Born To Marry Him, Forced To Read Fanfics About Him

born to marry him, forced to read fanfics about him

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Some of you may understand how I feel. I read an article that talked about how our brains can’t tell the difference between falling in love with a real person and falling in love with a fictional person.

Now the fictional ones are perfect, comfort characters. Everytime I go through a break up, I come home to them. Maladaptive daydreaming has become my best coping skill. And sometimes I genuinely worry that I do it too much. It takes up hours of my days.

And when I try to date in real life, I realize that they’re not them. They’re not my fictional loves. And I lose feelings for them. Or just something isn’t right.

I get so depressed that I can’t run away to Hogwarts or to Hawkins. I get actually depressed. And I know that I can’t be the only one that feels this way.

Being in love with someone who does not exist is a blessing and a curse.

Love at not first sight

**gif isn't mine!!

All character are over 18!

So this was supposed to be a headcannon on how Marcus and the reader met but it turned out more like a one-shot? Anyways this is my first time writing in a very, very long time so no hate please :)

A little bit ooc for everyone but it was really just get a little bit of ground on how to write again.

TW: Swearing, minor character death, blood, fighting, sexual tension, innuendo and suggestive words/actions and shitty writing.

Words: 2.3k

Happy reading!!

You were one of the rats, but was still respected by everyone including Chico’s gang.

It wasn’t love at first sight lemme tell you that. It was more of kidnapper enemies to friends to lovers type of trope.

He was angry with you for forcing him to come back, whereas you just thought he was an idiot for refusing to follow Master Lin’s orders. However, you started getting along once he joined the rats.

At first it was awkward, you would ignore home and flip him off and the tension between you guys was so thick you could cut it with a knife.

Yet you soon found your common interests. You both hated Brandy-Lynn with a passion and in a way you bonded over that in the first place. Soon enough, you guys were hanging out in his room when Shabnam wasn’t there, getting high in your dorm when your roommate Saya was out with the Kuroki Syndicate, and listening to one another’s favourite music.

It was paradise in a way. The rats were all friends now and you would go to the graveyard every Friday night to smoke weed. Soon enough the looks shared between you two weren’t innocent and you weren’t the only one who noticed. Billy was like a brother to you and wary of you liking Marcus. Especially with Maria being such a psycho and liking him as well.

It was clear since the beginning that Maria liked Marcus. Whether it was to make Chico Jealous, to spite you or actual love no one knew. However what was clear between the rats was that Maria wasn’t going to give up on making Marcus fall in love with her and boy was that going to get you all in a lot of trouble.

As mentioned, Billy was like a brother to you, so when he decided to go to Vegas and kill his dad, you were on board first. Anything to help your brother, right?

Soon enough the rest of the gang agreed to come, including Maria and Willy. However it was clear that Marias intentions weren’t pure, she was going along to make sure nothing happened between you and Marcus and not to help Billy with murdering his dad. Since there were 6 of you and only five car seats… you know where this is going right?

Yup, you were willing forced to sit in Marcus’s lap for the rest of the ride. Even though you couldn’t tell, Marcus didn’t mind it all. In fact, it made him calmer knowing you were with him otherwise he would be freaking out right now about what this youthful group was going to commit.

Once you get to the hippy bar he’s immediately in search of drugs, anything to help him calm his nerves. When you enter the bar he tries to impress you by buying you a beer with his fake ID but it backfires terribly. However you manage to seduce the bartender into getting you two free beers which not only impresses Marcus but also makes him feel a little bit embarrassed that he wasn’t able to get you a drink instead.

Once again, 6 people at a table for 5. Guess where you end up? At this point you didn’t mind sitting on Marcus’s lap however you wouldn’t dare admitting that to anyone, especially to Marcus. After all you guys were just friends, no feelings between either of you. Right?

While focusing on hiding your feelings for Marcus, you were oblivious to his feelings for you. He tried really hard not to make his heart race whenever you were in his vicinity but he thought you were drop dead gorgeous after all.

What you didn’t fail to notice was how his hand wrapped around your waist and how his fingers would draw small circles on the side of your stomach. Marcus didn’t either fail to notice how your breath hitched. The cocky bastard loved the effect he had on you.

His hand then lowers itself to the bottom of your thigh and slowly drags up until it reaches the hem of your dress. Even though he seems cocky, Marcus is freaking out on the inside, wondering where he got this sudden burst of courage. While drinking the rest of your beer, Marcus’s hand reaches slightly under your dress which makes you choke on your drink.

The rest of the group shares confused looks yet Saya somehow knew what was going on. You excused yourself to the restroom and Marcus followed, claiming he was just going to “check up on you”.

Once you're both in the bathroom, he immediately presses you against the wall. His hot breath against your face somehow made you shiver and his body pressed against yours made you warm.

Maybe it was the seven tabs of acid he took or the several shots he had taken (courtesy of you and your amazing flirting skills) but his confidence took over. Soon enough you both were half naked and making out, about take it further until Maria knocked on the door.

“Hurry up Y/N! We gotta go! Have you seen Marcus? I’ve been meaning to talk to him.”

“No… Uh Maria I haven’t.. seen… him.”

You lost track of your words while Marcus kept kissing you lower and lower.

“Ummm Ok? I’ll meet you at the car!” Shout Maria through the bathroom door.

“Common Marcus”, you muttered disappointed due to the interruption caused by Maria. His pupils were blown and by the time you got out of the bathroom, out the bar, got him out from under the car and into the car, it had been an hour.

Once you got to the hotel in Vegas you lost track of Marcus but found him at the bar headed towards the elevator. He looked a bit sobered up and uneasy as if he had seen a ghost.

“You ok?” you asked him.

“Yeah I uh I’m fine. I gotta go, I'll see you later” he responded.

You thought he was purposely ignoring you because of what happened at the bar since you guys were only friends… right?

You didn’t follow him up to the hotel room but rather stayed downstairs in the casino with Saya. When Billy came running up to you, you knew something was wrong.

"I just asked at the lobby and it turns out his room is neighbouring ours." Billy started nervously, he looked like he was going to back out any second. Not because he was afraid to kill his dad, but because he was afraid of getting caught. No, he needed that bastard dead, it was to save his family after all.

"Who?" You asked like a complete, oblivious idiot. You were halfway drunk due to all the shots you had taken. The way Marcus had acted had gotten to your head and you wanted to get rid of your nerves before killing Billy's dead beat dad.

"His dad you fuckin' idiot" Saya said while shoving your arm in hopes to restart your memory.

The alcohol was really getting to your head.

"I'll go with Billy to get the job done. Y/n go find Marcus and Maria, make sure they're ready to help get rid of the body and leave as soon as possible." Said Saya, her being the least drunk and most responsible in your current trio.

You nodded your head, a little bit hazy but still able to somewhat comprehend what Saya had just told you.

You walked towards the elevator which Marcus had taken around an hour ago and when you entered you saw a man, in his early 20's with half his face burned off. He looked horrible really, but you were a little too drunk to notice.

"Hey" the guy said. There was something off about him, but it was impossible to tell in your current state.

"Hey" you said back, trying to be as polite as possible. He was creeping you out but soon enough he got out and you got off a couple floors later.

You had sobered up a little after your short yet creepy interaction with the guy in the elevator and were taking out your keycard. You heard shouting inside the room which was weird considering only Marcus was supposed to be in there.

You open the door and walk in and see something you most definitely weren't expecting. Maria, half naked in lingerie straddling Marcus on the bed and Chico, Marias (ex)boyfriend yelling at the two.

Neither Maria nor Chico had noticed you Marcus however, did. How could he not after all? You looked amazing, in your gorgeous dress, with your shiny hair and beautiful face. To him, you looked like an angel. An angel who looked furious, shocked and saddened by the ongoing motion in the room.

Rather than focusing on Marcus and what he was doing with Maria, you grabbed the lamp on the small desk by the entrance and smashed it over Chico's head, using the element of surprise to your advantage.

To say Maria and Marcus were surprised would be an understatement. You weren't one for violence, however, you were absolutely pissed at the couple on the bed and Chico scared you so it seemed like the only reasonable option.

"We have to go, common" you muttered, not wanting your feelings to take over.

"Wait Y/N let me expl-" Marcus started until he was cut off by the figure of Saya and Billy covered in blood and standing in the doorway.

You rushed past them and out the door, not wanting to stay in the room a second more. Billy stared at you confused while Saya looked like she was about to kill both Maria and Marcus for what (it looked like) they had done.

Hurry up, she started to get pissed to bother yelling at either of them. Marcus ran out the door in search of you while Maria quickly got dressed whereas Billy hurried off after you and Marcus.

"What the hell were you thinking?" Saya asked Maria while they were walking down the corridor of the Hotel.

"What? It's not like he has a girlfriend or anything. Besides, I broke with Chico before we left so it wasn't like I was actually cheating on him. I needed a distraction and Marcus just happened to be there." Maria said innocently.

"Right..." Said Saya, not believing a word of the bullshit Maria had just spewed out.

You reached Willy who was by the car first in the abandoned, underground parking, Marcus soon behind you and then Billy who was still confused but worried about his sister.

“Please Y/N just let me explain I swear we didn’t do anyth-'' he started trying to explain until he was cut off again.

“Explain what? That you’re so busy trying to fuck Maria?” you asked him sarcastically. Billy and Willy looked at each other shocked by what you had said which made Marcus pull you over to the side where they wouldn’t be able to hear you.

“No, I obviously wasn’t trying to fuck Maria. She came onto me, I would never do anything like that with her.”

“What, and you just expect me to believe you? Believe you like how I thought that you actually liked me but then you were hooking up with Maria meanwhile Billy was killing his own dad in the room next door?! What the hell is wrong with you?”

“FOR THE LAST TIME I WASN’T TRYING TO FUCK HER!” Marcus screamed, making Billy and Willy turn towards you two again.

“ I swear we weren't doing anything Y/N, please just let me explain” the pleading in his voice winning you over. Marcu was on the verge of tears, he could never imagine hurting you like this, not in a million years. And yet, he had.

“Fine. Just hurry up, we have to leave soon.” You said, tears streaming down your face while you were moving back and forth on the heels of your feet in a nervous manner. You were exhausted, having stayed up the entire car ride making sure Billy wasn’t freaking and not having had any time to rest in the room due to you know what. Your hair looked more dishevelled than your usual and your eyes were puffy but Marcus couldn’t notice. He didn’t understand how you did it. How you looked so flawless, not matter the time, occasion or setting. He really thought you were an angel. Cement pillar

“Goddammit I swear nothing happened Y/N, I was high on acid and fell asleep on the bed. Next thing I know, Maria is on top of me while her Fucken boyfriend walks in and then seconds later you walk in. I swear I was gon’ push her right off. I don’t even like her shes crazy as fuck and Chico’s also fucking insane. I don’t like her, I like you. You’re intelligent, funny and witty and your so, so fucking beautiful. You’re literally drop dead gorgeous.”

“What and you still expect me to believe you?” You were still unsure whether his words were true or not. You didn’t know if Marcus himself had noticed it but he tended to be a people pleaser, made people hear what they wanted to hear.

“Prove it” You said to him.

“What-” He looked at you stunned, not expecting you to voluntarily talk to him anymore. Yet the fact that you did made his heart flutter more than he was willing to admit. Marcus hated the effect you had on him, how weak you made him. Love, at King’s Dominion, was seen as a weakness and it scared him so much.

“Prove it”, you repeated, “Prove to me that you want me, that you love me-”

Marcus didn’t need more clarification. He wrapped his left hand around your waist and the other in your hair cutting you off with a kiss. A kiss so passionate and filled with love, love from his heart.

“Is this enough proof? Or do you want me to kiss you again?” He said while trying to hide a not so innocent smirk.

Breathlessly, you looked up at him and said, “I think you might need to do that again, you know, just to really prove yourself”.

And he did.

DRACO MALFOY in HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRICE (2009)