February 2023 [WIPS]

February 2023 [WIPS]

"The truth hurts."

Heizou grumbled, walking down a lone path in his home village. It was so unimportant, it didn't even need to be named! ..And he totally didn't have to be forced by General Kujou to take over the case because no one else was free.. He just– The detective hadn't actually returned since he left to pursue a dream, not since.. The festival a few years back. Especially with.. the incident.. He had no reason left to stay. What, with a father wanting him to take over his work while he was still in his rebellious stage? All that would be left are pitying stares from adults that would've been looking down on him, so instead he had set out and made a living. ... He isn't that dumb to not realize that less people are leaving or entering the station. This makes him come to the conclusion that some are staying in doing work overnight (or for multiple days), and others are going out on more long distance trips. Long story short, the commission's forces are spread thin, and therefore Heizou the renowned detective must be brought to a town regardless of his wants or desires. Or maybe he's being overdramatic. ... ..But, anyway- Long story short, people have been going missing. Mainly people around his age, from teenagers to young adults. Ahaha, maybe it wasn't a good idea for a detective of a similar stature to their victims to be on the case, but there really wasn't much they could do. Barely any leads too! Therefore, he could perhaps act as bait.

You Don't Need Treats // You Don't Need Tricks // And You Don't Need Me

Deku gave a small smile, watching as Kacchan stood at his grave. That's all he did now. Watch. He recalled the theory that ghosts stayed when they had regrets.

..His regret must've been being unable to see Kacchan grow up into a hero he had always meant to be, besides not being able to get a quirk. It was only logical.

It was sad, though. Kacchan had so many friends now. Sometimes he felt jealousy pulse through him, making him shake. All he was, was just a figment of his past. He should've felt happy that Kacchan was able to be himself, and enjoy it without him, but it hurt. It hurt so bad. It hurt more than anything Kacchan's quirk could do. Because it wasn't fair, and if he thought, he could pretend that he was there, and that they were his friends.

But anyway.. He followed Kacchan for a long while, until he heard of a little girl with white hair from the teachers (it was so easy to eavesdrop while Kacchan did boring things).

So of course, like any person would, he went to see the little girl. She was in a kids room filled with toys, and looked so adorable! He squealed, hovering closer, only to jump when she did, staring at him.

Deku's eyes widened, recoiling. "You– can you see me..?"

Immediately he became aware of his 'appearance'.. Blood dripped from his forehead, staining his fluffy hair, and he was in Aldera's uniform, albeit blood covering most of it as well. It was not a pretty sight. His sadness grew when she didn't seem to care about how bad he looked (how bad was it, when a little girl is completely insensitive to a sight?)

"Mmhmm!" The girl- Eri, he recalled, nodded.

Hope ran in through his veins immediately. After all, if she could see him, then who else could?

"Ah.. My name is Midoriya Izuku. What about you?" He gave what he hoped was a kind smile, drifting down and sitting on his knees to better match heights.

She stared at him for a moment in wonder, before reaching out.

Deku blinked. "Huh? Are you trying to..-"

A gasp left his lips as suddenly he was wrapped in warmth, and there was a bright light–

Til I’m the Only One Left Alive // Whether or Not You Hate This Me // It’s Not My Turn to Die

Shin(?) exhaled. His eyes were glazed over, and he saw what was not there. 

His eyes traveled in the unfamiliar room— for a second he could see gray bed sheets. Out of the corner of his eye, he thought he saw flowers sprouting, tangled around a green-sleeved arm. 

He could almost hear…

“ It's fine now... 

(“No! No it isn’t!” Sou wanted to scream in horror.)

Thank you, everyone…(What is there to thank!? Kanna , you couldn’t..- You can’t leave! Not like him !)

...Thank you, Sara. 

(Not her ! Why must you thank your killer?!)

Please take care of Sou...(You must’ve known how this had to end, right? I didn’t have anyone besides you, and now I’m all alone again. )Everyone... get along together... ”

(I’m so pathetic. I couldn’t even follow that. They’re all dead , and now I am the remaining majority.)

Kanna has expired .

He screamed.

“-riya.”

Who?

“ Mi - do - ri — ( imnothimimnothimimnothimimnothim– ) —ya?”

Midoriya?

Tsukimi. Hiyori. Midori ya.

Izuku snapped back into reality. “Oh.”

Aizawa-sensei stood in front of him in concern. “Are you back with me ?”

Right. He almost found it laughable. 

Midoriya Izuku. UA student, in Class 1-A, the hero course. (How would they feel knowing of the blood that has stained his hands? He almost wanted to give it a try just to see their faces. ..But he owed it to Kanna to live. Live for the life she sacrificed for.

He hated how similar he was to Midori, now. No, Sou [Sara gave him Midori.]. Should he really keep a claim on that name? When it’s his ? He already had Shin. ..But Shin is the name of, funnily enough, a Deku. Shin died in the  simulation. Sou lived.)

Sou plastered on a smile. (..No. Izuku was more like Shin. ..But face it. He liked it. It’s like he kept a piece of that bastard with him.) “I’m okay, sensei. I just had a nightmare, that’s all.” He kept his voice calm, but he knew Aizawa didn’t fully believe him.

To Be Started: Chapter 5 of A Mimic in Disguise  Chapter 2 of Echoes of a Past Unknown  Chapter 2 of Cheating Death

Burn Your Wings | MHA FIC | Midoriya-centric (Fic Rec)

Izuku inherited his parents’ quirks, but he swore he’d never use his fire. He knows first hand how—bright, burning, scorching, painful, terrifying, destructive—it is, after all, and Izuku promised (promised his crying mother, promised his burning self, promised the laughing memory of his father) that he’d become a hero who stops that kind of despair. Even if he has to burn his own wings to do so. But when someone with the exact same problems, fears, and pain shows up... Izuku can't help but try to heal them. And in doing so, he himself may be healed too.

tododeku

this is cool but headsup

hisashi is abusive so it kinda....

TW: some dark themes i want to write nagito komaeda (pls im not trying to be cringy cause oOOH anTAgoNiST, i wen tthrough that with kokichi already)

but i have zero idea what about

ive never done free time events besides in dr3 (cause thats the one dr game i own) because i think u do them all in the dating minigame??? i say that cause i did do like one and so the love meter bar was up +1 and stuff

but i watched a vid which is a retrospective over dr2

and how he views life as 'the more bad there is, the greater his luck gets'

ex: kidnapped in middle school, but the place said kidnapper puts him at has a winning lottery ticket of like 500 mil

ive been reading a bunch of stuff where [character fully believes theyre in the right] when they arent, but genuinely dont know whats wrong with it

i mean considering his parents died at a young age (which was the 'good' part of his luck...) id imagine hes a little desensitized to that

just tf do i write about

ive written dr3. kokichi in particular, being angsty stuff that was just me venting

i treated it a little lightly though. like 'oh, all my friends kinda want to kermit sewer slide and have bad home situations and vent and hurt and so on' its not that bad

add on the fact that theres 'trends' about depressed ppl in a fandom most of them including me are in, not to mention some bashing on said ppl that just gives the msg 'oh. youre just faking it. youre an attention seeker. stop it.'

which in fear of being lashed out at, you say nothing (also the stereotypical s/h of cutting on the wrist?? dude i felt like such a faker when i couldnt bring myself to do such a thing)

but that shouldnt mean my experiences are invalidated? certainly didnt stop me from actually trying to commit

basically.. i think maybe i can.. vent in a sense. having the reality break by other ppl who misunderstand you

in this confusion you 'mask' yourself, unsure of how to act besides the suffocating guilt

the thing is though is that i dont usually return to fandoms ive written before cause that means i usually abandon it for something else

i mean ive tried writing undertale stuff again but i didnt get that far cause motivation

aggh..

i feel like a lot of the fandom has misunderstood nagito in a way.

goddammit who else have i misunderstood bc i skipped free time ev

also no one told me nagito has dementia whatthefuck--

Beyond the Broken Horizon | MHA | Midoriya-centric (Fic Rec)

About a week after that, All Might asked Izuku if he was aiming for the hero course at UA. The question was so sudden that Izuku nearly dropped a microwave on his toes. The truth was, if All Might had asked him that a week ago, there would have only been one possible answer to that question. All Might had gone to UA, UA was the best, so Izuku was going to go there too, if he could. But things were a little different, now that he was going to receive All Might’s Quirk. “No,” he said, decisively. All Might looked caught off guard, which was a very rare expression on him. “No?” he echoed, like he couldn’t believe it. A laugh bubbled out of Izuku’s throat. He honestly couldn’t believe it either. “No,” he repeated. ___ Or, All Might tells Izuku about All for One before he gives him One for All, and everything changes.

basically

i love this a lot. uhh he goes to shiketsu intead, itll be explained why

currently ongoing

also ship warning: tododeku

also hes HOT. and yes its one of those, BUTTTT theyre kinda in character, and its more like 'you know that guy from shiketsu?'

theyre not like hopelessly in love or whatever but they acknowledge hes hot

and deku ...uses his assets

accordingly

*COUGH COUGH*

T H I GH S

Give Me my Tomorrow With Your Yesterday | MHA Fic | Midoriya-centric (Fic Rec)

to sum it up: uncle nighteye. deku is blind and has a service dog. he has a similar quirk to nighteye it is really cool (and also fuck all might)

Not My Turn to Die | YTTD Fansong | Theme Analysis Essay (Rough Draft)

Have you ever thought about how intense situations, can lead to unforeseen changes? How the desire to survive can lead to harmful tendencies? Or how it could hurt allies?

The song “Not My Turn to Die” by Mcki Robyns-P is about a fictional character called Sou Hiyori, the secondary antagonist, from the Japanese horror game, Your Turn to Die -Death Game by Majority-, by Nankidai.

In the game, you play as Sara, in, as self-explained, a death game by majority. More specifically, by majority vote. The theme of the song, in my opinion, is about the encompassing need to live, that suffocates you and pushes you to do things you hadn’t, or maybe wouldn’t do prior, only for the fact of how it can backfire in the worst of ways. It might not even be worth it in the end.

Around the start, it speaks of how the “odds are going to laugh at me anyway”, and continues to say, “I’ll copy that cruel tone and laugh back in their face”. Mix this with another line a quarter in, which states, “Suffocated by an all engulfing Zero. “So, Sou…” “How far are you willing to go?” When you mix this with the actual context, it provides an incentive for how and why he is. Hiyori Sou, or more accurately, Tsukimi Shin at the time, was brought into a death game. The first trial tends to vary a little, but his was being forced to listen to Sue Miley (the floor master, who’s a doll, or more accurately, a robot with an AI. Note that they’re usually based off real people in-game.) speak in excruciating detail about a simulation conducted by AIs based off the roster of participants. From that, chances of survival were calculated, and Shin was at a very low, 0.0%. This caused a break in his personality, “suffocated by an all engulfing zero”, and in his desire to live, he took the name of someone who was once a friend but someone who he now hates, Sou Hiyori.

Shin Tsukimi is assumed to be a timid person (based off a future interaction with Shin’s AI in Chapter 3, Part One.), while Sou Hiyori (The original will be referred to as Midori) on the other hand is a bit paranoid, and is willing to do just about anything to survive. He has a friendly mask on at first, but he’ll go as far as to manipulate those he cares about to ensure his survival. More specifically, he imitated Midori’s personality, even though it was uncomfortable to deal with before the game.

The next verse continues to say, “Since the fate of this ‘me’ is to get betrayed - Before anyone can, I’ll throw that ‘me’ away! - If the truth is I’m not worth enough to survive - I’ll lie and I’ll lie, till the truth can’t decide what’s right! - Whether or not you hate this me - It’s not my turn to die”.

It’s a bit packed but let me explain.

The first line is about how he doesn’t trust anyone (note that Shin also says something about betrayal in the massacre ending), specifically saying ‘this me’ as if there were other versions, or perhaps facades. It’s possible  that Shin could’ve been betrayed in the simulation, which, “I’ll throw that ‘me’ away” (also an allusion to the 2nd main game where he confesses, "I threw Shin Tsukimi away!!") But note too that he’s especially paranoid around kind people like Sara, who he believes to have an ulterior motive. It’s possible he saw that ‘him’ as weaker, which only strengthens the idea that he shut off any part of him that could’ve lowered his survival chances. Continuing, the line about lying is most likely a reference to the first main game. Or more specifically, before it, where he went through the trouble of hiding certain cards (which technically determine your role). There’s not an exact reason besides ‘playing the cards’ right. In fact, he played it to where Kanna found the Sacrifice. He then traded it for his commoner, before hiding it again, but that could lead to them thinking he’s the sacrifice. …But then he also lied and claims to be the Keymaster. Two very separate roles. (If the keymaster is voted, everyone dies. If the sacrifice is voted, everyone BUT the sacrifice dies, and they can choose one other person to live too. Otherwise, the sacrifice dies as well as the voted. It is possible though that he was just trying to get rid of the sacrifice card while also getting favors where he can, but what had happened was that Sou claimed to be Keymaster, in which Kanna claimed to be the Sage, who can verify that.)

Besides that, though, “whether or not you hate this me”, is because he’s the reason Joe, who had the sacrifice card, who is also Sara’s best friend, died. He also gave a bit of whiplash by a sudden personality change where he ‘snaps’ while accusing Sara. And of course, it’s not his turn to die (despite the fact that people did try,) due to Kai earning two more votes than him. Remember, it’s a death game by majority.

Last but certainly not least, is farther then halfway but certainly not 3/4ths in, is “Gloomy turmoil overflows - Facing my ally who believes her life’s worth Nothing. - “So, Shin…” - “How long until that facade caves in?”… - …The fate of this ‘me’ is to get betrayed - But I still couldn’t throw all the weaknesses away - If the truth is only one us can make it out alive - I’ve lied and I’ve lied, so it’s better to kill me, right? - Because I know you hate this me... - It’s my turn”.

In the second main game, there are four participants to be chosen for the ‘finals’. Keiji, Kanna, Sou, and Nao.

Keiji is the Keymaster. Nao is the Sacrifice. Kanna and Sou are the only commoners, and that means that they are the only ones who can be voted without leading to everyone’s death. There’s a problem here, and it’s deeper than ‘little girl vs adult male’, or ‘emotion vs logic’. Kanna is Sou’s sister. (Asunaro, the organization in charge of the death game, gave consent forms, where "I agree to devote myself to Asunaro for granting my wish." That’s it. No specifications or fine print. His was to meet his sibling.)

Kanna is also Sou’s only ally in a sense. Kanna was the one who stuck by him when everyone else was distrustful of him. Kanna trusted him, and you can only last for so long until a person like that is someone you care deeply for. “But I still couldn’t throw all the  weaknesses away.” Kanna was his weakness, and that conflicted with his need to live. When you want someone else to live too.

He confessed to everything.

“I... rewrote the blackboard... and also... I destroyed my own monitor in the Monitor Room!! I've told you everything! Just like I swore!! So please... save me... Win us an extension, please...!!”

Notice the use of us after he laid himself bare, after he confessed to it all, and then he had genuine trust in Sara to keep them both alive. This is because there was an error. Gashu, the host of the second main game, made a transgression.

"He'd try to kill a "non-candidate"

This is because of the roster of survival rates, Shin pointed out that they said candidates, not participants. That means of the four not listed.

The only one not listed in the final note is Nao, who has the sacrifice. Gashu was the one who tampered with the sacrifice, because "There's someone among us who doesn't have the right to victory... a non-candidate?" Note that the only ones left are the people on the roster. The only one who wasn’t was Nao, and that meant she didn’t have an AI. Therefore, it would mess up their ‘perfect’ simulation, and that was why he’d try to kill her.

..This is all for naught, because the game does not end.

"[4] If there is misconduct during the Main Game, it either proceeds with the transgressor's death, or must be retried 24 hours later!"

He kills himself, and they’re back to square one.

In the game, there are two paths that branch off here. Sou lives or Kanna lives. In the song, Sou is the one to live, and Kanna is the one who dies. The thing is, is that Sou is the one who begs for Sara to vote him, telling Kanna, who was speaking about voting her instead, and that Sou deserved another chance, to shut up. "Sara!! You hated me from deep down, right?! Aren't I awful?!" (from the game) “Because I know you hate this me...” (from the song)

So. Sou, or rather, Shin Tsukimi survived. He did everything in his power to last, to prove the simulation that taunted him wrong. To do so, though, he manipulated and lied. He hurt and he taunted. He changed his name, and he put on a mask. He did it! And for what? He left his past behind, made an ally out of a girl he manipulated and tricked. ..And when it all backfires, the one moment he stops caring about his own, and instead of another.. It didn’t really change anything, did it? He lived.

And to you, reader, I have one final question to leave you with.

Was it worth it? (and who would you choose, but that’s not much of a thinker, and “one final question”. Well it is, but the ‘was it worth it’ is partially to what sou did, as well as “was whatever decision you made in game worth it?” Sou or Kanna. Logic vs Emotion.) honestly this sucks

anyway this was helpful cause im actually writing a shin pov oneshot