simple as her being the one to always leave while Buck is the person everyone always leaves. There’s just so much info to calculate and add on to those statements to even make them make sense.

Jesus I didn’t even mean for this to be so long, I was honestly just trying to get some clips for my Madney edit I’ve been working on and I came across this clip that clearly triggered me somewhat lol.

But seriously the poor Buckley siblings. They honesty need a vacation, just the two of them.

COVID started when I was 17 years old (almost 18) and now in 2 months I’ll be 20…

20!!!!!!

Like excuse me, I’m an adult???? Because my mind still says I’m 17 years old and starting my senior year of high school.

Cheerleader by OMI, I can’t listen to it without wanting to rip my ears off.

And my hatred for the song wasn’t even hatred at the beginning, it was just annoyance. I use to share a room with my cousin when I was younger and her taste in music is everything rap or close to the genre, and I hate rap except for a few select songs mainly from Eminem. So she would blast this song when it came out over and over and over again. I really couldn’t take it anymore and she knew it, and then so did the rest of my family. From that point on the song would either be played on purpose or when it did come on my family would jam and laugh amongst each other about how I got so mad whenever I heard the song.

That is when I hated the song.

who cares abt favorite songs i wanna know what song you hate more than anything. like it makes you violent bc it sucks so bad. mine is shiny happy people by REM it sounds like shit

See you in 1977

Hey btw, if you're doing worldbuilding on something, and you're scared of writing ~unrealistic~ things into it out of fear that it'll sound lazy and ripped-out-of-your-ass, but you also don't want to do all the back-breaking research on coming up with depressingly boring, but practical and ~realistic~ solutions, have a rule:

Just give the thing two layers of explanation. One to explain the specific problem, and another one explaining the explanation. Have an example:

Plot hole 1: If the vampires can't stand daylight, why couldn't they just move around underground?

Solution 1: They can't go underground, the sewer system of the city is full of giant alligators who would eat them.

Well, that's a very quick and simple explanation, which sure opens up additional questions.

Plot hole 2: How and why the fuck are there alligators in the sewers? How do they survive, what do they eat down there when there's no vampires?

Solution 2: The nuns of the Underground Monastery feed and take care of them as a part of their sacred duties.

It takes exactly two layers to create an illusion that every question has an answer - that it's just turtles all the way down. And if you're lucky, you might even find that the second question's answer loops right back into the first one, filling up the plot hole entirely:

Plot hole 3: Who the fuck are the sewer nuns and what's their point and purpose?

Solution 3: The sewer nuns live underground in order to feed the alligators, in order to make sure that the vampires don't try to move around via the sewer system.

When you're just making things up, you don't need to have an answer for everything - just two layers is enough to create the illusion of infinite depth. Answer the question that looms behind the answer of the first question, and a normal reader won't bother to dig around for a 3rd question.

The ten commandments of writer.

1) Don't let anyone steal your voice.

Our inner voice is the reason we decide to tell a story one way or another. Our points of view, our eyes. Our voice. Don't let anyone steal your voice.

2) Don't compare your work.

Each writer has his own particular and original way of writing. There's a reason we like to read certain writers, right? Find out why other people should read to you. Read and learn from other jobs; do not read and compare; don't read and steal.

3) Write from your personal experiences.

Don't write about things you don't know; write about how you would like to know those things, or how you think they are.

4) Write for yourself, not for others.

Stop thinking that your ideas are not good.

As Stan Lee said: << I consider myself an ordinary person. And if I was able to think of a story that I liked, then there must be another ordinary person who likes it. >>

It doesn't matter if you are ordinary or extraordinary, human or alien. You will find many people who will love your story, but the ESSENTIAL thing is that YOU BE THE PERSON WHO LOVES IT THE MOST.

5) Start writing.

You are the one who is driving the car. Don't expect other people to start writing for you.

6) Write even when you think what you're writing is bad.

As Rad Bradbury said, << Write a short story every week. You can't write 52 bad stories in a row >>.

7) Read a lot. Read more than you write.

As simple and complicated as it sounds, a writer improves his work through hours and hours of reading. Stop reading as a reader, start reading as a writer. It is time to pay attention to the rhythm of the paragraphs, the evolution of the characters, etc.

8) Find a guide.

It doesn't matter if you are a writer, photographer, painter or whatever. Find someone who knows more than you and try to learn from him / her / them. Don't underestimate help, getting help doesn't mean you're not good enough, but rather that you are working to be better.

9) Accept that not everyone is going to like your stories.

Be self-critical, accept that not everyone is going to like what you write, and that sometimes that has nothing to do with your story. But with the taste of others. You cannot please everyone.

10) Keep writing.