Just Got Out Of The Fnaf Movie!!!!!

just got out of the fnaf movie!!!!!

why is bonnie my gender goals? idk but ive infodumped the entire lore unto my poor father <3

i feel so bad for him

possible reasons for when i cannot sleep

jammed out too hard before bed

this bed ain't beddin

too low on the pillow

too high on the pillow

hair is on my neck

nothing good on in the fictional scenario department

dog chose the incorrect spot to sleep

hair is on my neck

thinking thoughts

the fact i might get up tomorrow

weighted blanket isn't enough i need a hydraulic press

HAIR IS ON MY NECK

New ADHD motto dropped: “irrelevant but not unrelated”

trying to get neurotypical ppl to understand what hyperfixations are like is sooooo frustrating bc they just. don't. get it. what do you mean you can consume media without it consuming you back ????

i hate tampons sm

As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.