Thoughts On You Pt.1

thoughts on you pt.1

I'm glad to know some bits of your story too ❤️ yk this other girl thing happened to me as well :) so within the years we weren't talking, he had dated one of my ex-friends from that friend group. And I had the most problems with that girl cuz previously I was very close to her but she gradually turned out to be very toxic, would lie to me a lot and would demean me at every single thing etc.

I don't blame him for dating that girl cuz he had no idea what had actually happened between us. However they went through a really messy breakup within just a few months because the girl really was a lying backstabbing bitch to not just me the people around her too lol. When we started talking he mentioned her and said how he didn't give a shit about her anymore and brought up her shitty personality and their problems, I shared my own problems with that girl and he said he understood cuz he knows what kind of person she was. I consoled him and helped him to get over that breakup. Oh and in school he would completely ignore her existence.

But guess what, after he ghosted me, he suddenly started to talk to that girl again and hang out with her. Adding her on Instagram then putting up a birthday story for her and what not. I kinda felt betrayed because that's the same girl we shared our dislike upon and helped him get over her and now he's being oh-so-friendly with her while he was ghosting me and ignoring me in classes.

Now what i heard from my friends was apparently they're fooling around. I feel like a complete clown. All the times he'd hang out with me or walk with me around the school now feels like a bait to catch that girl's attention back then.

Anyways I really hope we can get over this soon 🫶 you seem like a very nice person and surely deserve the very best! And thank you so much for your kind words in the previous ask ilyyy 😘😘

-💗

oh my god he’s such an asshole!!! i wanna beat him up fr 😡 ugh, men and their fucking audacity. don’t worry – they deserve each other cos they’re both shitty people and you dodged a bullet because i can already tell that if you guys ended up together in a relationship, he would just cheat on you with that other girl. but i understand how this still feels like a betrayal to you and that’s completely valid. i wish you nothing but the best and i hope that you move forward from this and live a happy, healthy, and contented life because you deserve it so much ♡

i’m so happy you shared this with me, 💗. i do have irl friends who i talk about Him with but since they haven’t experienced (and i hope they never will) what i did, sometimes, the disconnect is apparent. it’s comforting to know that there is someone who can relate (i mean this in the best way possible please). i hope you have a great day ahead, okay?? ask is always open ♡

let’s just focus on jeon jungkook and bangtan HAHAHA at least they never hurt us!!!!!!

one day, i’ll write our story as a release from the what ifs.

healing isn’t linear, yes, but how long do i have to keep feeling a pinch in my heart at the mention of his name, seeing his name still on top of my contacts list, feeling anxiety bubbling within me when someone mentions his name, and dreading going to places we used to go to - some i considered my safe havens - in fear of crossing paths with him? it’s really so unfair how much he altered my life forever yet to him, i was just another notch on his belt. man, i just wanna get over this dude already :( but it’s so hard when he’s someone i used to genuinely loved, cared for, and rooted for so deeply.

do you guys have any similar stories like mine? i would love to read all about it and perhaps gain some insights and advice on how to completely surrender the what ifs with a person you loved wholeheartedly.

Zionists in Music is doing a protest to fight against zionists in the music industry. The protest will be happening on May 18th in New York City and it's to call out the three biggest music companies (UMG, Warner Music Group, Sony) and for them to divest from zionism.

you do not miss them btw. you miss the version of them you created in your head to which they never lived up to

Finally losing your attachment to someone who was bad for your life, is top tier.