The Letters You Never Sent | Spencer Reid X Reader

The Letters You Never Sent | Spencer Reid x Reader

Dear Spencer,

I’m sorry. God Spence, I’m so sorry. I don’t want to do this. And I need you to understand that I had to. I never wanted to leave you. I wish I didn’t have to. You are my everything. I never thought I would get to be with someone as amazing as you. The fact that I could get to wake up next to you every day is something I will cherish while I’m away. You don’t need to wait for me, it would be selfish of me to ask you too, and I understand if you move on. I don’t think I’ll ever get over you. These past few years have been extraordinary and I think they’re the only thing that will keep me going. I love you. I feel like I didn’t say it enough. So I guess I’ll say it now. Please stay strong for me.

I’m sorry,

Bug

Dear Spencer,

It’s been a week since I left and… I don’t know if it’s gonna get better. It should, of course, with time, but right now it hurts. It hurts so much. I know you’re the one who should be grieving. I’m dead to you for god sakes. But it still feels like I’ve lost all of you. And I’m so sorry I’m putting you all through this. I know I’ve said that before but I feel like if I keep saying then you’ll somehow know. There’s so much I want to tell you. Starting with I’m sorry doesn’t feel right, I am, so so so sorry, but I want to start with I love you. It sounds like I’m repeating my last letter but I’m not. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. You need to know that. More people should tell you. You deserve more than you know.

I love you,

Bug

Dear Spencer,

I hope you’re okay. That’s one way to start this, but I do. I’ll always worry about you. I know you can take care of yourself, but still. Life in Paris has been… okay? There’s nothing bad about Paris itself, I just miss you guys. When I see you again I hope to take you here. It’s nice. You would like the Louvre. It’s very interesting, all the artifacts. I know you could probably tell me everything there is to know about each one. I love that about you, you know? All the information you have in the big brain of yours, it’s what first drew me to you. I had just walked into the B.A.U, I was looking for Hotch at the time, and I saw you. I know that’s stupid and cliche but that’s how it went. You were sitting on Morgan's desk, probably rambling with how your hands were waving, and I just knew that I had to get to know you. Your hair was falling in front of your eyes and you just looked… like yourself. So carefree, you looked like someone who hadn’t seen all the horrors of the job. The more time I spent with you the more I knew how amazing you were. Everything you did, everything you said, made me more attracted to you. This is getting long. I should stop here. I love you. I’ll keep telling you that, even if you won’t read these.

I love you,

Bug

Dear Spencer,

Good morning, or afternoon, or night, whatever it is for you. I’m getting better, I hope you are too. I still miss you guys every day, that’s never gonna change. But I’m starting to enjoy the little things. I went to this bakery today. They had the most delicious chocolate croissant that you’ve ever tasted. I hope you’re doing alright. You’re probably still working cases. I’ve been trying to track Doyle, but with my limited resources, I haven’t got much. That’s alright. I know you guys, or at least Derek will do everything you can to catch him. Tell him I’m sorry. He must put all the blame on himself. He shouldn’t. This wasn’t his fault. Even if I did die it still wouldn’t be his fault. I hope all of you know that there’s nothing you could have done. I know that you’re probably confiding in JJ. When I come back, if I do, don’t put the blame on her. This is my fault. She isn’t allowed to say anything. And I wish I could tell you. I wish every day that I could send these letters to you, and be able to tell you how much you mean to me. But I can’t. It could compromise my location. And I don't think Doyle would leave me alive a second time.

I love you,

Bug

Dear Spencer,

I don't know how much longer I can do this. I know I said a while ago that things were getting better but I can't tell anymore. I mourn the loss of you guys every day. I ache to come back. And I don't know how much longer I can go looking at things and know you guys would like them. I went back to that bakery and tried this blueberry muffin, and it made me think of Penelope. Some day if/when I get back I want to take a trip with all of you to Paris. I know you guys would like it here. There’s not much else that’s interesting so I’ll end this now.

I love you,

Bug

Dear Spencer,

I’m coming home. Currently, I’m writing this on the plane. I miss you. And I’m sorry. I wanted to come back on my own terms, not because Doyle found Declan. I can’t wait to see you. I can’t wait to apologize. I’m sorry. I said this in my first letter but I am. So so so sorry. I’ll try to make it up to you. As much as I can. I’ll understand if you move on. I don’t want you to. God no. But I’ve been away for seven months, I won’t put it against you if you do. I should be reviewing what JJ sent me, but I want to tell you so much. I felt I would have more time, more letters to write, I didn’t think Doyle would find him so quickly. I still want to come home. If I had the choice I never would have left you. We’re gonna land soon so I need to end this now.

See you soon,

Bug

Walking into your and Spencer's shared bedroom the first thing you noticed was the tears. They were streaming down Spencer's face as he read one of your many, many,  many  letters. When he heard your sharp intake of air, he looked up from the letter he was holding. “Spence- I- How- How did you find those?” You asked, standing stiffly.

“Why didn’t you give me these?” He questioned, looking up at you. “I… I didn’t want to make you feel like you had to take me back just because I was thinking about you. You shouldn’t feel compelled to be in a relationship with me, and with what I did- I just… I… I couldn’t.” Without you noticing he had gotten up and came to stand in front of you.

“I will love you forever, no matter how long you stay away.  I love you for all that you are, all that you have been, all that you’re yet to be. Ernest Hemingway” He quoted, taking your face into his hands. “I love it when you talk quotes to me.” You replied, snaking your hands into his hair.

“ There ain't no mountain high enough, Ain't no valley low enough, Ain't no river wide enough, to keep me from getting to you. Marvin Gaye.” He whispered, leaning closer to you. Soon you were a hair's breadth away from each other's lips. “I love you.” He said, eyes raking over every detail of your face. “I love you more.” You responded, allowing your eyes to droop. “Not possible.”

Soon his lips were on yours and everything was perfect.

I love your work!!! I really adore your writing style

Omg thank you so much! I really don’t know what to say except thank you, but I truly mean it

I’m actually asleep and just scheduled this to post at exactly the time I was born (11:57PM) but happy birthday to me

I ate those feelings and they were delicious

i have never ordered the chocolate croissant from starbucks because it looks like it has feelings

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