azaenya

Azaenya (she/her)

Disabled Trans Lesbian Otherkin Artist 🏳️‍⚧️; Loves horror and gay shit; trapped in hell (the US); fuck AI; Free Palestine 🇵🇸

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Azaenya - Azaenya (she/her)

A SCANDAL IN BOHEMIA part two (part one here) in which Holmes attends a wedding and tells Watson all about it!

This is in the Watson's Sketchbook series!

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azaenya

1 year ago

I love to use my disability “as an excuse.” Fuck yeah my disability is an excuse. It’s the most valid excuse I have. I’m not helping you lift that box/etc because my disability would make it fucking painful. Not wanting to be in pain is a good enough reason. I’m not going to put myself in pain to comfort your sensibilities.

Yes I’m using my disability as an excuse because I refuse to hurt myself for you. If you’re mad about it you can cry! ❤️

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azaenya

1 year ago

Finished the weapon art for my Doll mod for Darkest Dungeon. Been doing one every day. Hopefully I can keep the momentum to get a finished mod.

Weapon advancements follow a tradition of the first being a monochrome version of the second, then it gets progressively less dingy and more cool.

Personally I think I cooked with the 2nd and 4th. The last isn't my favorite, I like the Saif, and the threaded canes forming a DNA strand is a good idea, but the execution wasn't fully there for me. I'm happy with it regardless.

As for why it is like that, I took heavy inspiration from the Bloodstone Shards from Bloodborne, because you know, Bloodborne weapons, and I always wanted to see how your weapons mutate as you upgrade them, but no one ever drew that. So I did.

By 4, her Beasthunter's Saif's blade gets replaced with Bloodstone Chunks, and the threaded canes' blades get mutated into Bloodstone Shards.

By 5, the Saif becomes a Blood Rock, and the DNA webbing inside becomes the blade.

So yeah, end statement.

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azaenya

1 year ago

Posting all of the pills that make you green comics here now, enjoy? I guess?

regret rates

proof

talking points

you problem

owned

modern invention

unethical experiments

typology

think of the children

side effects

facts

making sense

rushing

drawings

research

this rocks

valid

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azaenya

1 year ago

page 51 of If You'll Have Me, starring Momo and PG. Momo is a short girl with curly brown hair, dark skin, and glasses, and PG is a tall girl with short black hair and tan skin. Momo opens the exit door of a night club, which was propped open by a rock. She turns her head to see PG in the alleyway outside, sitting on a wooden crate with her back to the brick wall. "Um... Hi," Momo says hesitantly. PG glances away with a moody expression.

page 52: "You're Lea's friend, right?" PG asks suddenly. "Uh—a friend of a friend," Momo clarifies, caught off guard. "Right," PG says, with an unreadable look. There's an awkward beat of silence as Momo holds the door open, unsure of how to proceed. "So?" PG says at last. "Who did I sleep with this time?" Momo turns towards her in surprise. "E-excuse me?"

page 53: "Was it an ex? A crush?" PG looks up at her with a cool glare. "If you have a problem with me...you can say it to my face." Momo steps forward in a hurry. "Oh, no. It's—I'm sorry, I just wanted to check on you because—" The panel shows a brief flashback of a blond girl in a red dress, her hand raised to strike. Momo twists her fingers anxiously. "I saw what happened back there, and... She was wearing a ring. I thought it might have..."

page 54: Momo gasps when she gets a closer look. "Ah! See, you're bleeding!" Sure enough, there's a thin red line high on PG's cheek. "Hang on." Momo takes a seat beside her on the crate and rummages through her purse. "It's probably just a scratch, but...better safe than sorry." She turns to PG with an earnest look, holding up a small ziploc bag. "Band-Aid?" she offers. PG stares. "O...kay..." Momo perks up. "Great!" She suddenly realizes all her band-aids are cute and grows sheepish. "Sorry I don't have any cool ones... I think I got the flower Band-Aids on sale, and that's why I have so many..." She continues to ramble until her inner thoughts scream "OMG stop talking!!!!"

page 55: Momo hastily pushes the bag in PG's direction. "Er—here, you can pick." PG stares again at the offering before pointing to a random band-aid at the top. "That one's fine." The chosen band-aid is pink with small hearts. Momo takes it out. "Okay! Um...do you want me to put it on you?" PG pauses. "...Sure." Momo carefully lines the band-aid up with the small cut.

page 56: "It's pretty small, so...it shouldn't scar," Momo says, concentrating on the band-aid as she applies it to PG's cheek. "I'd put something on it when you get home, though." PG stares at Momo as she puts the bag away, making sure the contents of her purse are all in order. Momo stands up awkwardly, giving PG a quick, nervous smile. "Um...okay! I'll just go then—" "Is that really all you came out here for?" PG interrupts. Momo blinks at her. "Y-yes. Why?"

page 57: "No reason," PG says, but Momo lingers by the door, uncertain. PG speaks again after a moment. "So you really don't have a bone to pick with me or anything?" "I swear I don't!" Momo says, sitting back down on the edge of the crate. "Then why were you acting all weird that time in the elevator?" PG accuses. "You looked like I was gonna jump you at any second." "In the elevator?" Momo repeats. A brief flashback reminds her of the events leading up to their encounter in the elevator. "Oh!" Momo says, beginning to sweat. "Erm...I don't think I was acting weird, was I?"

page 58: PG looks at her, unimpressed. "You were. Kind of like now." "R-really?" Momo stammers, studiously avoiding eye contact. "That's uh... This is just how I usually am." PG suddenly leans over her, scooting close to Momo's side of the crate. "Do I make you uncomfortable?" "Huh? No!" "Are you scared of me?" "No, it's not that!" "Then why are you—" "Because you're really pretty!" Momo blurts out in a rush. The girls stare at each other, PG with a blank face, Momo with a look of flustered shock.

page 59: PG bursts out laughing. "Haha! Wow, um. Jeez. I really got it wrong, huh? Sorry for getting mad." PG smiles at her, softened by Momo's endearingly awkward outburst. "Oh—it's fine!" Momo assures her with a mix of relief and embarrassment. "Totally understandable!" In her head, Momo groans. (Way to go, Momo. Real smooth.)

page 60: PG suddenly notices two people at the distant mouth of the alleyway. Momo turns her head to see the blond girl from before, walking down the sidewalk as she leaves the club with a friend. PG looks away with a frown, and Momo glances back at her with a worried expression. PG lifts her head at Momo's tentative question. "Are you...okay?"

page 61: PG gives her a teasing smile and gestures to her purse. "Why? You gonna pull a therapist out of there?" Momo bites back a laugh. "Pfft." PG chuckles. "Haha. Yeah, I'm fine. But, um..." She pauses. "Thanks for asking," she says, quiet but honest, and Momo looks back at her in surprise.

page 62: Momo smiles sincerely. "Of course." The girls smile at each other for a moment. Then they both drop eye contact, almost shyly, unsure of what to say next. The atmosphere between them is much more comfortable compared to the beginning of their encounter. Momo breaks the spell by getting up. "Well..."

page 63: Momo opens the door and gives PG an apologetic smile over her shoulder. "I better get back to my friends. Hope you have a good night." PG watches her for a moment. "Wow..." she says finally. Momo turns around to see PG pretending to be hurt. "So you're just gonna abandon me like that? While I'm injured? Brutal." Momo laughs at the dramatics. "Haha! Oh my god. It's a scratch." "I needed medical attention," PG says seriously. Momo giggles as PG approaches her with a smile. "Come on, hang out with me for a bit. It's still early."

page 64: "Hey," PG says eagerly, taking Momo's hand in both of hers, "you wanna dance?" Momo, blushing at the sudden proximity, doesn't fully register PG's words. "Huh?" PG leads her back into the building, flashing her a grin. "Dance with me!" Momo stops suddenly in the doorway, pulling her hand back from PG's grasp. "W...wait—!"

page 65: PG turns back in surprise. "What's wrong?" Momo holds on anxiously to the strap of her purse. "I..." She drops her gaze, embarrassed. "I can't dance." PG lets the response sink in for a moment. Then she smiles encouragingly. "Well, that's fine. Neither can I."

page 66: Momo still isn't convinced, not meeting PG's gaze. PG looks at her carefully. She strides back out of the exit and into the alleyway. Momo turns around in surprise. "What are you doing?" she asks, as PG drags one of the smaller wooden crates over, scraping it across the ground. "You can hear the music like this, right?" She uses the crate to prop the door wide open. Momo stares as PG straightens up, dusting off her hands. "So!"

page 67: PG turns to her. "What do you say?" She extends a hand out to Momo, palm facing up, and smiles gently. "We can be bad dancers together." Momo looks at her hand in surprise. PG waits patiently for her response as the music drifts down the hall and into the open air.

page 68: Slowly, cautiously, Momo reaches out, placing her hand in PG's.

page 69: Back in the club, Momo's friends are taking a bathroom break down the hallway from the exit. Jess (the girl with black hair in a ponytail and brown skin) notices the door propped open, and puts a hand on Evelyn's shoulder (the girl with short pink hair and pale skin) to get her attention. The girls lean out from behind the corner, curious. Through the doorway, they see Momo dancing hand in hand with PG, laughing shyly as PG leads her around. Jess and Evelyn look at each other in delight.

page 70: Outside, the music fills the air with warm, bright colors. The page is full of pink and purple hues and accented with sparkles. Momo and PG hold hands together in the alley, smiling and dancing through the night. It's a moment for just the two of them.

happy pride!! i just wanted to share one of my favorite scenes from If You'll Have Me, my sapphic graphic novel 🌈💕✨

IYHM can be found on this list of retailers, but it can be requested from libraries too! or support your local bookstore if you can! i will also be restocking signed copies in my shop this sunday 😊 thank you for reading~

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azaenya

1 year ago

It can be really hard to learn to engage in positive self talk, but sometimes it's easier to start by pretending it's coming from a friend, first 💜

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