My Mum Tied My Hair Up With Bows! I Feel So Very Pwetty And Smoll :}

My mum tied my hair up with bows! I feel so very pwetty and smoll :}

I unintentionally look like my barbie! She smells like strawberriessssss.

Baby Black Birds!!!!

I love watching their lil bodies rise and fall with their breaths. It’s like watching my cat! Super cuteeeee. Mama bird looks so cute n dorky on her nest <3

CW: I’m very sad about Halloween.

Crying because my feed is just autumn/halloween stuff but it’s never been a thing here :(

Never been trick or treating :(

Never dressed up for it :(

No one decorates their houses (there’s a rare few) :(

The only Halloween parties are just an excuse for uni students to get drunk and they barely even dress up :(

Never been to a hay maze nor a hay ride. Idk what a hay ride even is :(

Dunno what candy corn tastes like :(

It’s also spring here rn :(

I just want Halloween like everyone else but I’ll never have that childhood joy nor nostalgia because I’ve never done it :(

Like it actually makes me so depressed and envious and makes me want to actually scream and cry :(

(I mean I do like the Halloween aesthetic and am my own undoing by liking everyone’s posts..)

Felt truly horrible when I came home so I curled up in my bed in my new onesie, and paci, and cuddled my snuggly leopard toy and genuinely felt so so small. I used my lava lamp as a night light and it created such a nice atmosphere. My paci softly glowed in the dark and when I looked down at my blankets (which were right in front of my face) I could see my paci glowing on them :}

I think I may have also pet regressed slightly. Had real baby deer vibes going on. It felt so quiet and calming. Was nice :,}

I sometimes struggle to sleep with a paci in but this new paci is so comfortable and fits me really well :}

I was jus’ a small, vulnerable babie having a lil cry while feeling safe and comfortable. Pretended I was being cuddled and being talked to nicely and the occasional booty pat :}

Dunno why I wanted to share that but I am so yeah. I’m just kinda proud of myself for allowing myself to be so small, and soft, and vulnerable with myself.