I'm So Sorry For Everything That's Happened To You And Your Newborns, But Thank You For Sharing. You're

I'm so sorry for everything that's happened to you and your newborns, but thank you for sharing. You're absolutely right -- we don't need a gathering of holier-than-thou white supremist jerks to make a choice for the people actually going through this kind of experience.

THIS IS THE BUSINESS OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY DEALING WITH THIS TOPIC. NOT DELUSIONAL KNOW-IT-ALLS THAT DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW REPRODUCTION WORKS.

I was 30 years old.

I was married.

We were happy.

We were established.

Our 401k runneth over.

We decided to start a family.

I got pregnant right away.

Like right away.

We were over the moon.

I kept a journal of every day of the magic.

I got a bump.

I felt our baby kick.

I embraced it fully.

I rejected tests because "it won't change our path"

Emily sent out baby shower invitations.

The nursery was under way.

And then.

I'm almost halfway there!

I'm 18 and a half weeks pregnant.

The doctor called.

It was 7pm.

I was out at dinner with my friend Deb.

I stepped outside.

The day before on a whim I agreed to a blood test.

"There's probably nothing to worry about but we need you to come in. There's a 1 in 36 chance something is wrong"

I called Liza sobbing.

My sister told me to lay out 36 straws and see that there's still such a good chance that everything is fine.

I didn't sleep.

We drove up to Forsyth because that was the first available amniocentesis.

The needle was long.

The room was dark.

The news was really bad.

I changed in that moment forever.

It's a girl!

We had named her Audrey.

Audrey Roesel -- the girl who will make me a mom.

She was missing her nasal bone.

Her kidneys were tiny.

Her heart was missing a chamber.

She had an extra chromosome.

Part of her brain wasn't formed.

Her head was growing at a rate 4x faster than her limbs.

I want to be a mom.

This is my girl.

This situation could really hurt my body.

She will be in immeasurable pain.

I didn't understand "incompatible with life"

I cried.

I cried some more.

I was already a mom.

Moms keep their children from pain.

Time is ticking.

I'm 19.5 weeks now.

We are in Georgia.

There's a time limit, you know.

It's Labor Day now.

Doctors go on vacation.

Somehow the world around us keeps on.

Not for me.

In the interest of time...

They sent me to an abortion clinic.

Me.

At an abortion clinic.

After 20 weeks, it's illegal, you know.

It's the night before.

I ran a bath.

I said goodbye to my daughter in that tub.

Just the two of us before the world turned upside down.

Did you know...

You have to go 2 days in a row?

1 to dilate

1 for a D&E

It was brutal emotionally.

It hurt physically.

I begged to be put under.

A kind doctor took my hand.

His hands were large and warm.

He told me I would be a mom one day.

He was an angel.

I woke up in a group recovery room.

In a recliner. Next to a young girl. Maybe 13. She was also recovering. I took her hand.

My milk came in.

Nobody told me.

It hurt in my body and my soul.

I grieved. Hard.

For months and months.

I held onto a teddy bear the size of a newborn.

I ached everywhere inside and out.

It was a fluke they said.

Fast forward four months.

Pregnant again.

Scared.

Excited.

First ultrasound.

Baby’s gone.

Go to the hospital for D&C.

This is also considered abortion.

They tested the tissue.

it was a boy!

Chromosomes were normal.

Isn’t that good news?

Grief ensued.

So did genetic testing B and me.

I’m not ashamed.

I never was.

I’m what abortion looks like.

So is the 13 year old girl in that recovery room.

In Texas we’d be criminals.

Access to safe abortion is a woman’s right.

And abortion is a decision to be made between a woman, her doctor, her family, and her god.

...Not a majority white male cohort of politicians with a false sense of morality.

And your judgement?

It matters not.

That's the thing, trying to come up with a response in a timely way. I'm not trying to say I constantly make people wait when it comes to texts or replies to posts out of sheer laziness. Oftentimes I need to let my brain fully process what I'm reading, especially because I struggle so much with social anxiety.

Aaaand then I forget unless I constantly keep it in the back of my head for several hours--then low-key anxiety about it burns me out. Maybe making a note of it would help...

And when it comes to not being sure people are being genuine? OH MY GOD I KNOW THE FRUSTRATION. We were actually talking about this in an autism program I'm taking. We're a small class--maybe 10-15 people, and ALL OF US, TEACHERS INCLUDED, BASICALLY GROANED IN FRUSTRATION ABOUT HOW THE COMMON PERSON JUST. CAN'T. BE. FREAKING. DIRECT WITH THEIR WORDS!

It was the biggest "I know, right!?" moment I've ever seen! I could probably go on about that for hours, but now's not the time for that.

Ikami, I don't think that you're disingenuous at all. I've seen your comments and posts and replies and such, and you're always truthful about your opinion on something. It's super refreshing. I think people like us, who are more direct, do need to be careful with our words, but other people need to have patience before they get judgmental. People need to learn to meet halfway.

Those people who are all "WhY wOuLd YoU tHiNk ThAt!?1" when they come across a post that only SOUNDS bad on the surface--that's THEIR problem. Maybe a little explanation why one would "think that" ("that" being anything that doesn't sound like sunshine and rainbows) would help, but it's up to them to listen before judging... the world will get there, someday.

I stand firm when I say that you are NOT a bad person. I understand how tough of a mindset to get past, but you're already making progress (and I have, too) We're actually kind of in the same boat, fearing that people only hang out and talk to us out of pity.

But you wouldn't be so caring towards your friends and vice-versa if you were a terrible person. I haven't seen you hurt or harass anyone, you're thankful when someone is understanding, and more. We may not know each other IRL, but I've truly, honestly have not seen any hints of you being unkind. I like talking to you, and I'll be as patient as other people, including you, have been with me when it comes to replying.

YYEEEEEESSSS THE PAIN AND ANGST HAS BEEN UPLOADED👹👹

Vahbsbsndndndj these episodes where wholesome ^^

It was painful but also comforting 💗

DA DEER BEAN! :D

That outfit is adorably and beautifully drawn! It absolutely screams "PRINCESS" with the flowing skirt and puffy sleeves with frills. I like how you made the skirt smooth instead of folded like a "typical" princess dress, and how you gave it an extra layer of fabric instead. It's simpler, which I think is fitting for a soft-spoken and mild-tempered little kid like Dazzle.

And that tiara is adorable. Along with how you drew her eyes. I just love the colors on both.

This kind of looks like a mix between her "work" dress (when she's helping Sun at the Daycare) and her pajama dress. Don't know if that was intentional, but nice job!

As Dazzle would probably say: "Yay~!"

Dazzle!!

LOOK AT HER!! LOOK HOW PRETTY SHE IS!!

some extra sun/moon gif ya'll :]

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LUNAR AND EARTH SHOW IMPORTANT!!!

https://youtu.be/XYGtRbdxZo8?si=CJs3OhgZY5i7Z8fI

This is the link to the video that someone took from Davis' stream!

It's about Lunar and Earth show!

Share it wherever you can so as many people could see this as possible!

Please this is important!

YouTube think that laes might be a scam channel, Davis can't go into the details but he said that maybe it might be because of Temu making Lunar's plushies..

This is awful and ridiculous..

We have to spread this as much as we can, please ^^

I appreciate every single one of you who tries to spread a word cause many people still was asking what about laes under new sams episode so we have to help them know, we need to spread the message ^^

Thank you for reading this and sharing this ^^💗

Different shades of green,