Next Monday Is My Birthday And I Get To Talk To A Surgeon About If I Want My Cyst Removed AND A Hysterectomy

Next Monday is my birthday and I get to talk to a surgeon about if I want my cyst removed AND a hysterectomy or a uterine ablation, yaaaaay /s

I remember the first time I told my English teacher in college that I was on new meds for bipolar, so if I seemed off at all and didn’t notice, it was that and he literally put his hand up to MAKE ME STOP TALKING and said “I just need to know whether or not you’re going to bring a gun to school”.

My heart fell into my stomach, through the floor, and into the core of the fucking earth, it was really painful and insulting and I was extremely pissed off but COULDN’T SHOW IT because then he’d have more ammo against me and that’s like just BARELY SCRATCHING AT THE SURFACE of what I go through when people are aware of my mental illnesses. 

Some other fun things:

- Having my own step-mother tell me that she can’t stand being around me because she just sees her dead brothers who were also bipolar and committed suicide.

- Being locked out of a classroom after needing to take a moment to calm down from being triggered by the in-class film, then later having the teacher tell me to just drop the class if I ‘couldn’t handle it’.

- Having people lecture me about how I “need to make the decision to call a therapist” in HR at work even though I’m already actively seeing a psychiatrist and just needed time off work because MY MEDS STOPPED WORKING. Also being fired for ‘being unreliable” when I had to check myself into a clinic for being acutely suicidal.

- Having someone refuse to leave their kids alone with me or let me interact with them without supervision.

like i don’t want to tell people how to express their trauma but so much of ‘traumacore’ is just nonpsychotics blatantly sensationalizing psychotic stereotypes. buddy i get you have problems you wanna express but my mentally illness isn’t a fucking aesthetic for you to use :)

There’s honestly nothing funnier than like gay men acting like they’re not gay, but “male bonds” are just SO MACHO AND INCOMPREHENSIBLE to women, that they are superior- just admit you like taking it up the butt from your sparring partner.

Really hate how hyperfixation and infodump and other such words have had their meaning diluted by neurotypicals using them as if they mean "thing I like" and "talking about the thing I like" rather than their actual definitions, and now I'm starting to see tumblr posts with people saying shit like "Hyperfixation this, infodump that, just say you're obsessed with voltron and go" as if they're just some cringy tumblr fandom words weird people use instead of actually being terms adhd/autistic people use to describe their experiences

it's like the current use of gaslight or going back even further, trigger, it just keeps happening and online communities especially are so awful for it

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