Andi-kook - You Are My Pain, Divine.

naked gf + fully clothed bf <3

I need to get fucked soon I need to get fucked soon and I need it to be ROUGH and MEAN and PAINFUL and I really hope I CRY

bringing this back because UGH how did my brain even conjured this dream like i didn’t know i’d be so into my man leaving his mark on me as we parted ways and it’s the only thing i’m thinking about rn ♡ i’d be such a great gf ngl.

i had the best dream ever???

edit: so i don’t really remember much of how the dream began but according to it, i was in a happy relationship???? shocking???? with some faceless guy (jungkook, let’s be real) and we’re doing couple-y things and the scene that stood out the most was when the guy leaned in to hug me and buried his face into my neck and began to suck and bite my neck, giving me a hickey before we parted ways ☹ it felt so real too damn. i’m so fucking deprived man!!!! and i want that dream to be real life so bad. i want to have a hickey from my man every time we part ways as a goodbye thing :////

healing isn’t linear, yes, but how long do i have to keep feeling a pinch in my heart at the mention of his name, seeing his name still on top of my contacts list, feeling anxiety bubbling within me when someone mentions his name, and dreading going to places we used to go to - some i considered my safe havens - in fear of crossing paths with him? it’s really so unfair how much he altered my life forever yet to him, i was just another notch on his belt. man, i just wanna get over this dude already :( but it’s so hard when he’s someone i used to genuinely loved, cared for, and rooted for so deeply.

do you guys have any similar stories like mine? i would love to read all about it and perhaps gain some insights and advice on how to completely surrender the what ifs with a person you loved wholeheartedly.