Oh...

oh...

searched up the answers for all the emails

but..

ooh.... i wasnt sure about the handcuffs but our email was about using it on himself? so i figured 'i mean ppl like what they like' and that she'd use it on him

but.. oh...

you know what? i dont think i want this guy attending my party. can we talk about how the last option is either 'give her a bouquet of jasmine' (meaning like eternal love or something which, how do you expect someone to just know meanings like that. i chose it and instantly regretted it but i havent saved and im already getting irritaed at mystic messenger notifs so i just cant be bothered to load whenever the last time i saved is, which is i dont know)

or 'have an honest conversation'

tell me which one you think is the right answer. im waiting.

im so confused

Calisto Novastrae: But... I think I'm really cute (theres a kaomoji here but i can't really type it out)

(this is me. hes named after one of my ocs)

but uh. what. did i miss context? im so confused and why is there like a kaomoji (maybe im missing anime context..? but we dont play as naruto himself in the story so probably not?)

???? it was like 'even jiraya uses his frogs differently', the last dialogue box i mean. and then it went to this and i got so confused

(this is the naruto online game)

finished the game

fuck YES

also never seen this screen before

idk what ending to go now

DATE TIME

DATE TIME DATE TIME DATE TIME DATE TIME

this disturbing nightmare i had at one point

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i dont think i ever talked about it because it really fucked me up like holy shit what the hell

but then i just found it while doing something else. remembered it happened. and anyway its kind of interesting? one of the few nightmares with games or references to it (there was one of me building a bridge in mc creative and then i fell. or this weird field trip roller coaster fnaf nightmare). annd i typed it down

SO. its like two months old btw. i kind of still remember it but also not really

cough cough

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i had a very disturbing nightmare?? it was basically about this whole horror game

but i think it mightve been bleeding into reality?

and the last thing i remember is so basically the (PROBABLY tw warning)

we were trying to hide but like. something something, and i think we accidentally triggered the phone? so it was just constantly ringing. so we were goin to die soon. i just hear screams. i have my own phone, i type nonsense into it (keyboard smash), realize 'wait shit im gonna die' and quickly deleted it nad typed in 911. ring ring. theres a voice. its like. 'i SweAR i diDNt CheAT' and like 'DONT [blank. blank. i dont. remember . and i dont wnat to??]' and it was. terrifying. and i muted my phone.. and then me the character i was playing as screamed as they were dying. think the kind of horrifying scream from one of those terrifying vhs horror series. i think i called like. my. actual lover though? the other person we play as who was too late to save us. and. i. it. was very. disturbing. for some reason trying to leave the game browser brought me to like a really old roblox? and iwas trying to navigate to discord. ..because i wanted to share my experience there, my horror experience where i was on like a walk or something and being chased and hunted and something something. headbang.

i think my mind just got increasingly annoyed. because i kept wanting to go to discord to talk about it (whether about the game, the dream, or the 'real experience' i have no fucking clue) i remember having that urge. to. get. up. but i wasnt actually awake. so i just got increasingly confused and lost and panicked because i was trying to leave but i couldnt??

rereading this the 'type nonsense' probably doenst make sense. clarification: im viewing this as both as playing a game and also 'holy shit tHATS ME'. i was like 'fuck im dead anyway'. had that realization of 'wait shit I'M gonna die???' and did a last ditch effort to call 911. i knew though. we were. gonna die anyway though?? i had like this inventory thing i was messing around with while figuring it out and resigned to my character's death [honestly. it was probably some sort of weird time loop thing idfk except only i am aware. and i forget half the time]

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honestly. it was so confusing and horrifying. that maybe ill take this and write it into something for character angsty times

i finally reached it

already forgot what chapters it was but know it was like the last few chapters (SPOILERS)

lets just take a moment and lOOK AT HIM. LIKE HES SO PRETTYYYY and tHAT LITTLE SMILE !!!!

also AWEEE

and look at sad riddle aghh (honestly i don't think i'll ever like hearing full on crying, but the va did a fantastic job. like it wasnt just sniffles it was full on wailing)

like

trey: *saying something*

riddles dialogue box is literally just: *sob*

(anyway the section where we saw riddle's backstory was sad. and i noticed that the boxes where we get his thoughts sometimes cover his mouth so we can't see his expression. maybe it doesnt really mean anything but it felt like something to me)

anyway. you know how i got into twisted wonderland cause i read khr fics where skull was them or something? there was a riddle rosehearts one. and it honestly solidified riddle as one of my favorites before i even knew him

also it makes a lot more sense now (the writer gave him a happy family for one though which awe)

also "...and completely lost track of the time." gave me literal chills

anyway i hate the purple twistunes (sometimes the blue and red ones are trippy when notes are playing at the same time but i got into the habit of 1. listening to the music for guidelines, and 2. noting which color came first so i dont get confused). they're so unreasonably hard sob getting the timing right is hard and the music is a liar because i expect there to be a beat so i hit too early because im listening to the music and its WRONG. so i have to take the music with a grain of salt. listen to it but dont strictly follow it. and really focusing on the white bar but you ever focus so much you stop being able to focus like oh my god i get distracted and i dont know wHY (and thus comes the technique of 'go to the hardest difficulty, beat it, and then go back' or like. at least try it. cause sometimes it makes normal easier???)

if i didnt get all the things for twistunes itd bother me eternally. because rhythm is my jam. but sometimes they're so frustratingly hard cause you have to get like no misses (or no goods and stuff) for easy and normal. and easy is easier but sometimes it just doesnt click with me and aGH.

and im SO thankful that you dont have to get no misses on hard, you just need like ss and stuff which isnt that hard because you can miss a bunch and still get there. but oh my god i remember this time i was so used to it that every mistake i made on hard i just reseted. took a minute to think and realize 'hey wait a second this is hard')

pff.

lOOK AT THE SMILE

anyway i assume riddles mom cant influence him while hes here. does he still live with her? or does he have his own place? but like. if youre so used to following rules set by other people then how do you even live by yourself?

i mean. i guess he kinda took the queen's rules to heart, as familiarity and also something meant to be followed no matter what, because surely if it s a thing that exists, then surely it must be enforced, right? because the queen of hearts was the rightest or something

anyway savanaclaw is next i think. i dont know any of them lmfao

(i just remembered- i think riddle was like genuinely gonna kill ace. he like called on the roses to attack him or something and trey overruled it temporarily by turning it into like cards. oop.)