[157/547] Until We Meet Again, Jungkook

[157/547] — until we meet again, jungkook ♡

i “dyed” my hair for the first time today and chose brown as a safe color since, again, it’s my first time and i don’t see the difference!!!!!!! this is clearly on me tho. maybe i should have chosen the lighter shade of brown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have so much head to give

Omg I was in a kind of situationship too 😭 it was around a year ago. Him and I were friends from fifth grade, and he was one of my first male friends. I had a crush on him back then but I never told him that. and he had surprisingly confessed that he too had a crush on me. But I still didn't tell him cuz I was too afraid and we were just too young for this shit lol.

However the next year I broke things off with my friend group and since he was also good friends with them, I thought he probably wouldn't want to talk to me anymore. So I decided to stay away from him from then onwards. And then covid happened too, which made it impossible to have any communication in person.

Fast forward to a few years later, he reached out to me on Instagram and we started chatting day and night about so many things. We cleared up misunderstandings like I thought he didn't want to do anything with me anymore and he thought my mom (a teacher in our school lol) forbade me from talking to him. He also started low-key flirting with me, complimenting here and there and saying corny shit 😂. However, a few months later his responses started getting dry and would keep me on sent for a long time. I didn't realize I was literally embarrassing myself by texting even after he once kept me unseen for days. He gradually ghosted me like that and a couple of months later unfollowed me.

Now he claims in front of his friend (that friend is my friend too) that he was just playing around and thought I got the hint. When he "realized I was quite serious about whatever was going on" he decided it was best to just ghost me. It's just funny now how he completely claims he never liked me when the things he'd say to me were so contradictory. It's been like a year now, I don't like him anymore but still feel hurt whenever I remember things.

Anyways sorry did I bore you with all this? Lol I didn't realize how much I wrote, got carried away 😭 sorry skip this if you want lol 😭😭

-💗

nooo you didn’t bore me!! i’m grateful you sent this in, lovely 💗!!!

ghosting someone is such a coward move for me. if you don’t think you’re going to work out, just say so. you owe that person that much especially if you’ve spend a significant amount of time with them that disappearing from their life, without any explanation as to why, will really affect them in a way that is indescribable. people who ghosts instead of just being honest are cowards!!!!

i’m sorry you had to go through that :( he sounds like an asshole my god and it’s worst because you considered him a friend before anything else. i definitely could relate to the whole instagram thing – that’s where my situationship started too – and going from talking to each day in and day out to just .... nothing. in hindsight, that really should have been our sign but alas, love is blind.

and fuck, him changing narratives to your friend????? SAME. he also claimed that i was the only one who liked him when he was the one who pursued me. that really broke my heart and the cherry on top was that i found that out through this other girl he was talking to while he was gradually ghosted me. that really gave me extreme anxiety on top of my already existing one and i always dreaded going to our campus and coming across them – even on social media which i don’t use anymore besides tumblr.

i’m proud of you for saying you don’t like him anymore. i wish i can say the same thing. the pain from a situationship is really greater than most because we don’t get any explanation why it ended. it just did. and when you do get an explanation, you’re fucking gaslighted beyond belief hahaha. it’s insane how a person can do that to another human being.

i really hope we heal from this unnecessary character development, 💗. i hope we never experience this again. we really don’t deserve it and i hope we realize that again and again until it’s etched in our brains.

may they never know peace every time we appear in their life whether through a dream, a song, a scent, a place, or when they simply go about their day.

We never dated, but I can't get over you. I think about you every night time, every time someone else tries to hold me. I've gotten over 2 years relationships quicker than this, and I don't know what it is about you, about us, maybe it was the fact that we never gotten an opportunity to be as great as I know we could be, but god, I cannot stop thinking about you. The only way I'd be able to is if we tried and it didn't work, because then I'd know for sure, but right now I don't, so..

I'm heartbroken from someone who never even owned my heart.

one day, i’ll write our story as a release from the what ifs.

healing isn’t linear, yes, but how long do i have to keep feeling a pinch in my heart at the mention of his name, seeing his name still on top of my contacts list, feeling anxiety bubbling within me when someone mentions his name, and dreading going to places we used to go to - some i considered my safe havens - in fear of crossing paths with him? it’s really so unfair how much he altered my life forever yet to him, i was just another notch on his belt. man, i just wanna get over this dude already :( but it’s so hard when he’s someone i used to genuinely loved, cared for, and rooted for so deeply.

do you guys have any similar stories like mine? i would love to read all about it and perhaps gain some insights and advice on how to completely surrender the what ifs with a person you loved wholeheartedly.