Nothing Makes Me Feel Better Than When They Call Me My Boy It Actually Makes Me Feel So Good I Love It

Nothing makes me feel better than when they call me “my boy” it actually makes me feel so good I love it so much

I hate being a system right now

I hate the reason for us having to exist

I hate how much it makes school harder now

I hate the fact were gonna have to split a group of guys to do school

I hate the fact we have a group of guys to appease our parents

I hate the fact I can't remember what happened this week because i took a break

I hate that all of us are affected by our disorders, arent some of the brain friends supposed to be better at handling it??

And I hate we cant get a lot done most days

But what i dont hate is my headmates

I hate the disorder and the reason we have it, but i love my headmates. I love how hard were all trying. I love the silly moments, I love that i will never be alone, I love our caretakers, I love our protectors, I love our trauma holders, I love our subsystems, I love how diverse we all get to be. I love the world and community we get to create together.

I hate how hard living with this disorder is, but i would never hate my headmates for doing aer best and i think thats beautiful.

- Merí 🌨️❄️

— ୨୧₊˚ SYSTEM ASK GAME ...

positive posting and silly posting because i'm TIRED of syscourse GRAAAHHH EVERYBODY STFU AND BE HAPPY!!!!!

GENERAL QUESTIONS ...

💫 - what's your headcount (if you know)? ⭐ - are you commonly blurry, or do you usually know who's fronting? 🌟 - who are your frequent fronters currently? ✨ - do you have roles (gatekeepers, hosts, etc.)? do you have any non-conventional ones, if so? (ones that aren't commonly used)

FOR FICTIVES ...

❤ - what is your source or sources, and do you like it/them? 🧡 - do you source-identify? 💛 - what are your opinions on sourcemates in general? 💚 - have you ever directly consumed your source? 🩵 - do you think that the fandoms representation of your source character is accurate, or do you dislike it?

FOR ANY ALTER ...

💘 - do you have a "theme song"/a song you think represents you well? 💝 - do you have friends or relationships in general in headspace? 💖 - do you like fronting? why or why not? 💗 - do you dress up the body in a certain way when you front, or do you not mind how it's already dressed? 💞 - how well do you function with your headmates? EXTRA QUESTIONS (JUST FOR FUN) ...

🫂 - do you have a comfort item, song, or anything like that which you enjoy? 👥 - does your system argue over music playing? 👤 - what's your favorite part of headspace, if you have one? 🗣 - do you have a collective interest in anything?

if any of these questions are similar to a certain other ask game it's because i made one of these a while ago ... BEAR WITH ME GUYS. also please send these in to me as well

dear systems who say they have OSDD-1b but have amnesia,

I urge you to read the DSM-V diagnostic criteria for DID. if you are experiencing amnesia of any kind, you most likely have DID, not OSDD-1b. 

this is a quote directly from the DSM-V criteria:

“Recurrent gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events that are inconsistent with ordinary forgetting.”

it does not say that you need blackout switching amnesia, or even any kind of switching amnesia at all. do you frequently find yourself unable to clearly remember everyday events? that’s amnesia. 

and guess what? amnesia from childhood does count as dissociative amnesia! here’s another quote directly from the DSM-V:

“The dissociative amnesia of individuals with dissociative identity disorder manifests in three primary ways: as 1) gaps in remote memory of personal life events (e.g., periods of childhood or adolescence; some important life events, such as the death of a grandparent, getting married, giving birth) …”

this means that, yes, amnesia from your childhood (that is inconsistent with ordinary forgetting) is dissociative amnesia.

still think that your amnesia isn’t bad enough? check out this quote which is - you guessed it - also from the DSM-V:

“Individuals with dissociative identity disorder vary in their awareness and attitude toward their amnesias. It is common for these individuals to minimize their amnestic symptoms.”

it’s all too common for people to minimize their symptoms, and amnesia is yet another symptom that is commonly minimized. 

lastly, I’d like to show you the DSM-V’s definition of OSDD-1:

“Chronic and recurrent syndromes of mixed dissociative symptoms: This category includes identity disturbance associated with less-than-marked discontinuities in sense of self and agency, or alterations of identity or episodes of possession in an individual who reports no dissociative amnesia.”

I have italicized the part that refers to OSDD-1b. you’ll note that it doesn’t say “an individual who reports a little bit of dissociative amnesia”. it says “an individual who reports no dissociative amnesia.”

therefore, if you are experiencing dissociative amnesia, you more than likely have DID. it’s okay if your amnesia isn’t “severe” or if you don’t have blackout amnesia - that doesn’t mean you don’t have DID.

sincerely,

a DID system that used to think he was a OSDD-1b system but then realized that, oh shit, not remembering anything before you’re 10 is actually not normal, and neither is having your memories of recent events being super blurry and difficult if not impossible to recall. whoops.

⚠ this post was created by an anti-endo system. endos can reblog, but do not clown. this post is about DID and OSDD-1b, not non-disordered systems. ⚠

🌟 and 👥

🌟 - who are your frequent fronters currently?

for the whole system its Ame, Rus, Meri, Russia all from 🌨️❄️, and Erebus, Briallen, Rem, Casper, Smokey, and Aiden from 🌌

👥 - does your system argue over music playing?

no actually! Usually only 2 people front at a time and usually they get along well enough to not fight, we also have playlists with general aesthetics and playlists each system loves. Though only Aether fronts enough to want their own playlist

It’s perfectly normal to feel yourself doing well for awhile. You’ll think you’re over it, and then the bad days may come again. This is okay. It doesn't mean you've lost your progress. It doesn't mean you're weak or failing. It’s normal. Healing is a roller coaster.