God The "reid Goes To Check On Gideon At His Cabin" Scene Still Makes Me Feel So Nauseous Even Though

god the "reid goes to check on gideon at his cabin" scene still makes me feel so nauseous even though i know he doesn't actually find gideon's body like the viewer is made to expect.* but like. watch this clip. it really looks like he's just found his body until it cuts to show what he's really looking at. even now it makes me nervous

anyway. call me fucked up but i wish there were more fics that looked at what would have happened if that really was the situation. i like to put my blorbos in blenders and turn them on, okay? sorry. sorry. my demons

*i think this fakeout is missed by some people simply because gideon leaving the team is spoiled a lot—which is fair, because the episode where it happens aired sixteen years ago. but the clip above, the letter reading like a suicide note, the last episode ending with gideon holding his gun...they really want you to think he's killed himself. and reid is probably worried about that the whole drive, too.

the contrast between emily and reid in 2x17 and 3x03 has me on the floor.

he listens this time. he doesn't get too defensive, (just normal reid defensive. baby steps). and then we have emily bringing up his dad, specifically information that we haven't heard before (that he's blocked out most of his memories of him), which implies that reid has opened up to her about it offscreen. to me, that also suggests it was in a way he hasn't with the rest of the team.

(if i had to guess at how that went down: sometime post 2x18 reid apologised to emily for the way he treated her, and brought up his abandonment issues as being part of the reason. then either one thing led to another and he was opening up about it, or emily asked him about it later and he told her, maybe because he felt like he owed her honesty after reacting to her concern with such hostility)

this probably isnt very coherent and i might come back to it later but the development of their friendship is so so important to me.

this is still the most funniest spencelle moment for me. spencer fucking panicking between elle and jj and he double takes on elle's chest 😭💀

twitter historically sucks but man this is a banger of a tweet

look at his gay little car lmfao

hey how mad do you think morgan was when reid's aesthetic became fashionable

some teenager: oh my god i looooove soft grandpa academia!! where did you get that sweater vest? reid: oh, uh. goodwill. morgan, twitching: