GOODBYE

GOODBYE

Prabhas x fem oc

( incomplete love but stronger than complete one)

ᴅᴇᴀʀ ᴅᴀʀʟɪɴɢ,

Everyday now, literally everyday... I sit in this corner of my room grieving , grieving 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 grieving. For all that could have been, for all things that are not.

Do I deserve this . Yes! Probably i do. this is the punishment i should get for falling for you.

All those days and year of holding your hand, admiring how you smile, adoring how just simple things make you blush , how you become a brat when it comes to food but a darling when it comes to anything else, how everyday i wait for smallest message , how you changed from being a total shy boy to a fully talkative best friend in 7 yrs.

Your innocent eyes, lazy gummy smile, adorable childish . I saw them and that's why i could not my stupid heart to fall in love with you. I knew it was wrong but risk was love ,for sure.

I dreamed how life would feel with you, for days for year till the time I gathered courage to shout and tell everyone i love you, tell you that         " 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙋𝙧𝙖𝙗𝙝𝙖𝙨.. 𝙔𝙚𝙨                             𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 ..𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪                       𝙁𝙤𝙧 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨"

I was ready tell you this... Waiting for seven years has made me weak i could not do this anymore , i could not hide this anymore. I knew you never wanted love you were clear. I know you told me thousand times prabhas that how important friend i am to you. But that was the problem prabhas i was only your friend but you were my world . I didn't wanted to lose you so kept my secret but i could not anymore.

That when my life turned , that when the world shattered for me. When you invited me to your house saying you have a surprise.. A surprise that came like storm and destroyed the house of my hope..

And then I realized that probably this was my fate , your love was never mine, never will be.

You were my savior. I want to tell you that i am scared, i scared of losing you but then again... You were never mine.

I didn't know love until I met you. I didn't know how to pray until I loved you. And I didn't know how much I loved you until I learned how to let you go.

Yes i am letting you go from my heart. to the place where you belong to be. You belong with me, Maybe in another world or lifetime, but I know you belong with me

Should I be grateful or should I curse the fact that despite all misfortune I can still feel love...

I am going prabhas ... I am going.... I don't know what to say to you expect that it tore my heart out of my body saying goodbye to you in person so writing this letter to you... Happy marriage buddy ♡

I knew from the moment I met you I would spend a lifetime missing you. But I choose it for me i am sorry..i ran behind the need of your love but it was always there in you ,in your friendship. It's not your fault, never was.

I am leaving you , leaving this world.. Because I am afraid I will love you forever and we will still never be in the same room again.

I hope you know that I always want you to be happy. Parul is a nice girl love her forever. At last i just want to tell you these lines of my favorite song

" 𝘴𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘪 𝘮𝘰𝘩𝘢𝘣𝘣𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘢𝘺𝘢𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘩𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘪 𝘫𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘪𝘯 𝘫𝘶𝘯𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘪 𝘫𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘪𝘯 𝘫𝘶𝘯𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘪 𝘱𝘢𝘳 𝘥𝘰 𝘥𝘪𝘭𝘰𝘯 𝘬𝘪 𝘺𝘢𝘢𝘳𝘪 𝘮𝘦𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘩𝘪 𝘵𝘰, 𝘬𝘪𝘵𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘪 𝘒𝘪𝘵𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘪 𝘥𝘦 𝘬𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘫𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘥𝘢𝘢𝘪 𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘢𝘣 𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘶𝘫𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘢𝘢𝘮 𝘥𝘪𝘺𝘢 "

ʏᴏᴜʀ's ғᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ

"Grief is really just love. It's all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go."

Hey Palchin

Tellllllll meeee what comesssssss next ????? PLEAEEEEEE. this was sooo good . I have never read anything like neck kisses before.... Its soo good

Hey lovely...

Well i am still writing but i guess you gonna get cold jk for time but yk he loves y/n ..

𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 : jungkook x reader

𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: yandere, best friend to lover, jungkook is a hotty, angst

𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴: keep a tissue box with you guys

𝗦𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆 : He loves bieng my friend ,but he has girlfriend who he loves ....could this possibly change him from your close friend to a distant person .. And 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘬𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘬 𝘤𝘰mfort

𝗣𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀 :-

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𝗡𝗘𝗖𝗞 𝗞𝗜𝗦𝗦𝗘𝗦

Pairing: Jungkook x reader genre: yandere, best friend to lover, jungkook is a hotty, angst warning: oc is sad and lonely Summary : H

𝗔/𝗻: first all i am so sorry, so so so sorry.. I know it took this long but I just had a lot in plate this past time....i hope you enjoy 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀

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You cried, cried until you slept that night everything was blurry . For days you felt like you were sick nothing was making you happy you didn't wanted to live.

You felt utterly used Ridiculous.

Days after your argument with him. You ran into him at the grocery store .You went there so you could distract yourself after being shut in your apartment for 9 days . You were angry , you clearly were but then again you were naive you wanted to have a civil conversation. If it was to end you wanted to end this all on good terms.

"Hey" you greeted him, nervousness evident in your voice." uhh...hi" He could possibly see dark circles under your eyes it caused an uneasy feeling inside his heart. " Kook... Umm I wa -"

You were cut by an utterly annoying female voice you wished you never heard " jungkookie ... What is she doing here" . This bitch "I thought you said you ended your shitty friendship with her " that was your last straw, you knew she was the one that caused the drift between you and jungkook .

But you never thought he will bring the argument you two had in this way to her.. Clearly stating that he ended... "Oh , so you really wanted to end this up.. That's why you brought that shitty excuse of being busy " You said, not being able to control your emotions further. " Nari.. This is not what I meant.. Listen to me"

He sounded somewhat panicked" Stop stop it " You ran past him out of the store not being able to listen anything moreHe ran after you. He wanted to keep you away from him but reason and things where different than it was looking.. He held your hand turning you so you could face him " Listen to me, nari I don't want you to do anything stupid ".

"Shut up .. I am Fucking stupid… I’m so fucking stupid,” you cried.“Do I really not matter enough to you? All these years of being your best friend and… and this is how you treat me? I know you’re busy, I know work is hard. But college is hard too, people aren’t nice all the time and sometimes I wish I could call you, but I don’t want to bother you at work,” You cried harder

." Nari.. Please " You never screamed at him, you didn’t scream at anybody. You were always so soft, so gentle and tender. You were understanding. But Jungkook hurt you .More than once.And you were tired of it.

“I’m so sick of the person I love more than anything, hurting me like this… if this is how you’re going to treat me then I don’t want to be your friend anymore,” you said, voice breaking.“No, nari , please! Please don’t do this, I love you so much, just things are not straight right now nari, please!” He said, tears in his own eyes.

“Goodbye, Jeon… hope it’s worth it,” you said, turning to leave.Jungkook froze, his cheek stinging but he could hardly feel it over the agonizing pain that flared in his chest.He fell to his knees, tears streaming down his face.He was a fool…And he’d lost you for good

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Months passed and Jungkook stayed far away from you.No texts.No calls.But even after four months apart, you still couldn’t delete his number from your phone.

You couldn't bring yourself enjoying something or even talking to people . Its hard trying to ignore the pain in your heart but it's just there not going anywhere.. No matter matter how much you try you miss him, you really do You were now at the club waiting for your date to come , it weird being there alone.

It's not that you have come here first time but it's first time at club without jungkook. The volume of the music playing at this club was enough to blast your earbuds. The sweaty bodies clinging to your skin and the body odour in the air filling your nose trills was giving you ick. Sure, people are getting wild as time passes by but the dim lights was making it more sensual contrast to the atmosphere.

And there you see those dark eyes you wished you could just ignore staring at you , first at your face then at your outfit. It was the same outfit you suggested to buy just to tease jungkook cause it was way to reveling and he refused saying he don't want some weird guys ogling at you.

But after your fight you just found yourself doing everything that he refused to , out of annoyance just like you are doing now. He knew you didn't know he was there but your dress that was something he knew you did to irk him. “Hey! Y/n?” someone’s voice calling out to you make you came out of your thoughts.

When you focused, you saw your date standing a few foots away from you. You guys goes on a date some days ago, it went well and he suggested you should go on more dates with him, he would love that. He genuinely showed his interest towards you, even confessed to you that he likes you, very much. You were just feeling so sick of jungkook staring at you as if he will eat you . So without even a second thought you hugged your date.

If jungkook was there with his girlfriend enjoying why can't you. Jungkook is pissed, so much so that he goes straight to the seat he was occupying before, where his friends were seated and chugs down two shots in one go. Why is he so mad? He don’t know. Does It bothered him to see you with another man? Yes. Does he want you to stay by his side rather than that pathetic little piece of shit? Abso-fucking-lutely YES!

Jungkook just shrug it off as he took another shot which go straight down his throat, burning it in it’s way down. He doesn’t seem to find the reason why you like this men? Let alone date him? As much as he know, you’re not someone who is interested in these stuffs, so why now? It confuses and bothers him at another level.

What were you going to do now, have drinks with your date, kiss him or.. going to take him to your house and let him take your virginity. Now he found himself getting furious. But was he even getting himself so worked upMinutes passed, and then hour..... You were still with that guy visibly drunk as hell , and ready to go with him to probably fuck... That was the last straw for jungkook-

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𝓘 𝓱𝓸𝓹𝓮 𝓾 𝓮𝓷𝓳𝓸𝔂𝓮𝓭 𝓲𝓽 ... 𝓹𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓮 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀𝓼 𝓸𝓷 𝓲𝓽 🦢☁✨

 an ode to a broken heart (m.)—masterlist

pairing: jeon jungkook/reader

genre: unrequited love, best friends to (?), heavy angst, future smut

summary: you’ve watched jeon jungkook slip out of your reach your entire life. now it’s time for you to finally move on, bury the past and open a new chapter. however, you’re doing it in your own, unconventional way - by publishing anonymously a novel about your miserable relationship.

prologue: october sky

it’s october, the sky today is clear and cloudless, just like your love for certain raven-haired boy. first is abnormality, second - a cruel reality.

chapter one: beginning of an end

loving jeon jungkook is, above all, the beginning of an end.

chapter two: of peonies and broken promises

you are twenty-four, hopelessly in love with your best friend and peonies still make you nauseous, just like they did eleven years ago.

chapter three: from magnolia with love

you’ve watched jeon jungkook slip out of your reach your entire life. onw it’s time for you to finally move on, bury the past and open a new chapter. however, you’re doing it in your own, unconventional way - by publishing anonymously a novel about your miserable relationship.

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